I am grateful to my friend Wayne Overall, who shared some encouraging words about my expressive writing gifts, with me today.
I guess I stopped expressing through writing, at least formally, on my blog, early in 2021.
Probably around this same time, I also shut down my love of, and prioritization of expressing through making art, when I instead was facing the loss of so many of my closest friends and caring friendships.
This is all something worthy of looking at, and reviving, where vitality invites!
There is a lot of my true self, my home, my property, my passions, my self care, and visions for what I intended, and even my soul work, that I have simply shut down, and stopped uplifting.
I’ve lived through the passing, near and beyond 90, of both my beloved parents.
I’ve lived through the trauma of broken friendships, betrayals of sorts, or simply growth in severed and different directions.
My soul self took on opportunities like I was back in the spiritual world, like I was limitless.
Yet I must have broke, in the energies between defending my truth, and outgrowing my comfort and resonance in and with Santa Fe, amidst the changes within me, and those outside of me.
Now I am living simply, and very aware of the hurts I have let fester inside me, and some out around me!
I am more open to collapsing my tent, here, and moving forward, in a place of new resonance and clear kind beginnings.
I never imagined I would suddenly feel inspired to move on from Santa Fe.
Yet inspired by my friend and soul sistar Lori Smiskol, I am plotting my likely course, somewhere more gentle for me.
Also inspired by my friend and soul kin Paula Watters Jones, who moved from Taos, New Mexico, and closer to Dolores Cannon Country, and is loving the dream, growing her food, painting her art, visiting Santa Fe, New Mexico, and selling her paintings on famous Canyon Road!
I am looking at the possibilities that moving to Arkansas may hold. I am exploring Hot Springs and Hot Springs Village, in central Arkansas, as a possible next leap, and new home, surrounded by gentle people, warm community, lakes, water, crystals, swimming pols, hiking trails, and a slower pace of living, I just may need in recovering myself!
Make Jen Great Again.
My last name and my essence is encoded with clarity. And alas we are in a polarity school.
So while I feel self judgment, sadness, failure, and pretty lonely through so much of these changes, I equally welcome and bless trailblazing transformation, new beginnings, clarity, and renewal.
I will turn 60 in a few months. I’m ready to leave a lot of wreckage and loss behind me, and explore a whole new cycle of who I am, opening more room for me, and new levels and expressions of nature, America, community, friendship, safety, balance, ease, communion, and blessed service.
I am ready to embrace the unknown, to be free, and be free to be me, in a whole new place and way.
I am grateful to all the people and places, community, and activities thus far, here, in my home of 25 years.
And I am ready to try something new, and to embrace a whole new cycle of a life that delights and surprises me first, and me to share, as I glean a new flow.
So thank you to all who inspire me.
The divide, crash, fall, and breakdown, has not been easy! Yet we emerge anew and can do so, again and again.
On the wings of love, all my Dear Ones!
I love you all, across our odd changes, and beyond!
Sad for the lower range emotions. Yet grateful for opportunities through authenticity, for betterment, renewal, uplift, and connection.
This quest began in connection!
This human experience, it cheers us on, when we hold it in a fresh and bright light!
Jen Klarfeld Enjoying the Red Rocks of Sedona 2015
Hi Friend,
I still wonder how you are doing? How are you traversing this mass global initiation?
Our teachers and guides have been preparing many, over decades for this shift to a unified, loving, authentic, co-creative, free-will based world called the New Earth. On this New Earth many of us, who see ourselves as Galactic Volunteers, have worked through a lot of our trauma throughout our life and lifetimes. Check out Laura Eisenhower, Dwight’s granddaughter. She talks very fast, and feels like a 5 on the Enneagram to me. I don’t so much denounce the ego like Arjuna & Eckart Tolle & their restrictive systems plot to. Arjuna is one, of some special friends and guides, who taught me about the Enneagram System, 25 years ago. It still helps me navigate human teachers and personality filters! My personality does not need to attack and blame the ego. In fact sometimes I could use a little more ego, to help build my brand, leadership, practice, art, life, structure, and businesses. I like Nora Herold, who instructs us to operate from joy, and also to feel our feelings authentically. She offers a system to feel, process, and allow our feelings, and not just shackle and obliterate them. If you listen to any really good astrologers and evolutionary astrologers, our charts and the larger planetary movements hold clues as to what we’re traversing through. I’m no official astrologer, more awed by the stuff, over most of my life. Some are saying the planets are aligned in similar ways, to during the American Revolution. Still for some reason the Revolution feels very global and unified right now!
I listen to vlogs, like that of Patricia Cote Robles of Era of Peace, on her website and on Youtube. I read channelers in Sedona Journal of Emergence, and listen to them on-line. Plus I relate more as a soul than a human, and likely have since high school, as an Early Indigo and First Wave Galactic Volunteer.
I’m grateful to not be in a big city now. I am hearing more about alternative communities. Maybe we will again live by necessity, in small, gentle, tribal community, with community gardens, as Arjuna foresaw 25 years ago. Watch the movie “Thrive," for free on YouTube and the “Indigo Evolution.”
It can be scary, right now, traversing the current situations and conditions. I don’t toss out my ego, as it has a function and a purpose, and I honor that. I need it to keep feeling my authentic feelings, so I can cry when I see a "food banks need your help" sign, flashing at the highway entrance, when I haven't even got my own adult survival figured out fully, and to get mad, and address our politicians and friends, when our humans freedoms temporarily get threatened and suspended... see Resolution 6666 the TRACE Act, as Dr. Rashid Buttar is urgently disclosing!
Also listening to David Wilcock, who has insider info on the Satanic Occultists controlling the systems and humans throughout history, and their devilish plot to solve "the world population problem." I no longer see Trump as the awful devil, people who had dangerous dad’s, and authority issues, and also health and security, want to parody him into. We don’t have all the facts yet, as to his real role in stepping into world leadership. I believe he was brought on board as a wild card, a trump card, to help us overthrow and take down the real, and far more dangerous Deep State, black t-shirts, ca bal, pirates, predators, global elite, and disordered patriarchal occultists.
As per the Vaxines, Dr. Zach Bush and now even Fauci are admitting they could take 12 - 18 months to formulate, and likely they still won’t work.
Jen in the 1980's "Help God Feel" San Francisco Street Graffiti Photo credit to Kelly Weir
Heath, healing, and understanding which dangerous meds to take patients off of, and more, during these rushes of disease and symptoms is a big and neglected part what can help in the healing. Opening legal discussions about allowing alternative health resources is crucial right now. We need healthy, secure, open fluid communication, and social options and media that allow for this 100%. Honoring the herd immunity necessities, and outgrowing the fear propaganda in how we hold and see death, is a huge part of truth, healing and healthy awareness and immunity now too.
Then we have to advocate for turning all the major systems on Earth around, from dangerous chemical farming to natural organic farming, free energy, free information, free truth, news, and financing, and healthcare. As we do this, the current epidemics of fear, panic, brainwashing, mass manipulations, abuse, tyranny, artificial intelligence manipulation, and the viruses, man manipulated and natural, will hold less and less power to harm.
"Thrive: What on Earth will it Take?" the movie, which free streamed in Santa Fe and globally on 11/11/11, expresses 19 + years of solid research into the corruption, at the top of all major systems of healthcare, housing, food, medicine, energy, information, socialization, banking, and more, on our world, and how whole communities, cities, and nations are already stepping up to ban GMO’s, and now 5G. I hear stories, where birds are dismantling 5-G towers right now. Thrive the full length documentary can also be viewed for free on YouTube.
Also "The Indigo Evolution" is a film available for free viewing, on YouTube, as it educates people, in a documentary format, on evolutionary changes in humanity, including the phenomenon of indigo kids, as I am an early part of.
I think that 2 expressions of trauma, overwhelm, and narcissism, are exploding outward, and or imploding inward. I don’t think denying our ego straight-up, does anyone any authentic good. That’s why overall, my focus isn’t on the Eckart Tolle approach. My favorite teachers, guides, and real people, are many divine feminine leaders, systems, and balanced male teachers including Matt Kahn. These systems and teachers like Vianna Stibal of ThetaHealing, Dolores & Julia Cannon of QHHT, and Teal Swan, who’s work is all about facing and feeling one’s shadow, on a transformational path from trauma back to true self love, are ones I feel the greatest balance and authenticity in!
Jen & Minnie Mouse at Disney World Photo credit to my dear ol' Dad Marshall Klarfeld
I believe and experience our Mother Earth as abundant, sovereign, and whole, regardless of our human levels of unconsciousness, greed, corruption, delusion, and trickery. I believe that she has already reached 5-D, and that the mess unfolding now is part of our muddy, bloody labor of birthing the New Earth. Over the 25 years between 1987 & 2012, all life on Earth has been accelerating, and now as we cross into 5-D, the light love and unity is accelerating, as is some of the darkness and fear. I believe we Wayshowers have done the work to upshift ourselves and humanity, our lineages and DNA. I believe we need to claim, state, express and know our sovereignty, as opposed to oppression via old slave programs, and playing pawns in the old corrupts systems. The energies and days of this are over, as we let them dismantle and end, here on Earth.
What is wildly tricky about these times, is that truth has been corrupted, as many of the 3-D players, predators, and old pirates are manipulating info on-line, and within artificial man made, man corrupted, capitalistic systems, with excesses of money, power over, abuses, predatory tyrannies, & their illusions of power over dynamics and habits.
Plus my sources say this Ascension is being ignited individually, so many brainwashed people, or people living in our heads, are being thrashed around by our internal triggers, genetic triggers, past life triggers, infighting and info wars on social media, fear, both false and real, as per health, danger, death and disease.
I believe we’re being called back to the wholeness of our hearts, back to the uplifting nourishing, nurturing, abundance of our true new earth and all of creation. Back to our higher vibrations, and back to our own intuition. Also being called back to true intimacy with chosen resonant family, friends, community and soul circles, locally and globally. I love it. A true Grace has been released out through, and onto our sacred shifting planet, and through and to our human family. It is said, even the old slave programs are dismantling. So the old systems are crashing, to pave ways into 5-D offerings and choices, within our freewill Universe.
I didn’t come all this way, for this highly advanced assignment to fail, nor to see it fail. Memories of such past failures are definitely being triggered through all of this! “Never again!” Was our programmed response after cataclysms, in and of the fall of ancient Atlantis. Still what we are seeing is 3-D reality, and limitations breaking free into our 5-D encodement. So what is very tricky now, is 3, 4 & 5-D are all operating simultaneously. Which one do you wish to victoriously usher in? We’re still operating within the realities and laws of all 3 of them! Which one do you want a “heads-up,” in, as in, “oh, that old world trickery? I could do without that!” Or, “oh you 3-D fears, I love you, and hold space for you as a nurturing mother and parent right now!”
Artist Jen Klarfeld Inspiration Squad Photo credit to Laura Tarnoff
I dropped out of 2 - 3 months of therapy recently, as my then tele-medicine therapist felt more fears around safety, her life and mine, than I even did, and I actually felt relieved letting her go. Why? Because, as we focus on frequencies and energy, feelings and intuition, we can see all that no longer serves us, in a split second. But we have to know one world, or set of timelines is dying, and being swiftly dismantled, and we need to move all our foundations and energetic ties up, off, and out of it, and build and grow our new foundations and creations on the solid, and slightly morphing new energies of our hearts, of the New Earth, of the Aquarian Age, and of caring and loving 5-D community, energy, service, unity, and co-creation, instead of old models of corruption, greed, coercion and blind commerce, for it’s own sake, and for the sake of a disordered, lost, misguided few controllers. So another way to see it, is the disordered, sick, predatory, pirating occultists are now living in a new, true, transparent, just, loving, unity based world. This world is already here. We assisted in growing it, and it is set to bloom now. The old controllers are enraged, losing traction, dominance and control over their prey! In fact the energies that held predator and prey as a viable options for humanity, are dropping away, in the new frequencies, Mother Earth and her Wayshowers are leading, right now, and moving forward. That's why the bullies are so volatile, and grasping at straws, on their way down, right now. Why isn't their fear manipulating us anymore? Why are their devious plans all being exposed to humanity so vividly, suddenly?
I am part of a team, a well guided team of Wayshowers and Galactics on assignment, that trust 100% in this transition, this great shift of the ages, our hearts, intuition, and the hearts and intuition of healthy whole Wayshower Souls, co-leading this massive assignment. Mother Gaia has already won Victorious, and we are individual and collective expressions of her.
I encourage us to tune into our hearts, and feelings, nature and Earth and healthy rooted community directly, beyond the tricky warring energies of the MSM: mainstream media, the fractured political parties, and anyone poisoning humanity with false guilt narratives, real biowarfare poisons, and manipulation tactics of shame, blame, attack, corrupt "protection," verbal abuse, gas lighting, fear, denial, lies, propaganda, greed, big pharma sanctioned "news" lack, control, and tyranny.
We’ve been given the blessings of most of the human family, being invited to a giant global meditation retreat at home, indefinitely. The Earth has shifted already, and is welcoming us as co-creators now. I’ve heard it said, we are no longer merely stewards, yet more and more, pure 5-D co-creators, our living earth and us!
I believe sick, disordered factions have fallen into greed, and manipulation, and we incarnated to help ourselves and humanity through these times, ultimately by finding, choosing, and living our joy. And by opening to health and healthy changes, true unity, cooperation, creating and co-creation.
Art by Jen Klarfeld
We did not come into this planetary awakening to fit in the human mainstream, to necessarily “belong,” to be torn to pieces in man's ongoing wars, destruction, cataclysms, and shakedowns. The current Pandemic is not capable of killing us all. It may not even kill as many people as influenza, in many places. I see it sparking new levels of caring, connection, new freedoms, new gifts, a new flowering of humanity, a new shared sovereignty, as well as new attempts at tyranny, so as to help us overthrow the old discordant energies, patterns habits and ways! I see it cleaning and cleaning our planet of toxic human problems, waste, and poisons, as we assist. I see it aligning us, as a giant peace and activism community, poised to turn our individual and collective health care abilities and freedoms, around full circle, from our sovereignty based intuition, real, free research, and banning together to co-create from this, our New Earth, and her...our conscious, trailblazing, collective leadership!
It’s up to each of us to choose a timeline and birth our creations from the truths we actually align with.
On our blessed New Earth, our heart is primed to lead the way, as we stay open to blessed, aware wholeness!
Thanks for your message and celebration. The Earth is filled with many who see as I see, now. Still it’s up to individuals to dig through the timeline offerings, and to use our heart’s discernment, as to what to choose, grow, and build both from and to. It’s very promising, as we do allow it by choice, sovereignty and intention, to be!
Me, Jen at the Paranormal Symposium in Taos, 2011 Photography credit to Hinton Harrison
Thank you Friend.
So much Love, Grace and Gratitude, as we share in winning, Goddess God Earth Victoriously. It is up to you, and each of us, to see our value through this time. This supports our emergence, individually and within our whole sacred human collective! Look to Guides like Barbara Marx Hubbard, and you and me, as we traverse this evolution.
Cheers to our messy Grace based birth. Pick a timeline every-blessed-body! Even if you have to pick 111 times each and every day! So we no longer value and fit into the old time-line and corruptions, as we felt obligations to attempt to once do. Bless this crossroads, for it is the long awaited birthplace of new true levels of reality, bursting up as reality, as Earth and her precious children, including me and you! I love you dearly! Feel our guides and angels helping. And reach out to people and wholeness within, to continue to help usher us through these calm and wild changes! Cheers to our human angelic divinity! We got our backs, in beautiful new energy frequencies and ways! Tune in directly and feel and see!
This blogpost was inspired by a call for guidance wall post, of a fellow adult daughter, healing from Narcissistic abuse of a Narcissistic mother, in a private social media support group. The following is inspired by my response to her.
The group member posted of having recently learned that she has a Narcissistic Mother, after some intensive personal therapy, of her own. She is realizing how common and predictable the Narcissistic Mother's behaviors truly are. She asked if it would be a good idea to point out to her Narcissistic Mother, the unhealthy behaviors she acts out, and if this would help her mother? And she also asked if it will ever be possible to share a relationship with her, once she the adult daughter, sets healthy boundaries?
Welcome to the club, Human Relative. It is amazing to me to live at a time, when so many are contributing to help us see, understand, and heal from unhealed Narcissists and their messy, abusive behaviors. I like all the guidance you’ve been given here.
It’s a tricky steep slope, and it is well worth setting some boundaries, and carving out a small spaces for yourself as a non-abuse zones.
There are countless wonderful videos on YouTube that are like mini coaching sessions for us.
Some describe interacting with a Narcissist as a constant chess game. Gray rocking is helpful, yet if they're walking all over you, sometimes saying something stronger is useful, like, “I know that’s not about me,” “I hear you and I see it differently,” and or “no thank you, I’ll oversee my own blah blah blah!”
Remember that other aspects of the Narcissist and their behaviors include being full of toxic shame, being fake, putting on an act, being an empty shell or a donning a mask. They can’t truly love because they’ve been hurt too bad and don’t trust love is real. They are usually more jaded, wounded, even paranoid and distrusting of others. They can’t see you as separate, more of an appendage. They can’t have a 2 way, balanced, concerned conversation, and instead gain fuel through any engagement, drama, defense, etc with you. They will offload and dump their toxic poisons into, and on you. Keeping themselves in the superior position and you, and others in the inferior one, is a constant need and strategy. They lie and use manipulative tactics to avoid responsibility for the manipulative ways they treat you and others. And as you get healthy and start to set and maintain boundaries, and see and call them on their manipulative behaviors and Narcissistic habits, this triggers their Narcissistic wounding, as in it highlights the wounded real self they hide from people, and hide from themselves. So as you get healthier, they lose some of their mask, strategic power, control and dominance. This is both highly dangerous and a form of death to them. They will project all their pain, vulnerability and weakness onto you. If you back off to claim healthy whole living, balance and clarity, they will be forced to push other flying monkeys into their sphere, who believe their false dramas and give them fuel without question, hassles, or truth.
They can get worse with age and circumstances, seeing you as a threat or enemy, and can make strategic moves that are the equivalent of cutting you off at the knees to save their own self, false self, delusional existence, fears and fantasies. So viewing them as a poison filled, stunted toddler, with no real accountability, empathy, emotional IQ, no real self worth, and no honesty, nor ability for self responsibility is half the healing equation.
The other half seems to be building your strength and self love, joy, choice, authority, power, focus, and success up to full-to-overflowing. Recognizing all our natural inner child desires for 2 healthy, treasuring, comforting, valuing parents will never be met by these injured, poison filled, volatile, offensive, fear-based, controlling, childish, two-faced, wounded, insecure, needy beings. And realizing their dramas are not our fault, nor ours to fix. Also realizing they will overall never change, they will never be satisfied, you will never completely save, heal, change, satisfy, nor fix them. And realizing that we will never fill all the holes in their bucket, nor get real love from them, is also a crucial step in our healing.
The only one we can change is our own self.
Once we start to see all this, it shifts the whole balance of the levels of health we allow, in ourselves and in other people in our lives.
Then our standards for healthy relating can grow so strong, we can secure health, truth, boundaries, caring, honesty, authenticity, joy, balance, wholeness and success, even inspiration and self care within ourselves, and really inspire our close family and friends in the healthiest ways. Thus we effect change and positivity in this world, from the inside out!
The awkward part, is that once we learn what Narcissism is, and how it works, what is healthy for us, is disturbing and dangerous for them. Their misery, victimhood, pain and problem states seem pathetic and exaggerated, as they start to lose their power to manipulate and feed off of us!
Remembering we are innocent, despite how they try to smash us, and becoming our own strength and authority are all empowering steps for us, as we learn how to un-shoulder, unshackle, and untether from their sickness and manipulation tactics, habits, toxic hand-me-downs, projections, and energy sucking, enmeshing tethers.
I just listened to a few wonderful powerful new support videos on Youtube (see links below.) The presenters reminded of a few key points. One is that Narcissists have the equivalent of brain damage, and as they age, it is highly unlikely that it will ever heal, go away, and or change. Two, they are insecure, and thus need to diminish and cut down other people to raise themselves up. Three, the insecure narcissist can trigger your insecurities, so the best response you can bring, is remaining as secure and strong within yourself and life, as possible, both for yourself, and in interactions with them. And four, if and when the Narcissist goes to therapy, they do not go as healthy individuals, rather they go to learn all the ways that did not work of manipulating their Narcissistic Supply Providers, and to strategize new ways to manipulate the people in their immediate life. Thus, even therapy can make them sicker and more dangerous. Therapy isn't for everyone, only for the emotionally responsible. I guess our job is to become so strong and love filled, that we develop a natural immunity to the toxic shame they steep in and project out, through bouts of volatility, projection, rage, and childish tantrums! Our assignment also includes creating wonderful lives for ourself, and getting our focus off them.
Blessings on the eye opening journey of self reclamation! Here are three new YouTube videos that I find beautifully helpful, as discovered today.
How the Insecure Narcissist Can Trigger your Insecurities - Dr. Les Carter - Surviving Narcissism
Imaginary Confessions of a Narcissist (If only they could be this honest) - Dr. Les Carter - Surviving Narcissism
Light Language Healing for Full Chakra Cleanse with Marlene Cronin
Here are some additional resources for anyone open to, or needing to learn more about Narcissistic Abuse Recovery. I have gathered the following support YouTube Videos on this topic, weeding out some of the most super supportive, highly informative, and less well known insights and guidance videos on a YouTube Playlist I call "Top Resources for Understanding Narcissists." "Top Resources for Understanding Narcissists." https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLJ3OniDZNuJhtAdY_SIF91lBCAxdjjkcv The second list I am sharing is a far more comprehensive list. Here it is: "Resources for Understanding and Recovery from Narcissists... (and Narcissistic Abuse)" https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLJ3OniDZNuJgmr27PA-Qg9gxKU7nv62GH If you are interested in the New Earth based toolkits I offer on this path of Soul Expansion, Please visit my website at: www.TrailblazingTransformation.com where you can learn more about ThetaHealing, Quantum Healing Hypnosis Technique, and Parallel Life Regression. Stay tuned for more new offerings, in the making right now! I welcome you to share this blog entry, and these resources freely.
Reviewing and sharing this inspiring Facebook post I wrote 3 days before my life & body jarring fall off a ladder, last year.
Grateful to be healed, over all.
The last 2 years has been initiatory in ways I never fully realized I
had to be this strong to traverse, survive, feel, move through, gather
support, and keep taking steps, through all my giant human fears, and
commitments, financial, emotional, business, calling, Soul and life
challenges!
It’s been really hard, and really rewarding, being
single, being mostly visionary, and often attempting to grow and sustain
my life and serve, while living in a business prioritizing world and
nation, so fueled by predatory systems, and people. I have shut
myself down a tremendous amount, in pure survival, while still keeping
my my practice alive, and taking precarious steps, often alone, to birth
a whole New Earth Vision, dream and business, as has been handed to me
to allow, build and free.
As an empath, a Starseed, and a survivor of Narcissistic Abuse, it’s been harder than I ever bargained for. My heart is tender for all of us, who came into this Earth Plane from our respective homes and travels. I have exceptional gratitude for my Source Self, always steering my
way, even when I freeze, fight, fly away, or hide, alone for long
periods of transition.
I listened to a phenomenal Starseed Radio
Academy Interview of Author Diana Luppi -Zoev Jho, last night, while
taking grounded steps to prep my new downtown studio space.
Diana
is the author of E.T. 101 an amazing manuel for Earthlings, and for the
brave Starseed beings, who quite literally came in to shift millions of
human lineages up out of trauma, war, abuses, enslavement and more.
You don’t have to be a specific race or color to shoulder the pain of
human discord. We all came in and share in carrying, clearing,
transforming, and witnessing the madness that’s passed for the shared
human experience. Without music, we might not have been able to rise
like the phoenix uplifting us all!
Suffice to say, I learned to
put on a tough warrior stance to make it this far. The smiling,
original, party-going, caring, dancing, trailblazing, perceptive,
visionary, ever networking, creative socialite face I show the world, is
not my whole experience. I battle my shadow, fear, shame, blame,
doubt, and inner turmoil daily. In fact I bless it. It’s a huge part
of this compassion school.
This recent two years have brought
tests and many ignored obligations for me to face and remedy somhow, as
spiritual being, mainly a soul, in my experience. I am visiting this
world, yet again, and steeped in material culture, pitched to us as
evolution. Yet this world is a ghetto in our Multiverse, filled with
systems, patterns and people at war within, and projecting war,
parasitic patterns, predatory behaviors and huge covert predatory
systems.
Learning, embodying, and voicing the deeper truth of who
we are, is the bridge, solution, prize, guidance and answer to the call
and response... hide and go seek, God Source forgetting our fullness,
forgetting our divine feminine majesty... game! In the recent years, I had to slow down and feel my human fallibility, my limitations, and my real feelings. I have not finished yet.
I also feel called to experience, express, enliven and enjoy my holy divine innocence.
Making room for all of this... for joy, simplicity, love, friendship, play and service.
Stepping out of the shackles I’ve lived, worn, carried and inherited
within lineages, has been quite the formidable task. We’re stripping
these binds away, together. It’s quite the game, and quite the dance.
I don’t always know how to get from here to there, down here. And
still here I am, opening to allowing the integration back into my true,
new, fullness.
What a wild game of make believe.
I feel my strength slowly bounding back to me.
Easing into the ripeness, many know me by, to embody it directly for
me.... to let my way be led from within, by Grace, through love, and
with Heart.
It’s been surprisingly jarring, on many fronts. A shamanic dismemberment for the whole world.
What a Team I have embracing, uplifting and helping in our grand upshiftment!
Graced, awed, shocked, alarmed, and cheered, in deep Grace, Faith and Unity...Beloved Rainbow Warriors! I love you Wild Team.
What tough, brave and tender loving stuff we’re made of!
I love you! 💕❤️😘
October 26, 2017 Santa Fe, New Mexico
Hello Beloveds!
I just want to share some giant encouragement & say: hold on to your hats... !
Change is hitting this ripe and ready planet at such high levels.
Three friends have flown the coop of Earth, recently, leaving tears and love on their beautiful wakes!
The gifted are exploding with gifts, injustices all rising into the
light of transparency and scrutiny, and people facing the tough shadow
stuff, we're facing it head on, fast and furious, as is our Mother
Earth!
Hearts are expanding, while imbalances once tolerated, are are no longer supported or allowed, as our truth rises ALOUD!
The Multiverse is watching, supporting, cheering us on, and eagerly
drawing closer, as we awaken & blast open and off into our full "ON"
settings!
Keep your humor levels on high, and your super compassion accessible, free flowing, and shared.
These are fantastic times for birthing your full heart and soul, right here.
Feel free to remind me of any of this, as we move forward! Who loves you dearly?
I do!
Plus an infinite array of light beings and inter-dimensional winged ones! We all love you too!
Stay blessed.
Keep loving, cherishing, relishing, valuing, treasuring and seeing each unique, beautiful, bold living being! I know it feels like we're being thrown under the bus, several times a freakin day!
Yet keep surfing it, my cherished friends and family.
And if you feel like you can't freakin handle it, call in your angels,
unseens, galactics, ancestors, tree spirits, tree huggers, power
animals, beings who have not actively fucked up this planet... beings
who have... whatever works for you! Know that I love you, and I
am so so so blessed, and I am lifted up on my highest wings, in sharing
this beguiling, mad, passionate journey with you all!
Thanks for being my Love Team! What Courageous Souls we all truly are!!!
I salute each and every shining one of you... and every large and small
act of love, and change you each live through and bring, in the
awakening of divinity within this family of humanity.
You are precious to me.
Know that forever!!!
And to the sensitive souls that had to use their break out of jail
cards early... I sure treasure you dearly. Enjoy the extraordinary show
on Earth.
Our commitment is to turn the love vibrations high...
and abolish the war vibration so we'll, that you'll be first in line to
birth into this planet of love and bliss, cause that's our manufacturing
plan for the now and future!
Enjoy this abstract painting by Santa Fe Artist, Julie Schumer. Today simply looking at this and some other paintings on Julie's Facebook page, ignited me into deep contemplation, after a conversation with a family member, that brought some old and current uncomfortable feelings to the surface, in me. This inspired me to explore some thoughts of mine on setting boundaries and maintaining health in the face of old, less than solid enhancing relational energies.
Abstract painting for me has long been a sanity valve, and a harmonious salve. Opening such a creative process allows the freedom of the soul to dance, shine, and expand. As a highly empathic early indigo, and sensitive, abstract painting, mine and others' creates a beautiful escape from the limits of my human mind, ego and the pressures of humans, who forget who we are and potentially become energy sucks, sometimes me and sometimes others. Like going to the lakeside, soaking in the ocean, walking in the woods, or on the Mesa, abstract art takes me away & brings the sweet relief of not knowing, or having to understand anything.
I just attempted to set a boundary with one such person & family member. I suggested we share one light hearted phone call, alternating, and one where we dump our problems on each other, randomly. This brought out hurt feelings from the inner child of the other.
The Unhealthy Jewish Family Tradition, is to enmesh with one's children, (partner, family and friends) and shit one's constant pain into their off-springs cage, so to speak.
I will find a healthy way of setting a boundary that says, "It isn't good for me to share all these levels of your intensity and pain, on a weekly basis." I can do two freely shitting upon each other conversations per month, and two or more light hearted, vacation like, playful communications. Four pain and woe, enmeshing, woundology dumping/bonding sessions is beyond my capacity, interest, and ability right now. I will find a diplomatic way to state, maintain and enliven this boundary.
In too much of my Mom's family of origin, filling yourself and your loved ones up with pain meant they loved you. Direct expressions of love were a luxury reserved for other people and families, not facing Russian Pogroms & Hitler's Nazis.
I am of the generation that lives in relative safety. I am able to express love as love, directly. I am truly grateful. Learning to navigate these realities is a gift and a challenge I came here to face, traverse, and triumph through. I came to expand beyond the limits of all of these factors, and in doing so, I am better situated to help others through similar relational war zones, within, with family, friends, and co-workers. We are not slaves in this modern incarnation... Not anymore. It is up to us to re-educate ourselves and those around us, of how to treat ourselves and others with dignity and respect!
I am grateful to have found ThetaHealing, which helps me to more easily maneuver and secure the changes I desire in my life, from the inside first and foremost, and then throughout my full life expression.
In the movie, "Thanks for Sharing," there is a great line by the adult Jewish Doctor Son character, where he confronts his Jewish New Yorker Mother and explains, "I'm not your husband, I'm not your lover, I'm no longer your baby, and I can't be your therapist. I'm your grown son, and how we relate needs to change!"
In my work facilitating healing, awakening and change, as well as within all the wisdom my Dad has ever taught me, is the key truth, we cannot change others, we cannot save others, we cannot take away the pain from those we love. Yet a key premise in avoiding and healing old codependent traps, is honoring one's true feelings. And when it feels sucky, crumby, crappy, draining, deadening, hopeless and helpless, it's OK, and healthy to stop, excuse one's self, and to opt out of playing games that don't feel fun, in order to recharge, honor self care, heal replenish, set healthy role models within & about one's self, and with others.
The only one I can truly change is myself. I can do this when I feel what's real, speak my truth even when it is not comfortable, and make changes to grow strong, bright, brilliant and even more loving.
When love feels predatory, needy, unclear, confused, or unclean, maybe it is.
Sometimes loving yourself first, allows more loving relations, after renewed healthy boundaries are acknowledged, mapped out, maintained and upheld!
Check it on the inside, see "how does this feel?" Write your life for joy, love and kindness first, then you can more easily branch out and share this.
The pain of generations that came before us, is not our gift and legacy. Contrary to popular belief, it is not love.
Our ability to transform and source ourselves from love, through the pain that comes and goes while living this human experience... That's where it's at. That's what I am here to learn more about, and share more freely.
I am not here to deny, negate or condemn pain, mine yours, or my family members'. I am not here to make it my identity or false solace either.
These rights of passage, this stepping up to secure healthy love and changes, these are our sacred initiations. May I find the strength, power, love, support, and trust to allow these initiations to better me, and carry me forward. May I trust in the strength of who I truly am, and what I can make possible and real. May I trust in the wholeness and holiness of who we all are.
May you find all that you are, all that you love, and all that you are seeking. May you trust your grand initiations, as you open to the deeper gifts of who you are.
May we all recognize how truly blessed we are, right here and now!
May you take heart in whatever brings you comfort and grace, like art, dance, music, nature, community and soul bring me. May you find refuge in the beauty of who you... and of who we truly are!
Thank you everyone... Thank you my Family... Thank you Julie Schumer for painting your beautiful paintings, that bring grace, love, comfort, and healing beyond my mind's ordinary understanding!
I love you all! Thanks for starring in our crazy earth school play, together.
a blogspot for sharing insights of Jen Klarfeld, Raw Creation Artist and Trailblazing Transformation Hypnotharapy facilitator. I am a Santa Fe based artist, and a hypnotherapist integrating many cutting edge transformational tools, specializing in the activation and exploration of STARSEED KNOWING!
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