Emergence, Renewal, and New Leaps

I am grateful to my friend Wayne Overall, who shared some encouraging words about my expressive writing gifts, with me today.

I guess I stopped expressing through writing, at least formally, on my blog, early in 2021.

Probably around this same time, I also shut down my love of, and prioritization of expressing through making art, when I instead was facing the loss of so many of my closest friends and caring friendships.

This is all something worthy of looking at, and reviving, where vitality invites!

There is a lot of my true self, my home, my property, my passions, my self care, and visions for what I intended, and even my soul work, that I have simply shut down, and stopped uplifting.

I’ve lived through the passing, near and beyond 90, of both my beloved parents.

I’ve lived through the trauma of broken friendships, betrayals of sorts, or simply growth in severed and different directions.

My soul self took on opportunities like I was back in the spiritual world, like I was limitless.

Yet I must have broke, in the energies between defending my truth, and outgrowing my comfort and resonance in and with Santa Fe, amidst the changes within me, and those outside of me.

Now I am living simply, and very aware of the hurts I have let fester inside me, and some out around me!

I am more open to collapsing my tent, here, and moving forward, in a place of new resonance and clear kind beginnings.

I never imagined I would suddenly feel inspired to move on from Santa Fe.  

Yet inspired by my friend and soul sistar Lori Smiskol, I am plotting my likely course, somewhere more gentle for me.

Also inspired by my friend and soul kin Paula Watters Jones, who moved from Taos, New Mexico, and closer to Dolores Cannon Country, and is loving the dream, growing her food, painting her art, visiting Santa Fe, New Mexico, and selling her paintings on famous Canyon Road!

I am looking at the possibilities that moving to Arkansas may hold.  I am exploring Hot Springs and Hot Springs Village, in central Arkansas, as a possible next leap, and new home, surrounded by gentle people, warm community, lakes, water, crystals, swimming pols, hiking trails, and a slower pace of living, I just may need in recovering myself!

Make Jen Great Again.

My last name and my essence is encoded with clarity.  And alas we are in a polarity school.  

So while I feel self judgment, sadness, failure, and pretty lonely through so much of these changes, I equally welcome and bless trailblazing transformation, new beginnings, clarity, and renewal.

I will turn 60 in a few months.  I’m ready to leave a  lot of wreckage and loss behind me, and explore a whole new cycle of who I am, opening more room for me, and new levels and expressions of nature, America, community, friendship, safety, balance, ease, communion, and blessed service.

I am ready to embrace the unknown, to be free, and be free to be me, in a whole new place and way.

I am grateful to all the people and places, community, and activities thus far, here, in my home of 25 years.

And I am ready to try something new, and to embrace a whole new cycle of a life that delights and surprises me first, and me to share, as I glean a new flow.

So thank you to all who inspire me.

The divide, crash, fall, and breakdown, has not been easy!  Yet we emerge anew and can do so, again and again.

On the wings of love, all my Dear Ones!

I love you all,  across our odd changes, and beyond!

Sad for the lower range emotions.  Yet grateful for opportunities through authenticity, for betterment, renewal, uplift, and connection.

This quest began in connection!

This human experience, it cheers us on, when we hold it in a fresh and bright light!

Dear encouragement on your best pathway, and quantum leaps, my precious friends! 💛💖🩵