Guardian of Golden Gifts!

Abstract Crayon Drawing by Jen

Today began with a beautiful dream gift from within.  Standing in the center of a sacred circular space, I am the tender of the rich, sweet amber honey in the center.  I stand with two beautiful young men, in the circle's center, only I am the one who tends and shares the honey.  I am the one who knows it is here.  I scoop it out and share it freely.  I see other gifts all shades of golden amber, gathered here.  One is a bag of golden seeds. I want to stay here, as this guardian of golden gifts!  I love feeling the feeling of this.  I languish in this golden sweet honey place, not eager to leave.  I lay in bed, awakening slowly, feeling golden, wondering how to keep this energy lingering and how to keep sharing sweet amber honey gifts. How to keep seeding sweet gifts is the question inspiring the beginning of this most juicy, sweet, dripping, golden new day... year... decade... age and flow.  I celebrate two friends birthdays today, and I know we are all this golden honey in the center of the sacred space, we are all the golden seeds to seed the new, and we are all the guardians of infinite gifts, of lingering and sharing all of this!

This new year starts out with infinite GRACE, within the container of beautiful ONENESS.  We are here, we are helping create from this, we are feeling and uniting in GRACE, gratitude, in the LIGHT of ONENESS!

This is the new energy!  On a cosmic scale, this is true, real, and timeless! We are true, real and timeless.

Through LIFE itself unfolding, I met a friend, who introduced me to a friend, who hosts a STARSEED Circle, here in Santa Fe.  I joined in one night, and quickly became a member of the core circle.  We gather and share movies of our "off planet family," meditations, healing, transformation, LIGHT encounters, sacred stories, and all things star centered.  This circle has no formal leader, dogma, rules, cost, or agenda.  This SOUL FAMILY CIRCLE brings so much enrichment, transformation, grace, encouragement, power and awakening to all who share in it.

My Trailblazing Transformation practice is truly transformed in the light of this circle.  This circle is a sacred space where we gather, and honor the truth of who we really are.  This is one of many circles, where we meet, recognize, and freely share what we are discovering of being truly of the stars!  I am so grateful for the mystical truths we always unfold, in these circles, by way of being, speaking, honoring and seeing each one's multidimensional truth.

I began my Trailblazing Transformation Practice, 9/9/09.  I did my best at attempting to procrastinate, from my humble beginnings, training in the fields of clairvoyant seeing, healing, divination, creativity and hypnotherapy, starting in 1989.  Twenty years of hiding from my true self, and hiding my true self from most of Creation!  Yet mixed in with all the hiding, something deeper was at play, or shall I say, someONE deeper!

The Pleaidians, through Barbara Marciniak, tell us that an accelerated period began in 1987, culminating in 2012.  This is a time, that the Starseed People of Planet Earth, started really shifting, and loosing our encoded masks of convention.  1987 was the year I dropped out of The Academy of Art College, in San Francisco, and began searching for a way to attune to, and uncover my SOUL, my connection and within this, my purpose.  Now we are here, together, exposing our Souls, our ONENESS, and our TRANSFORMATIONAL Mission!  We are not at all, who we are taught to be.  We are vastly more, infinitely more than this.  I read somewhere this year, that most of the greed, war, grief, and suffering on Planet Earth, grows up out of a fear of death.

I came to Hypnotherapy, back in 1991, after reading books by pioneers in the field, by Dr. Brian Weiss, Dr. Bruce Goldberg, Dick Sutphen, and more. Pain in my body led me to explore my psyche, with a new rookie hypnotherapist, who led me in one hour, to the source of, then chronic physical pain, on a path to understanding, releasing, and relief from such emotional holding, which caused the underlying muscular contraction, causing the pain.

In 1984 and 1985, while dating a wild thing in college, I looked into his life, soul, eyes, energy, and lifestyle, and I felt a recognition of him living in multiple past lives as a South American Indian, from various tribes, and cultures.  The fact that all his bedroom furniture, besides the bed, did hang from ropes from the ceiling, added to my recognition.  I am sure, he had no idea what I was talking about.  He was of Nordic stock, hailing from Glen Ellen, Illinois.  I could see the Amazonian Tribal Leader, glaring through his taught muscles, shiny perfect teeth, and piercing blue eyes.

I independently studied the history of Astrology, painted abstract intuitive designs, and wrote poetry of broken sentences, while enrolled at the University of Iowa.  I did not identify with so much of the programing the others there, took to, so readily.  I loved creative writing, nurtured by my first rhetoric teacher, yet quickly fell bored, repeating "all the crap I learned in high school," to quote Paul Simon.

I enjoyed gathering with friends, listening to music, dancing, tuning in, self expression.  I read the jumbled poems of Jim Morrison, and questioned most of what the others took to, with less questioning than I did!  I stayed up until dawn, and slept through the dreary regiment of collegiate "programming."

All I was seeking, seemed, to not really be offered, at least not officially.  I remember finding a Maharishi TM poster, and knowing this would offer more than all of this conditioning in "blind following."  Yet I only taped the Maharishi on my dorm room wall, while mailing ever lost, "broken sentence poems" home to old friends.  Who can talk about multiple lifetime recognition, abstract art, and the history of astrology, while getting deeply programmed to be a worker droid, mortgage payer, credit card user, and exchange student in Europe, all with a new American Express Account? Certainly not the sorority girls!

So I hung out with a cool local gal, who liked to drink in the bars, I danced  to African music, with a Ghanaian student, in a rented house, I drank a lot of beer, at tasteless fraternity parties with bad music, and no dancing.  I failed out of photography, and canoeing.  I broke free, and never looked back.  I moved to California, and found others who sought more.  I got my credit cards, struggled against multitudes of jobs I never wanted, and eventually locked into the mortgage, trading in a love of African, global, and spiritual music, art, cuisine, culture, and soul awakening, for the predictable trip to Europe, mainstream job, mainstream family, and the nightmare of a cubicle job, I could never quite fathom embracing.

Now millions of others, of all ages, are reaching critical mass, knowing we are more than our educations, more than our race, creed and cultural masks, more than our amassed thing collections, more than our social status, more than our income and debt!

In my Trailblazing Transformation Practice, instead of using tired old approaches to hypnotherapy, of merely planting affirmations or suggestions, or repeating the desired intentional state 150 times, over 150 days, we are finding that the most healing regressions, are ones that allow, engage and guide the explorer back beyond the limits of this dimension, back beyond the problem states, back beyond limiting emotions known predominantly on the Earth plane, and beyond the ordinary limitations of this body, these emotions, accompanying thoughts, current ailments, frustrations, pains, limitations and diseases, back to our true multidimensional capacities, back to our limitless infinite Self!

What's happening is beyond our wildest expectations.  What explorers are uncovering is beyond what any teachings have prepared me for, and also perfectly aligned with all we know and all we have yet to see, explore and learn!

Clients are regressing to lifetimes prior to the challenges of this one, lifetimes off planet, travels in spaceships, soul planning meetings, spirit guidance, traveling as orbs of light, explorations inside our planet, missions of seeding this and other planets, life expressions as shape-shifters, and life expressions on higher dimensional stars and planets. Clients are receiving downloads, upgrades, insights, knowing, and experiencing life expressions that do not necessarily have a finite end. Explorers are meeting teachers, twins, angels, and higher vibrational healing aspects of themselves.

We are using Holographic memory Resolution, in ways that are safe, surprisingly gentle, and amazingly immediate.  Explorers are experiencing physiological healing of "diseases" we have not even formally addressed. Also explorers are experiencing physical relief, through clearing past life traumas, as they relate to present life injuries and challenges, within the physical, mental, emotional and spiritual bodies.

I am truly grateful on so many levels, to be living my purpose, helping humanity activate our own infinite inner resources, and most especially learning and witnessing the most amazing knowing, healing, wisdom, insights and soul centered transformation imaginable, and beyond my wildest imaginings too.

I am truly grateful to be open enough, to be leading the cutting edge of consciousness, as my clients seem to be leading me.  I am excited, amazed and grateful to be documenting and beginning to express and share mystical truths of individuals and humanity, that the scientists and scholars, have not learned how to fully access yet.

I am humbled and divinely inspired everyday, by the unfolding majesty of our shared journey on Earth.

Lately the sessions I have guided and shared in, have featured such amazing transformation, and so many mind blowing experiences, that I am resting in a space of awe and grace, not grasping fully how to even translate it all.

Stay tuned, as one of my renegade explorers, is coaching me to begin an outline of my first "best selling book!"  Welcome to my unofficial outline.

Wayshowers unite, as we continue to encourage and light the way together.

The most sage guidance came through a favorite teacher of mine, at his Past Life Regression Conference.  Dr. Brian Weiss told our global classroom, that it is a fallacy that there are old souls and young ones.  He said Earth is advanced enough that no one is inexperienced, in this complex level of reality.  When you encounter someone, you may fear is a young, naive soul, look again.  Dr. Weiss suggests to think of them, more as a transfer student, a new arrival, here, from another school system.  Different planets and star systems all have various rules and ways of structuring life, as do various cultures and school systems on Earth.

This month we were guided to share a profound set of clearing and soulful guided meditations, by a Starseed Brother, Cameron Day.  I hope you will visit his website,  www.ascensionhelp.com, explore these tools, and share them with many.  There are seven free guided meditations, and many articles, and insights, on the journey.  Also Cameron offers a continuation of the process in a CD for sale.  Please explore this portal to your own power, an pass it on, to all those who may find power within, through these tools.

Thank you, Divine Reflections, sparkling and inspiring grace and beauty, above, below and throughout ALL!  WE ARE HERE!  We are birthing light, divinity and truth, in ways that are unparalleled, yet increasingly free to all!  We are brave, encouraging, transcendent beings, here, on schedule, creating HEAVEN ON EARTH!

TRAILBLAZING TRANSFORMATION

Radically exceeding the expectations for Earthly SOULFUL Transformation within Human Explorers!

In LOVE, JOY & Renewal...

Jen

www.facebook.com/jenuineindigo1

Cameron Day's website:

www.AscensionHelp.com

BLUE MOON

Print by Jen

Whatever you long to do even ONCE IN A BLUE MOON, today is your day!

worlds within worlds... ONE LOVE

Crayon Drawing by Jen - 11/19/09

Worlds within worlds, within worlds. Circles of friends, connecting circles of friends, shining light and throwing shadows.

So much unfolding, in the new vibration. Worlds within worlds, collide, interweave, and overlap.  

Sharing one world with our Starseed community, in person, one on-line, one on Earth, and one in worlds beyond.  

Sharing healing and transformational worlds with my Trailblazing Transformation Explorers. Sharing worlds of connection and understanding, with these bright souls, here helping and sharing, harnessing our true, bold, bright, good, divine power. Seeing, seeding and sharing, seeding by the light in fellow artists, new children, wayshowers, friends, and self. Meeting heart to heart, with friends, in our town, in our country, in our culture, on our planet, in our cosmos, and beyond.

Experiencing guidance, grace, and upliftment. Holding and sharing space, love and connection.

Bringing and knowing safety. Shining this into the dangerous places held within self and friends.  Standing strong to witness the fallout, minefields, not fully clear, still emptying out that which is explosive, the old warriors ways.


Feeling unapologetic for openly sharing who we all are, who we can be, and who we are learning is possible, in the light of this true new sharing. Loving the un-lovers who un-love ourselves and others.

My explorer friends awaken to soul essence, to living light, sharing spontaneous awakening, as this radiates awakening light throughout... within us.

Naturally playfully sharing this, as the energies collide, guide, crash and connect like waves in the sea. Forgetting, everyone does not see as me. Remembering, as divinity shines through eyes looking into me, she activates the same in my being.

Understanding so little, too much, knowing great depths of truth, and greater mystery. Sharing connection and healing, as on 11:11 upon gathering with our core starseed circle, here in Santa Fe. One powerful, connective, inspiring force in a friend, initiating us, over and over again, once and then on the 8/8 infinity gate, in gathering, connecting and meditating.  Gathering again on 9/9/09, and  initiating the official opening of Trailblazing Transformation, my soul expanding practice, using tools of progressive/regressive hypnotherapy, Holographic Memory Resolution and more. This feels more like guidance sharing, starseed awakening. This feels circular, and mostly not map centered.

We gather on 10/10, with a few twists and bends, still amidst food, drink, cake, and trickster's curves, we share deep, spontaneous connection.

Old paradigm concerns lead to signing on towards the goal of an old paradigm job.  My soul steering, yet where and how does she lead?

Fear arises, at the crest of this wave, on the 11:11 gate. We learn together that this 11:11:(2+0+0+9=)11 is a gateway into DIVINE WILL.

We connect, commune, attune, and share.  Divine healing and light, as I squirm, letting the old, energies releasing, snarl and bite. Clinging to fear, fear clings, holding tight. Others play roles, mirroring these dark fears, clinging biting, clawing for the worst, as programming sinks into old grooves.  I fall in, fight back, fall in, fight back, let go, rise above, commune, gather... feel through.  

One friend mirrors the divine union, the divine communion, the higher way, after all numbers of meditations, and my reluctant sharing in a money meditation, and again at 11:11:11 a beautiful meditation communion with our Earth.

One friend mirrors grace, by referring me to a resonant job, and a resonant job to me. Passing my fresh new papers through. Returning home and welcoming my explorer. Progressing on this way, learning of great shifts, healing, freeing and renewal. Communing with all of this. 

Calling the old paradigm into the new. Reporting in, sharing holy welcoming, resonance and alignment of purpose, passion, and right livelihood. Despite old lies to self, fitting in this world, like falling of a log, into this buoyant sea. Visiting the spiral, of all this: love of art, culture, indigenous shamans, vision, people and service. A conduit to the conduit. Feeling good, sharing invitation into the circle of this familiar beloved world.  This is DIVINE WILL. This is my soul pat on the back. This supports my true way. Supporting this!

The friend comes exploring. We share questions and intention. She dives off the deep end, into circular worlds, spaceship worlds, center of Earth red worlds, waterway blue worlds, light of creation worlds, worlds of song, love and light, worlds of connection, worlds of creators, worlds of flight.  She shares grateful smiles, holy flight, starful seeding, rainbow jewels, and deep guidance from worlds beyond, anchoring in worlds here. We come home sharing all these gifts, to the world beyond "I"s. Sharing this is easy, while the "shapeshift-forgetful" do not always take it easy and light, as this.

Some flight lag, and dissonance occurs, bridging true worlds, into armored, false old, dirty, dry paradigms. Disarming and "dis-armoring" are two very different journeys.

Speaking truth freely, like Alice in Wonderland, surprisingly feeling sad, mad, and afraid to learn, that many do not see, feel or share this.

Still, everyday more do understand, feel in our hearts, know and resonate. We live in many, many worlds. And we are here. We are infiltrating our worlds with LOVE!

"Ultimately there is only one love, whatever it is..."

                                                       Pablo Picasso

RAW UNMASKED SHARING

Ink Drawing by Jen

11/1/09

MORNING MOURNING LOSSES OF THE CHOSEN LOST WAY, OF COLLECTIVE EARTH'S HUMANITY. TOURING THROUGH FINDING, LOSING LOST FOUND WAYS.  NEVER FULLY AHEAD OF THE GAME, ALWAYS SECRETLY LEADING, FOLLOWING, RECEIVING BEING RECEIVED, RECEDING BACK, BURSTING FORWARDS, SPIRALING ACROSS, DOWN AND THROUGH.  SHARING INVITATIONS, JOINING IN, CREATING SOMETHING TO SHARE INVITATIONS TO.  VENTURING OUT, VENTURING THROUGH.  SEEING, EXPLORING, AND MEETING EACH OTHER, ALWAYS BEGINNING ANEW.  PLUMMETING INWARD, PROJECTING THIS OUT, THE WAY OF THE ARTIST VENTURING WAY OUT.  EASE IN SHARED KNOWING, AND TENSIONS COME OUT.  WE ARE ONE, WE ARE SOME, WE SHARE, WE GLITTER, WE COME OUT AND REVEAL OURSELVES. EASIER TO EXPOSE OURSELF ON CANVAS, THAN TO CHOOSE WHAT TO WEAR.  WHO WE DARE TO BE REVEALS THROUGH WHO AND HOW WE EXPRESS.  WE MOVE EACH OTHER.  IT IS  VITAL, TAKING OUR SIGHT, CARRYING IT FORTH, TAKING OUR VOICE, LETTING IT RING FORTH, MAKING OUR MARKS, GATHERING AND LETTING THIS SHINE THROUGH.  LEARNING TO LISTEN, AND NOT JUST TO BOAST, POSE AND SHOUT.  LOOKING IN, LISTENING TO, SHINING THROUGH, MAKING CONTACT.

TENDER RAW AND REAL YOU, OLD FRIEND, POET, SPEAKER OF IMAGINATION, TRUTH, HARMONY, VISIONS, DISCONTENT, PEACE BRINGING, SEER, SEEING, WITNESSING CONNECTION, OPENING HEART, INVITING ME IN, CHATTERING OPEN TRUE COMMUNION, OPEN RAW HEART, DRAWING ME IN, HOLDING ME FIRMLY, GENTLY ROOTED, ON A PALETTE, ON YOUR DRAWING ROOM FLOOR.  OPENING HEART AND HEARTH OF FAMILY, HOME, NIGHT, KNOWN.  BEING REAL SELVES, FAMILIAR, UNKNOWN, NEW, UNRAVELING SOUL IN A GOOD WAY.  KNOWING AND SHARING OUR BEST SELVES, PEEKING INTO SOUL REVEALINGS, FROM WARMTH, STRENGTH, KNOWING, FORGETTING, MIRTH, BIRTHING INSTINCTS, BIRTHING LAUGHTER, CUDDLING, HONORING, HONORING FRIENDSHIP, QUESTIONING, "WHAT IS THIS NOW?" "WHAT DO WE KNOW?"  FEELING GOOD.  SHINING THIS INTO OLD DARK SHADOWY PLACES, ADULTS GROW WITHIN.  VEILS ARE THIN. CHILDREN DROPPING IN.  NOT LOOKING FOR ANYTHING.  NO PRECONCEIVED NEED.  JUST INNOCENT WANDERING, IN SHARING THIS CONNECTION.

FEELING GOOD.  CONNECTION OF HEART WITHIN, CONNECTION OF ART, EXPRESSION OF SOUL DARK AND LIGHT, DEATH AND LIFE, FORGETTING AND KNOWING, HARMONY AND HELL ZONES, ABILITY TO FIGHT, TAKE FLIGHT, LET IT ALL OUT, THROUGH THE RIGHT TO WRITE.  SO TOUGH WITHIN AND WITHOUT, SO GENTLE TOGETHER, TOSSLING, AND TICKLING AND WARMING AT THE FIRE AND MEDICINE OF HEALERS' HEARTS AND HANDS. TEMPERED IN LOVING FRIENDSHIP, GRACEFUL IN CONNECTION, NATURAL, RAW, UNMASKED, UNLABLED, FREE FLOWING, UNNAMED, SHARING SECRETS, ART, PICTURES, POEMS.  TOUCHING, REACHING WITH SOULS HOLDING EACH OTHERS' OWN, IN GENTLENESS.  GENUINE ONES PLAYING TOGETHER, EASILY OPENING SPACES OF SOUL SECRETS, AS WE ALWAYS DO, ON OUR OWN, IN SECRET, IN ART, IN HEART, IN COMMUNION, IN CONNECTION.  NOT OVER THE TOP, NOT SPITEFUL OR MEAN, NO BIG EGOS.  DRESSED RELAXED BLANKETED BODIES, NAKED, COZY, STRIPPED DOWN BARE FREE SOULS.  LETTING EACH ONE SEE AND BE SEEN.  TENDER AND CARING.  GOOD DOCTORING, PLAYING DOCTOR, TICKLING FROM SOUL!

SWEET RARE KNOWING COZY FRIENDSHIP.  GIVING, SHARING, KNOWING, REVEALING. CIRCULAR ART SHOW, CIRCULAR KNOWING.  SWEET FRIENDS IN MASS.  SWEET FRIENDS GATHER, SWEET FRIEND WELCOMES ME WITH KIND EYES.  GATHER SEEING BEAUTY, MEANING, POWER, PURPOSE, ART AND ARTISTS, LIFE AND FAMILY.  CHATTERING ALL NIGHT. FEELING BLESSED.  BEING WELCOMED IN WELCOMING.  SHARING WELCOMING WITH KNOWING FRIENDSHIP, HEART, WITH KNOWING ARTISTS' SOUL.  I SEE SO MUCH OF EACH ONE'S REFLECTION.  INNOCENT IN THIS REAL HEART SPACE.  OPENING UP THE BOOKS OF YOUR LIFE, STREAMING INTO THE BOOKS OF MINE.  TRICKY TRICKSTER TO THOSE NOT INNOCENT ENOUGH TO SEE INTO YOUR HEART.  OPENING ME BACK INTO MY INNOCENT OWN.  GIVING ME FREE REIGN IN THIS INNER SANCTUM.

SHREWD JEWISH OPEN IDEAS ON BLOGGING, PUBLISHING, RECORDING, AND SHARING SUCH BOOKS OF LIFE, SUCH PAINTERS PAINTING.  ARTISTS TEACHING ARTISTS, HEALERS HEALING HEALERS, PAINTERS PAINTING PAINTERS, LOVERS LOVING LOVERS, FRIENDS BEFRIENDING FRIENDSHIP, IN THE FRIEND.  BEING IN THE MOMENT.  DECIPHERING OLD CRYPTIC CLUES, SHARING BRAKE-THROUGHS INTO WHO YOU ARE, AND WHO I AM. COMING BACK AROUND SHARING GRACE AND BEAUTY OF WHO WE ALL ARE, TRUE AND UNMASKED, ON HALLOWEEN, SHARING TREATS, TRICKS, GIFTS, HEART AND TRUTH IN THIS FORTRESS OF FRIENDSHIP WITH YOU!

Inner demons mask INNER DIVINITY

Collaborative Multi Media Painting by Kamajou Tadfor & Jen Klarfeld

www.Ahalenia.com/demons

Dear Groovy Creation:

Please excuse me for weaning off my beautiful hand collaged journals, a whole month ago today, in trade for blogging on my new blog, here.  Tonight I sat down, and picked up my current, bold, art covered journal, collaged in images of bold orange-yellow coral, an orange, expressionistic Jamie Chase painted female figure, a beaded native bag, transformed to a pillow, behind the figure, an older Native Woman, kissing her Man, donning a bold, ceremonial, red, orange, yellow, black and white, headdress, ribbon shirt, beadwork and all,  a beautiful modern Kachina painting by Gregory Lomayesva, and one painted cubist woman in candy colored turquoise green, sky blue, orange-yellow, sky blue, scarlet red, and pale yellow!  Funny as it celebrates my deep love of art, creativity, painting and colors, while I presently find myself, less focused on painting, and more focused on the soul arts!

Still life opens opportunities for me to continue juggling my two highest passions, soul transformation, and process painting, from soul to canvas!

Now I experiment here, crossing the journal and blog, like a genetic writing experiment.  May it all be for good.  Here goes:

I DO FEEL A MASSIVE SHIFT FROM:

• old paradigm to new
• struggling to thriving
• karma to grace
• separation to oneness
• suffering to elation
• fighting against to attracting & surrender
• hiding to revealing
• secrets to openess
• greed & need to sharing & service
• trauma to transformation
• warring to bliss
• feeling lost to sharing understanding
• isolation to unity
• brokenness to wholeness
• disease to healing
• busy-ness to being
• mechanistic to natural
• mutant to real
• lost to multiversal
• density to light
• slavery to freedom
• hurt to well
• following to leading
• cluelessness to knowing
• stuck to growing
• feeling small to divine
• abandonment to connection
• local to cosmic
• hateful to loving
• judging to accepting

I just sat down and explored a guided meditation, to meet my "inner demon," to paint for the upcoming "Inner Demon Show," America Meredith invited me to show in, October 30th, at her Second Street Studio, in Santa Fe.

A local facebook, artist friend, expressed "concern," for why exactly I am dabbling in inner demons?  He said he helps people clear demons and that the subject is not light.  I said, I too help people transform their inner demons, yet I know it can indeed be light, when we open to a larger context.

"What is my primary inner demon?" I wondered, as I forged inward to explore.

At first I saw a male figure, a hurt man.  Then I saw a more expansive indigo, crystal, and violet energy, kind of contracted, very deflated, an energy living like a sponge, or a filter, soaking up so much of the dense, Earthy human rays of hurt, suffering, and sadness.  This energy seemed to learn, from lineages of mothers, how to feel, see, mirror, attract, soak up, and run the energy of pain.  This energy learned to collapse inward and soak up other people's pain.  On Earth, it learned to absorb and reflect the ways of humans.  It learned to stifle its true nature, which is to radiate divine light, from the inside, out.  It learned to withhold this light, this crystal clarity, this cosmic unity, and instead how to suck in and grow dense and clogged with pain, from hurt human beings, taking this pain in, and on, as if its own!

So in talking to me, and me talking to this energy, my inner demon slowly and surely, morphed into my INNER DIVINITY, transforming from "clogged, dense, heavy, suck up," back to indigo, crystal, violet, lavender radiance, feeling colorful, cosmic, and freeing, purposeful, satisfying and true!

The inner demon is really my vast and infinite high vibrational divinity, coming back out to play.

I feel a little too energetically ambushed to leap in and paint this right away.

I saw beautiful energies, colors, and dancing divinity, expanding and unfolding beyond the masks of demon territories.  It may be difficult to paint, express and defend.  Perhaps I will include some of the human masks it has learned, in past, to hide behind.

Within is our VAST DIVINITY.  In a conditioned, warring world, it learns to collapse itself, to hide, and soak up outward pain.  The TRUTH is far more VAST!

Seeing this, as revealed by some of my clients, reminds that a very popular game on Earth, is that of fear, shutting down, and loading up with yucky feelings, thoughts, and vibes.

My inner demon grew up, out of a drive for self protection.  Vast power lives beyond the small hiding poses!  I am living and revealing this freely now!  I am grateful to share in the massive wave of humanity, awakening and sharing this now!

Starseed Regression Pioneer Dolores Cannon

"Other Worldly Landscape" by Jen

www.OzarkMt.com

Yesterday felt like an enormously full day! It felt like many days, compacted into one.  It felt like traversing many worlds from one!

My explorer shared, after a session, that Dolores Cannon would be on Coast to Coast am Radio, later the same day.

My client had a rich, full session, touring the cosmos, and experiencing deeper discoveries about life aboard spaceships and much much more. This explorer, felt waves of sadness, watching a scene, in Earh's history unfold, where the Persians blew themselves up, entirely. I joked that I dated one, so at least one must have survived.

Later that day I retrieved a phone message from the old Persian love, from 18 or so years past. I screamed in shock hearing his voice after so long!  I tackled a few side projects, then dialed him up, back in my old stomping ground of San Francisco.

We had a few long heart to heart catch up sessions. It felt very dear to connect, and catch the infinite timeless wave, that true love and friendship anchors, beyond ordinary time, space, and life preoccupations. When two know each other's heart once, this always remains alive and strong. It's a gift when both friends are vulnerable and open enough to really let each other in. This is accessible, enriching, and true, any time it is opened up and honored!

My work is essentially, facilitating altered states in explorers, via focused states of attention and regression. So yesterday, I shared in some far out states, then reconnected over an 18 year gap in communications, to a true love.

Later I wrestled my radio, and tuned into Coat to Coast am radio, where host George Noory was interviewing Starseed Regression Pioneer, masterful, multidimensional hypnotherapist, and past life researcher, lecturer, author, and publisher, Dolores Cannon.

Dolores Cannon is a huge hero of our local Santa Fe Starseed Circle, ever since I saw a book, with a big gray alien on the cover, called "The Custodians" By Dolores, at my Friend Lynda's studio. I got on line, and researched her books, and bought some for myself, for Lynda, and for my Dad. Now we have all read her books, including, "Keepers of the Garden," "Star Crash," and "The Convoluted Universe Books One, Two, & Three!"  This is radically shifting our awareness, and my past life regression practice.

Dolores Cannon is one of my top favorite mentors, and the clients with whom I work, who have read her books, are having highly empowering, off planet, multi-dimensional, spaceship excursions, and "living as light" memories! My new practice is literally out of this world, thanks to Dolores Cannon.  People are walking out, amazed and grateful, for new levels of understanding to many many major life questions.

One of my starseed friends on facebook, asked me to share my audio recording of the show. I am not that technically advanced yet. So instead I started writing today, about last night's mind blowing, soul stirring, heart awakening show. I feel like I tripped out through the Multiverse and back, and am still letting it all sink in.  Here's what I wrote, in my letter to a handful of friends, whom I invited to listen to the show!

The theme of the show was that Dolores' clients have shown to her, that there are three waves of "aliens" that are here on Earth, as "volunteers," to help the young Earth race evolve, without blowing up the classroom, like modern American troubled teenagers!

She explained that the three waves, began with the first wave, starting around 1947, shortly after the atomic bomb went off. Some seem older than this too me, yet they could also be "walk ins," if their interest in UFO's really peaked more, around 1947. Is Dolores a volunteer, as George inquired? She's very humble about it, yet she's definitely a leader among us! The alien race came to help us young ones to not blow ourselves up, with *our new power, while still evolving. She said Earth is seeded with life forms from all over the multiverse!

For more about "our new power," watch the film, "Humanity Ascending," by Futurist Visionary Barbara Marx Hubbard.

Dolores said that Zachariah Sitchin's research focuses mostly, only on one specific race that came and enslaved earthlings, yet the seeding started well before this small bit. Personally I think Sitchen shares a story that is kind of pre-multidimensionality, so it serves some, yet it is far from the whole story, which many more are naturally attuned to knowing! His story is not what I know as truth, within my being. It is a more humanoid, 4-D vibrational story.

Dolores said this is all like a play, this Earth life, that we play many, many roles, here. We come from the  the Source, from the light, and we play all the roles, like the costume corner, in kindergarten. I quite agree! Dr. Brian Weiss says the same thing. We are not black, or white, red, or yellow, priest, or guru, parent or child, leader or follower, slave or slave master, Jewish or Jain. We are the light beyond all this, which puts on a new costume every lifetime, or every Halloween!

She said there are different assignments Volunteers are on. Some are Seeders, and some are Recorders, and some are Weeders weeding something out, on Earth. Many are Messengers, relaying cosmic knowing to Earth Family, as a wake up call, as an evolutionary boost, as an "inside job!"

Some of the new wavers fulfill our mission, simply by living, enlivening our knowing, in ways that shift masses of humans, simply by contact, and expression, like the hundredth monkey.

There are a third wave, that came in, in the 1970's, and later. I see it this way, from my own research.

The first wave had more problems, felt more suicidal, felt more conflicted with the violent ways

of humanoids. The second wave had less problems, and more shared understanding! The first wave was marked by Systems Busters, Way Showers, Pioneers, and all that I deeply relate to!

Dolores Cannon, like Barbara Marciniak and the Pleaidians*, said that we are shifting into a splitting of two worlds, the New Earth, and the Old, Karmic Wheel World. She said, if you are aware of being here to create the New Earth, then you're coming along, and those who are continuing to spin in karmic circles of dense emotion and habituation, will stay on the Old Earth, with its wars, Earth changes, diseases, fights turbulence, chaos, and lessons!

* see "Bringers of the Dawn," the 18 part Pleaidian channeling, on www.youtube.com. Listen to the one with images, it's newer and better!

She said that we have already changed the Earth and awareness greatly, and that there is no great war or armageddon, coming.

Dolores mentioned a comet that collided with the Earth, bringing bacteria, which brought with it disease. She explains that those overseeing Earth could have bagged the whole experiment, and started over from scratch, then, yet chose not to. She shared of how some of the new kids are being born with the new DNA, deep knowing, and new levels of immunity to disease, as we are evolving into a brilliant new humanity, despite what the pharmaceutical, insurance, news media and other corporate interests want you to believe!

She spoke of these new star children coming in, learning so fast and knowing so much, that some graduate college by age 9, and start corporations to help support the other star kids and their specific missions!

She said the bible is not the "word of God," it is more a human history, written by man. She noted that when the council of Nicea gathered to compile the books of the bible, that many important books were left out.

She spoke of us coming from SOURCE, and of how some "Aliens" can live on LIGHT from the source, as they are still physical, while their organs have atrophied.

She made it clear that all alien abductions are pre-agreed to, by the humans, and that those humans are connected to, or from the Alien race doing the abducting. These humans are being tracked, implanted, and overseen, as they signed on for. Some of our "implants" are recording devices, being tracked by our off planet family.

Dolores explained that we are the first planet in the Universe that is morphing from a 3-D planet, into a 5-D planet, while at the same time maintaining the old 3-D one. She said it is very brave for "volunteers" to come here. She noted that many of our enlightened star family fear us, for our violence, immaturity, destructive power, and more.  Many of us "Volunteers," inherently fear the chaos, control, rage and fear-filled ways of the humanoids!

One First Wave Volunteer, spoke of telling his mother, as a young boy, how upset he was with how ignorant and controlling, raging and warlike the race here is! The mother didn't know what to make of this, as he seemed to include her, in his harsh judgement, from his gentle awakened soul perspective.

Dolores said that we are changing our outcome, which is not set in stone. She said the family will not let the Earth Children blow up our planet. This would cause too much trauma in the Multiverse. Still we are set, far removed from other life, so if we do screw up, other planets and civilizations will not be immediately corrupted. Still there is a back up planet, that is not exactly like Earth, yet is available in the wings, in case we ever need to relocate.

She said there is a race living inside the planet, that has little interest in fraternizing with us, out here, on the surface, and that they have their own sun, in there. We are too violent and warlike for their attention. She explained that most entryways to the inner Earth are found under pyramids.

Many "Volunteers" called in, and identified their gifts and challenges, as First, Second, and Third Wavers. She said the most important way out of the pain of being an enlightened volunteer, and feeling the pain of the war, violence, and immaturity of humanoids, is to help people. "We are here on Earth to help people!"

Dolores reported that we are here to join the Galactic Federation, and take our rightful place amongst our own!

And there were a few comments on how it is out of alignment with natural law, for us to manipulate the foods, the gene pool, and experiment with mutating these or genetically experimenting with crossing pig cells with those of humans. Dolores' books shed light on the Experiments on Atlantis, and how these were their downfall, and of how we are spiraling round, repeating some of this, right now. Some of us, know about this, yet for some this is new.

That's my overview. I took a zillion notes.

This is what I am delighted to procure from Dolores and George, and to share with you, here.

Thanks for your interest!

In Joy, Love and Oneness!

Jen

STARSEED DOWNLOAD

Starseed Multi Media Painting by Jen

Today I enjoyed an amazing gift, simply by showing up and doing my "perfect work," as my old hypnotherapy teacher used to say! Actually, I mostly felt like I surrendered, and got to witness a most amazing journey through CREATION!

Since last night, after our weekly Star Family reunion, otherwise known as: Alien Movie Night, shared with dear friends, I came home seeing 1:11, 2:22, 11:11, 1:11 & 2:22 on the clocks around me. Star circle friends relate this to ascension, and reawakening our cosmic, or multi-dimensional awareness.

I watched a giant, brightly lit, long, slender, horizontal cloud formation, in the sky, en route home, appear like a mother-ship, illuminating Santa Fe, for the second night in a row. I drove up to see two beautiful coyotes, making tracks across my neighbor's yard. Next the cloud morphed into a giant graphic eagle, with a head like images that have come through my own art, and that of beloved local artist friends!

The weekend's evenings were full of celebration, excitement, sharing, some shadow revelations, and plenty of light, a starseed birthday party, story sharing, and more. The rich weekend included an "African Village" dance, feast, story sharing and gathering, up a narrow earthen road, with 40 old and new friends!

Today I picked up a book by Barbara Marciniak, who channels "Pleiadian Wisdom for a World in Chaos, "Path of Empowerment." Before my starseed explorer arrived I did a quick "book divination," to a page, asking to tune into significant guidance, to my client's exploration. I tuned into a high powered insight, that seemed resonant with both my client, myself, and perhaps the majority of Humanity! This insight was indeed instrumental, in guiding the explorer through the maze of sometimes conflicting old and new paradigm motivations and messages.

I have been gathering clues, as I guide each explorer, and was feeling a hunch from a previous session, that the Starseed circle, especially those highly active in vibrational healing, need very little additional force towards regressing into the deepened state. I altered the language to best suit the journey's objective, after a deep and clarifying interview.

I improvised a cosmic, still focused induction, using light, color and some simple visualization. The explorer, found him/herself in an alternate dimension, as clues morphed a bit, on the journey. The explorer eventually expressed shapeshifting abilities, quite natural to his/her dimension. It was all very exciting, unique and direct. The multidimensional expression, was swift, focused, and in a leadership role, in the alternate dimension. It was quite beautiful, and I stayed open to the dimensional nuances, that, at various times, did not conform to logic, convention, or ordinary Earth ways. Luckily I was better aligned with this extraordinary awareness, than with many earthlings, and at other moments, I was simply receiving information, through my sense of knowing, sometimes before having details explained for me!

At one point my explorer even received a download, of the more expansive, true, and updated truth of who she/he is! It was off the charts, marvelous! I was at times giddy, like sports fans might be, at a big game, only I felt giddy for my explorer, and for the truths experienced and shared! I felt giddy to be in what felt like the audience, while appearing to be the leading one, (out on the leading edge, while all the while feeling divinely led!!)

How we know so much, and have been so masterful at hiding from many, and ourselves how vast our being truly is, and how much knowing we immediately bring, and how unified we all really are, and how infinite are our gifts, is all quite miraculous to witness, and to directly experience! How humbling to be expertly guided on these journeys by my expansive true self, that of my explorer, our angels, guides, archangels, and ALL!

When I asked the name of my explorer's infinite, Arcturian expression, we were told, that it did not easily translate into Earth words. Rather it is more a sound. It was easiest to translate into color.

I am trained, adept, and impassioned in working with color, so I cheered, inwardly at this too. Still it was coming through higher dimensions, instead of our ordinary Earthly focus, so I stayed open, once again, remaining playful, allowing us both to be guided, receive, and intuit, what to do, on this dimension, with a multidimensional download, of who my explorer truly is, and an alignment with this download, in the way of color rays, in specific formatting!

I love my calling, within which I am newly updated, to new details of, often... continually.

While socializing, I tell lawyers, of how I am from a long line of lawyers, on both sides of my family. I carry this energy forward, in mediating between the eclectic aspects, resources, talents and relationships within these explorers!

Sometimes I meet computer programers, and share of how, I too, work with deprograming the computers we are born with!

For many years past, I actively sought out a male partner to be the adventurer, and leader, with whom to enrich my inwardly focused way! Now I am morphing/becoming so much of what I once sought outwardly, within who I am, here, now, and beyond!

It is in grace, blessing, honor and gratitude, this stepping into the ever incomplete, and always infinite power I presently embody, on this grand cosmic journey, here on our beautiful jewel of a mother planet, Earth. I am deeply moved, tickled, delighted and amazed, to hold space for my kindred spirit family, to uncover our true dimensionality, and share this openly and freely.

I am deeply grateful, to feel the same awe, and grace, that I feel towards all who guide, initiate, teach and show me the way. If I never sit in front of a formal, teacher, guru, counsel or guide again, I am receiving, and sharing in full circle/spherical/oneness/reality(-ies), beyond what my logical mind can fully articulate. And this is the richest gift to be granted, to earn, accept, receive, and share: my opening, to hold, express and initiate this space for awakening starseed humanity, right here in my most beloved and beautiful, Santa Fe!

To be truly learning new realities with infinite star beings, co-creatively leading our own cosmic initiation amongst friends, this is the most delicious reality, I know so far! This reality lusciously embraces, contains, links back to and unites ALL, most SPLENDIDLY!

Thank you Starseed Friend, Nation, Multiverse and Family, for the sweet seeds of this sharing!

A timeless newly reacquainted beloved friend, used to ask me and others, "I know you can give, but can you receive?!!!!" Trailblazing this Transformation is my unequivocal, indelible, impassioned "YES!"