I am grateful to my friend Wayne Overall, who shared some encouraging words about my expressive writing gifts, with me today.
I guess I stopped expressing through writing, at least formally, on my blog, early in 2021.
Probably around this same time, I also shut down my love of, and prioritization of expressing through making art, when I instead was facing the loss of so many of my closest friends and caring friendships.
This is all something worthy of looking at, and reviving, where vitality invites!
There is a lot of my true self, my home, my property, my passions, my self care, and visions for what I intended, and even my soul work, that I have simply shut down, and stopped uplifting.
I’ve lived through the passing, near and beyond 90, of both my beloved parents.
I’ve lived through the trauma of broken friendships, betrayals of sorts, or simply growth in severed and different directions.
My soul self took on opportunities like I was back in the spiritual world, like I was limitless.
Yet I must have broke, in the energies between defending my truth, and outgrowing my comfort and resonance in and with Santa Fe, amidst the changes within me, and those outside of me.
Now I am living simply, and very aware of the hurts I have let fester inside me, and some out around me!
I am more open to collapsing my tent, here, and moving forward, in a place of new resonance and clear kind beginnings.
I never imagined I would suddenly feel inspired to move on from Santa Fe.
Yet inspired by my friend and soul sistar Lori Smiskol, I am plotting my likely course, somewhere more gentle for me.
Also inspired by my friend and soul kin Paula Watters Jones, who moved from Taos, New Mexico, and closer to Dolores Cannon Country, and is loving the dream, growing her food, painting her art, visiting Santa Fe, New Mexico, and selling her paintings on famous Canyon Road!
I am looking at the possibilities that moving to Arkansas may hold. I am exploring Hot Springs and Hot Springs Village, in central Arkansas, as a possible next leap, and new home, surrounded by gentle people, warm community, lakes, water, crystals, swimming pols, hiking trails, and a slower pace of living, I just may need in recovering myself!
Make Jen Great Again.
My last name and my essence is encoded with clarity. And alas we are in a polarity school.
So while I feel self judgment, sadness, failure, and pretty lonely through so much of these changes, I equally welcome and bless trailblazing transformation, new beginnings, clarity, and renewal.
I will turn 60 in a few months. I’m ready to leave a lot of wreckage and loss behind me, and explore a whole new cycle of who I am, opening more room for me, and new levels and expressions of nature, America, community, friendship, safety, balance, ease, communion, and blessed service.
I am ready to embrace the unknown, to be free, and be free to be me, in a whole new place and way.
I am grateful to all the people and places, community, and activities thus far, here, in my home of 25 years.
And I am ready to try something new, and to embrace a whole new cycle of a life that delights and surprises me first, and me to share, as I glean a new flow.
So thank you to all who inspire me.
The divide, crash, fall, and breakdown, has not been easy! Yet we emerge anew and can do so, again and again.
On the wings of love, all my Dear Ones!
I love you all, across our odd changes, and beyond!
Sad for the lower range emotions. Yet grateful for opportunities through authenticity, for betterment, renewal, uplift, and connection.
This quest began in connection!
This human experience, it cheers us on, when we hold it in a fresh and bright light!
This blog post is inspired by a well meaning Fellow Creative, Author, and Film Maker, whom I met at the opening of his film "Three Magic Words: The Movie," as features my beloved teacher Dolores Cannon. I hold a lot of respect for Michael Perlin, and I spent most of my adult life, seeing through a pretty similar lens, on many levels, while identifying as a Liberal Democrat, a visionary, and a proponent of of peace, unity and transformation, as consistently as possible in human form. I strongly disagree with much of what Michael Perlin says in this blog post he shared with me, which he himself wrote, as my Facebook friend. I actually skimmed it, and censored it quite quickly off of my Facebook post, upon which I was promoting Michael J. Lindell the pillow entrepreneur, and his documentary "Absolute Proof" on the election fraud, the same election fraud that is being censored as all Hell, by people and companies who have thier own self interests prioritized, and yours not so much! Super interesting. This video: "Absolute Truth" is available to watch for free in Rumble and at Michael J. Lindell's website: https://michaeljlindell.com
Hi Michael Perlin. I met you at a film and media festival, here in my home state of New Mexico years ago, I believe, as I am a Hypnotherapist of nearly 30 years, and a Facilitator of our Beloved Dolores Cannon's QHHT Process. I remember dearly adoring you, and you taking time out to speak to me. I was very grateful, and recall sharing a deep rapport with you. In fact we've shared Facebook friendship for years.
Today, as most days I posted openly, while carefully on Facebook, on my personal wall, about a documentary by another Michael, Michael J Lindell, a pillow Entrepreneur, who like you, created a documentary film, only his is called "Absolute Proof" exposing not only the US election fraud, as David Wilcock has done such an ingenious job of exposing even more deeply, with amazing insider info, in one of his 20 something videos, remarkably still viewable on YouTube, across 2020 and 202, on Divine Cosmos on YouTube. David Wilcock and David Brinkley: Hidden History of Elections on YouTube:
I was unclear as to who you are, in the moment, and thus thought I was getting harangued by someone I attended high school with again, which does happen. I had left a couple of comments up on my wall post, that were both abusive and disrespectful of President Donald J Trump. Yours made 3, in my view. I was busy at the moment, visited your website, and skimmed a bit of your article, fishing for the bias, already present to me, in your potentially anti Trump opposition, or query... to the point of possible scapegoating, as is so popular with the detractors of President Donald J Trump, his administration, Patriots, Walk Aways from the Liberal Democrat Party, and Independent Voters, as I have since Spring 2020 become. I admit I skipped down to your views on Q, a few on Trump, and immediately erased all three, comments that felt offensive or hate filled to me, including yours and your article link.
I do wish to let you know I took time out of my life, and read what you wrote, just now, as you are someone I respect, and I truly adore and own a copy of your Movie "3 Magic Words," which you may have autographed. Not sure after all the years. I also wish to admit that I was a life long Liberal Democrat, who was really aligned with hating all you cite here, as this was my own thinking and rhetoric, overall, over the recent years. I too, have spent years arguing the same points for a world where we live as one, and relate as an adopted daughter, born to a Mother of the generation you speak of, who was 16 and pregnant in 1965. I also had 3 Jewish parents, by nature and nurture, and was adopted through a Jewish Adoption Agency.
I do not want to change your mind, as I deeply respect diversity in perceptions and perspectives, when friends and associates share with me, beyond the divide and hate so popular these days. I appreciate the time and effort you poured into these thoughts and this blog post. I wholeheartedly agree with the neutral parts, of being here to create and co-create unity, a unified Nation, and a unified World. In fact, I believe I am one of the Galactic Volunteers, Dolores so eloquently discovered, wrote 19 books, and delivered countless lectures and interviews on. My Father authored 4 books on our stellar origins, before graduating Earth, and returning to the Stars and the Light.
I just wish to say, I see it in another way. I walked away from the, to me, corrupted, infiltrated Democrat Party, in Spring, or so, 2020. I had learned of information through luminaries I have followed, and trusted, as I do Dolores Cannon, over some dozen or so years, including David Wilcock, who is believed to have been Edgar Casey, the extremely famous mystic, who cured thousands by way of entering a trance channel like state, as he was also known as "the Sleeping Prophet." David has been warning us for 10 years, to have food and water prepped and ready for a "lockdown event," as informed by insider intel. He did not know exactly what the event would be. He has studied the Nazi influence and their deep ties to America, Wall Street, and beloved American companies, originally in a college course. He has successfully exposed the Deep State collusion in the manmade scamdemic, the election fraud, the 4 years of slanderous, relentless hate smear campaigns against the man and the President Donald Trump, the big tech oligarchs' censorship, overreach, and their illegal editing role on multiple social media and big tech platforms.
I simply disagree with almost all you allegations here, which read as false to me, as being true, yet projected on the wrong side. I get it. I accepted these beliefs, too, for my whole adult life, prior to mid March, 2020. Now I see 99% of the MSM mainstream media, as propaganda. I see the censorship clamping down, using offensive abuse tactics commonly used by Malignant Narcissists to control, shame, blame, attack, and render inferior their prey. I know. I was raised by a Narcissistic Mother, and have poured years into the study of Narcissistic abuse and recovery from such influences. For the record, I did come back, and read your whole article. Overall I do not concur. Yet I did, throughout most of my life.
I myself see the tyranny of so many controlling predatory factions and criminals, as I see infiltrating our human freedoms, world wide. I see the abuses of power, control, wealth, and abuses of power and freedoms, rampant in the oligarchs on the Liberal Democrat side, and worse, the forces funding them, and their criminal behaviors, including George Soros.
Frankly I have paid dearly, as many friends, and even some family, both close, dear, and lifelong, have judged, shamed and blamed me, judged, shamed and blamed Donald Trump, Q, our Military, and more for crimes that I now see clearly are being rendered by the exact people creating war, disease, usurpation of human freedoms, fear, and hate and scapegoating campaigns, eugenics, control, genocide, the Transhumanism movement, and more. I would simply ask you, if you honor your body and those of your immediate family by prioritizing organic and whole foods, over genetically modified foods, then I am curious if you support, encourage and plan to line up, voluntarily for a RNA altering genetic experiment, that will have IA components to it, as plans to render you and your body a patented owned slave of sorts, and if you see connections to the Nazi's in this, or if you trust what your media, Fauci, Gates, social media oligarchs, Pelosi, the WHO, and Hillary Clinton, and Biden and Harris are actually colluding in against you? Have you ever heard this expression, "Black Lives Madder," as I have from an African American Santa Fe Artist Patriot Friend? Why did Henry (Hank) Aaron die 18 days after taking a jab on TV, to help propagandize the promise of Vaxxx safety to the African American community? What will you tell friends and family, when the reports of Bell's Palsy, Morgellon's disease, complications and death occur with increasing frequency to People of Color, Indigenous People, Native American People, and Black Americans, and Chinese Men, Elders, Americans, and Humans, worldwide, as potential effects of the experimental, highly controversial COVID19 Vaccination?
And what if 2 jabs is not enough, does not absolutely protect from the virus, and actually is part of a modern day Nazi campaign, that Donald J Trump has lost 1/2 of his fortune, and invested four years of his life, and simultaneously endangered his life to fight against? And what if 2 jabs leads to 5 or 10 a year or what if Americans and Earthlings alike are restricted from travel, food, and state and federal dependencies as we have seen, and some experienced across 2020 and 2021? And how many years is this slavery campaign slated to be enacted upon Humanity and Americans alike. And what will the world look like if we comply without question, true independent research, and aware guidance from those who are poised to keep sharing truth with us? What if the push for green living outlaws your rights to own and drive a car, or live in a single family home?
Do you want to sell off your American originality, our rights to run individual businesses, to congregate, sing, pray, and celebrate holidays, and view movies in public venues, in trade for sanctioned Communism? I certainly do not see what you say as truth, anymore than I think Luminaries David & Elizabeth Wilcock and Dannion Brinkley, author of "Saved By The Light" are reporting on Satanic predators and criminals Pedowood, and corruption at all levels of American and worldwide society because they themselves are evil. That simply holds no truth to me, on any level! In fact it pains me deeply to see friends turn against these Luminaries, because said friends have been brainwashed to buy heavily censored lies, fear and hate promoted as if these are core, truths when all of that propaganda against all of us truth tellers is, to me a travesty, and a war of a new kind, a war against Americans and Humanity.
Anyway. I used to see through somewhat of the same lens as you express here. I do not call material life an illusion, as I am an artist, and see it more as an expression.
Dolores Cannon, her research, and her Daughter Julia explained this to me and many Starseed. They have said, that ours is the only planet where we have to forget we're God, and to forget our purpose not just once, but lifetime after lifetime. Perhaps both you and I incarnated as Galactic Volunteers to help guide Humanity to that Peace love and unity, as the musicians, artists and wayshowers of the 1960's enlivened in hearts like mine, that has never dulled nor died.
I wish you would use "I" statements when you project that the 1960's failed, or however you worded it. I do not hold this to be true, and am grateful I never did. In fact as a QHHT Therapist, I hold a view that we often have to dive deeply into our shadows, like the main character in your film: "3 Magic Words: The Movie," had to do. As I also trust that we are in the Great Shift, holding space, and loving caring compassion, while openly sharing information and truth, in the wars as are being waged against Americans and Humanity right now.
You and I are definitely on the side of peace, love, unity, and standing up and transforming our traumas and those of our lineages and communities, to transform our world for the better. Dolores Cannon did not believe in evil, by the years I was blessed to interact with her. Her BS meter, and her soul research cleared that up for her. I agree 100%. To me there are merely polarizations in the continuum of consciousness, divinity, unity, awareness, love and balance, with most of us in this Free Will Universe, actually holding enough security to live well, and transmit wholeness and goodness into our world, while leading harmonious balanced lives. I believe there is a spectrum from service to all to service to self, of conscious to unconscious, or balanced divine feminine and masculine, to the levels of toxic masculinity and greed that create war, divide and conquer, poverty, starvation, and the weaponization of all systems, by criminal predators who have forgotten their true nature. I know and trust Donald J Trump, as imperfect as he has early on expressed himself to be, is expressing, operating, and leading from all the higher qualities you mention as having died off from the 1960's Peace Movement.
Trump has actively protected Americans, jobs, borders, life, liberty, peace, and ultimately human lives all around our world. He has slowed and stopped the American war machine, exposed the internal and international terrorists attacking endangering and threatening Americans and major American Democrat run cities as well, and banned criminals from entering America and facilitating human and drug trafficking, murderers and gang violence, and more. I respect him immensely, since I started researching, intuiting, and thinking for myself. I am as far from a racist as possible, having facilitated shamanism and Past Life Regression over almost 30 years. I won't even restrict myself with a race identification on a census, or document, as I do not align with such lore. I believe the whole campaign of anti racist training is a divisive psy ops, more truly exploiting Black Americans, Black People, and all people if we don't wake up and see the manipulation for what it is! I'm here to lead all people in transformation, renewal and freedom, originality, and truth. I certainly get the impression that you are here for your own version of compassionate service and unification of Humanity.
I have never related to patriotism, the American flag, or nationalism either. And now, as a recovering walk away from the Lib Dem party, Independent Patriot, I see it in a proud new way. If we are such a unique, nation, as I feel we are, here leading the world, as the melting pot of Indigenous, African, and Immigrant Peoples, then why wouldn't we take pride in, and deeply and dearly value our Nation, and the people and cultures that take pride in co-creating it? I have witnessed and felt awe, in 21 years of living in a Native American community and land, of Santa Fe New Mexico, as many Native Americans are far more proud of America than I have overall been.
I am proud of America and Americans, because most of us hold Grace, love, trauma and challenges in our lineages and our personal lives. What would it take for you to fully value our break with tribal ties of our origin cultures, and this co-creation of our new tribe of all races, colors, creeds, and sexual orientations, as the wild card, like Donald Trump, here leading a global revolution to all that you say you wish for our world, and the next 7 generations to come? I can see it. And if you can't I politely agree to honor your liberty, and honor your full diversity, in the way I always did, before during and after the world wide and American war against Americans and Humanity, as is culminating in 2020 & 2021.
I hold full faith, that it is like your movie. In fact I have been wishing to watch it again, and relish its message, and our Beloved Master Galactic Teacher, Dolores Cannon.
Carl Sagan and my Cal Tech Grad, Grace based Starseed Dad, Marshall, both shared that old science based view that we are each a small spec, a grain of sand, in the larger LIFE. I can hold this as true to some degree. And I also highly respect the deeper explorations of individuals like you and like me, through Dolores and Julia Cannon, who eloquently remind us that we are Mother Father Goddess God Source Divinity Great Spirit, Creation LIFE Light, temporarily brainwashed to forget we are Goddess God, and to forget our soul's LIFE purpose, not once, but over and over again, until we remember who we truly are.
I see Donald Trump doing exactly this, throughout his presidency, and highly amplified this recent year. Many who see beyond the veils, see him leading victoriously as our 2 and 3 term President, when the law catches up, as he was unlawfully vilified, scapegoated, slandered, hated, attacked and abused over the recent years of his presidency, by many dangerous predatory human creatures.
Maybe he is here to Make America Great Again, because he was chosen by the world wide Alliance as David Wilcock masterfully invested 22 or so videos, risking his career, platforms and reputation in exposing this, over the recent 11 months. Maybe making America Great Again, is about rooting out the corruption. I hope you will consider seeing Trump in the recent years, seeing how he stood up against Jeffery Epstein, and barred him from his Hotels, and instead fought for us, and for our freedoms, the ones we have not fully had over the infiltration of predatory worldwide leaders, criminals, and governments.
I celebrate our diversity. Anti facism, anti racism, anti war, it all mostly promulgates the same injustice, wars, and predatory exploitations as they ever have. That's like starting a wedding ceremony with a pledge to share an anti hate marriage. It's preposterous and irrelevant. People marry because we meet in and share love, not because we are anti hate, or anti fear, or anti individuality! We don't say, let us get together to combat loneliness and personal desperation, or existential angst. That would be more of an act of desperation, rather than a commitment to love. Children and the Spirit realms are not naturally run by "no's or devils, nor inversions, unless there is abuse of such children on the Earth plane. Why the scapegoating of a man who is risking everything to keep American free?
Anyway, in Summary I see it through diverse eyes to the case you have laid out in your article, and I express this pretty softly and gently. Thank you for your views, and for sharing them with me. I agree on the lovely philosophical bits, mostly. Yet the ones playing us by inverting all the facts, seem to have infiltrated you too. And that's OK. I found my way out. Perhaps you will to. Perhaps you are right where you are meant to be at this moment. And I suppose in truth, that is for your to know for you, and not really about me, after all. So thank you for openly speaking your mind heart and points of view. My intention is that we each stand up for true American, human and worldwide Human rights and liberties, so that truth, voices, humans and our transmitted expressions forever remain protected, safe from harm and manipulation, and ultimately free! I wish this for you, Michael Perlin, for me, for out leaders, our fake leaders, and for our nation and world.
We may not see eye to eye on every detail, yet I hope we can remain in a shared state of respect, and even unity, even with a few healthy and necessary boundaries, while the war rages on, and we lead from unified hearts anyway! Peace to your heart, and to the hearts of all, through this Convoluted, complex Universe we find ourselves gathered in, and pondering through!
This YouTube video, "Soul Distancing as a Method of Dealing with Narcissists" by Dr. Ramani came to me today, tuning into YouTube, amidst the tail end of the Global Pandemic Quarantine.
I had spun out of my center, and into a weird level of downward spiraling, infighting, and multidimensional info wars, over recent days, over a film called www.PlandemicMovie.com blasting across YouTube, and Facebook, upsetting the applecart of the mainstream 80% or so of the human population, on social media.
The joke is that I thought I could openly share this, and most people would grateful, or see it as I do, as truth. Well some did, and some didn't, and many treated me like I was endangering humanity and had to stop. What? Suddenly I'm not allowed to like a documentary movie, because it has a lot of corporate owned media rallying against it, dominant powers continue pulling posts about it down, off of corporate owned Google owned YouTube and Facebook. Guess what people? I am allowed to like and share whatever I resonate with. I have free will.
Here is my comment on Dr. Ramani's YouTube post. It feels more appropriate as a whole blog post!
Ah, Dr. Ramani, Thank you so much for this incredibly timely helpful guidance. I rewound a lot, relished, took in your insights, and am pleasantly stunned. I will come back and review this some more, and share it too. Your guidance on Soul Distancing feels like salve to my soul.
I am an adoptee, an adult child of divorce, and had an unusually gentle honoring Father, and when he divorced my Mom, when I was 10, I was left alone with my Mother, who inspired me indirectly to follow your videos. So part of me that had a dear and gentle, honoring, loving kind father, is so overly open with my soul, that most of what you are stating here never dawns on me, naturally. Still it makes such great sense! I am wired to share the best of me with others, mostly all the time without question. I mostly don't assert discernment, in that the mainstream humans do not come from the precious place of their whole soul, as a main priority. That's not mainstream priority or training. I have old habits of trying to fill up manipulators, bosses, the public, clients, men, friends, acquaintances, strangers, service people, and unknowns on social media, and who gets left out of the equation? Me, of course! Classic co-dependency.
Then I internalized all the not good enough, parent your parent, hopeless, helpless, insecurity patterns from growing up as in my single parent household, with my suburban theater star, more materially identified, at times, Narcissistic Mother. So this is super interesting and informative to me.
Have been studying all this stuff for years. I relate as an empath, and to Starseed phenomenon, as in my work facilitating QHHT, a very deep expression of Hypnotherapy, where the guidance comes through the client, at the regression's end.
Over recent days I shared what some call conspiracy theory, of a film called "Plandemic." About 20% of the public are open to these possibilities, I see as truths. Yet I openly shared posts on Facebook about what I see as validity in these matters. It became a total shit show, as so many more mainstream people, from relatives of local friends, to a kid I went to grade school with, to an amazing friend from almost 20 years ago, felt threatened, attacked, and ended up hurling a bunch of abuse at me, just in the recent few days.
I woke up to a warning Facebook Messenger e-mail, from a fellow QHHT facilitator, whom I barely know, informing me of these attacking, verbally abusive, condescending, controlling remarks, by the adult kid from my grade school birthday parties. I erased her posts, hid the tags, and went through an elaborate process to take a vacation from our friendship, and checked a box for Facebook to remove all tags and posts between she and I.
I did use Soul Distancing, in that I was mad, and knew better than to feed her anything, directly. There is a big energetic divide and split in the world right now. I invested hours in sharing my soul very fully, in responding to old friends I barely know, and their attacks, as it became a huge muddy pit of energy sucking time that I wasted. In the end, I made a statement denouncing the bullying, and inviting people to continue the hate and negativity and abuse on their own private walls instead. I erased all the poisonous attacks, and expressed a post about what I learned sinking into the muck and mud of human discord, for so many hours.
After I updated and set boundaries, and swept my space, so to speak, it became very calm, like my peaceful back yard, during the pandemic. All the soulful people came out, and shared beautiful encouragement, and related, truth teller posts. One said "I wrote a book on this very topic." And one thanked me and said "I think you're brilliant as f*ck," which I wasn't seeking out, yet still love! May consider this on my headstone: "She was brilliant as f*ck, and made it all up as she went along!" A lot of words to say, yes this is so up right now, in America, and around our world, as so many have been trained that the Narcissists win, and that emulating their abusive manipulation tactics is a path to success. So I really love and rejoice in this healing guidance. And I love learning from the experience where I felt free baring my soul to my 3,000 and some friends of every eclectic level and type of interest, and party line, as it then, totally backfired into an info war.
Then I followed my heart, and held my ground, and celebrated my right to express my truth. Still I want to make art, and take walks, and live a balance that does not come when I am leaking my soul to a big fat pack of fearful hungry wolves. Nothing against wolves! So it's a fine line to walk, as I want to allow my full expressive self, and live a loud and allowed. I just don't want to take abuse from so many detractors.
So thank you so very dearly. I may rise and fall a lot on this learning curve. I have felt this increase for social discernment, during these shifts, and quarantine time. And you hit the nail on the head, naming it, and pointing out the poisons, when the attackers on offense spot, target and suck off of my openess, and big light.
Oh, wait, all this juicy energy of mine is not for you guys, until I write a book, or blog that you can buy, and read, or not!
After it all of that, I wrote about something I have been pondering lately. I've been recalling memories of being 7, on the playground, at school, when the boys were into kooties, and raiding and capturing girls to be kidnnaped to the boys' kooties fort. I remember it disturbed me to the core. Likely triggered my primal adoption wound too. I still remember breaking down and crying, and saying "no, let me go, I don't want to play this." And there we have one of my illustrious, early childhood, soul distancing experiences!
And so I spoke of this in a lighter way, saying take your infighting back to your own kooties forts and caves, as I don't want to play, "let you control me." It's not fun! No way!
So thank you, Dr. Ramani, as this is very timely, and very new to me, even though intuitively I know and practice some of this. A lot of words today, to say, wow, wonderful, yes, awesome ideas and guidance. Thank you!
You are right. The gray rocking technique, and no contact even, seem more flat and generic, and feel a bit more inauthentic as practices unto themselves. What you are describing here, with Soul Distancing, is more about knowing one's full worth, seeing the mass population, and obvious Narcissists and manipulators for who they really are, and not making my soul a big plate for them to feed on. And seeing the rewards that come of real true authentic connection, when I change my settings of who I am, not to throw most of it away, on people who don't even have the ability to value themselves and life, highly enough to value me. Wow! I love the popularity, and engagement of your YouTube video post, in only 24 hours. Super amazing!
So that's my post, Y'all. The recent few days, energies, as well as what's emerging, and being exposed is a much longer story. Yet I have other tasks to get to today. Did I really learn the lessons on Soul Distancing, as expressed here in Dr. Ramani's video. I admit I have more practice, review, consideration, and integration to invest. I feel we are in tender times. I feel that having both these experiences, and knowledge of this new concept, Soul Distancing, I have learned some new resources. I have learned to share in more aware, honest, simple ways. I have learned from the harsh effects of how some have dealt with me, that when I post a comment honestly on other friend's social media posts, I do my best to be really clean, open, honest, and respectful, and let them know, I hold a different opinion, and still love and respect you as the individual you are. Or that was well articulated, and I may look into some of that, and still I have my own differing opinion on the individual, movie, info, video, etc. Last night I felt into how much we are called on to have mercy right now, on all of humanity, as we are shoved into these challenging global, local and national initiations. Friends reminded me of the states of fear, shock, panic, division, pain and sadness, rage and helplessness and hopelessness humans are circulating through right now. I added some. I am grateful that we are also feeling and sharing experiences and expressions of Grace, uplift, upshift, encouragement, empowerment, love, caring, unity, concern, trust, faith, prayer, good will, kind actions, courage, sharing, liberty, justice, clarity, and gratitude, right now too. I see the Corona Virus challenge as a sacred sanctuary, time out - time in for many, as a reboot for Mama Gaia, and for us Humans, as a rite of passage, an initiation, a unify-er, and as holding space as a catalyst for the Great Shift, and the Great Awakening into the New Earth timeline, process, prophesy, and experience. I am sad for all the devastation, pain, plague, sickness, death, and destruction, inherent in all this chaos, curently circling our world, as this virus. I do believe the virus is a co-creation of a man-made, predatory bio-warfare plan. Stay tuned if you wish to, as I share more on future posts. Still I recommend the work, guidance, music, art, and supportive YouTube and social media platforms and videos and guidance of the following Wayshowers:
David Wilcock
Divine Cosmos Nora Herold
Lorie Ladd
Dolores Cannon
Julia Cannon
QHHT Official
Beyond Quantum Healing
Allison Coe
Michael James Garber
Ron Amit
Paul Luftenegger
Jen Klarfeld
Jeff Roland
Laura Tarnoff
Sandra Ingerman
SARK
Matt Kahn
Era of Peace
Kevin Moore
Lauren Galey
Magenta Pixie
Laura Eisenhower
Jeva Uqualla
Dr Judy Mikovits
Lisa A Romano
Dr. Ramani
Dr. Les Carter
Dr. Gabor Mate
Nahko Bear
Rising Appalachia
Dr. Rashid Buttar
Mike Adams
Pamela Aaralyn
JP Sears
Our Everyday Lives
Vananda Shiva
Dr. Shiva Ayyadurai
Thrive the Movie
Thrive the Movement
Plandemic the movie and countless more, in no particular order at all! I don't have all the answers! Still I relish so much we are learning, and how much we are growing, individually, and as one big human family on Earth, right now! Peace Love and Authenticity, Blessed Beloved Ones!
This blogpost was inspired by a call for guidance wall post, of a fellow adult daughter, healing from Narcissistic abuse of a Narcissistic mother, in a private social media support group. The following is inspired by my response to her.
The group member posted of having recently learned that she has a Narcissistic Mother, after some intensive personal therapy, of her own. She is realizing how common and predictable the Narcissistic Mother's behaviors truly are. She asked if it would be a good idea to point out to her Narcissistic Mother, the unhealthy behaviors she acts out, and if this would help her mother? And she also asked if it will ever be possible to share a relationship with her, once she the adult daughter, sets healthy boundaries?
Welcome to the club, Human Relative. It is amazing to me to live at a time, when so many are contributing to help us see, understand, and heal from unhealed Narcissists and their messy, abusive behaviors. I like all the guidance you’ve been given here.
It’s a tricky steep slope, and it is well worth setting some boundaries, and carving out a small spaces for yourself as a non-abuse zones.
There are countless wonderful videos on YouTube that are like mini coaching sessions for us.
Some describe interacting with a Narcissist as a constant chess game. Gray rocking is helpful, yet if they're walking all over you, sometimes saying something stronger is useful, like, “I know that’s not about me,” “I hear you and I see it differently,” and or “no thank you, I’ll oversee my own blah blah blah!”
Remember that other aspects of the Narcissist and their behaviors include being full of toxic shame, being fake, putting on an act, being an empty shell or a donning a mask. They can’t truly love because they’ve been hurt too bad and don’t trust love is real. They are usually more jaded, wounded, even paranoid and distrusting of others. They can’t see you as separate, more of an appendage. They can’t have a 2 way, balanced, concerned conversation, and instead gain fuel through any engagement, drama, defense, etc with you. They will offload and dump their toxic poisons into, and on you. Keeping themselves in the superior position and you, and others in the inferior one, is a constant need and strategy. They lie and use manipulative tactics to avoid responsibility for the manipulative ways they treat you and others. And as you get healthy and start to set and maintain boundaries, and see and call them on their manipulative behaviors and Narcissistic habits, this triggers their Narcissistic wounding, as in it highlights the wounded real self they hide from people, and hide from themselves. So as you get healthier, they lose some of their mask, strategic power, control and dominance. This is both highly dangerous and a form of death to them. They will project all their pain, vulnerability and weakness onto you. If you back off to claim healthy whole living, balance and clarity, they will be forced to push other flying monkeys into their sphere, who believe their false dramas and give them fuel without question, hassles, or truth.
They can get worse with age and circumstances, seeing you as a threat or enemy, and can make strategic moves that are the equivalent of cutting you off at the knees to save their own self, false self, delusional existence, fears and fantasies. So viewing them as a poison filled, stunted toddler, with no real accountability, empathy, emotional IQ, no real self worth, and no honesty, nor ability for self responsibility is half the healing equation.
The other half seems to be building your strength and self love, joy, choice, authority, power, focus, and success up to full-to-overflowing. Recognizing all our natural inner child desires for 2 healthy, treasuring, comforting, valuing parents will never be met by these injured, poison filled, volatile, offensive, fear-based, controlling, childish, two-faced, wounded, insecure, needy beings. And realizing their dramas are not our fault, nor ours to fix. Also realizing they will overall never change, they will never be satisfied, you will never completely save, heal, change, satisfy, nor fix them. And realizing that we will never fill all the holes in their bucket, nor get real love from them, is also a crucial step in our healing.
The only one we can change is our own self.
Once we start to see all this, it shifts the whole balance of the levels of health we allow, in ourselves and in other people in our lives.
Then our standards for healthy relating can grow so strong, we can secure health, truth, boundaries, caring, honesty, authenticity, joy, balance, wholeness and success, even inspiration and self care within ourselves, and really inspire our close family and friends in the healthiest ways. Thus we effect change and positivity in this world, from the inside out!
The awkward part, is that once we learn what Narcissism is, and how it works, what is healthy for us, is disturbing and dangerous for them. Their misery, victimhood, pain and problem states seem pathetic and exaggerated, as they start to lose their power to manipulate and feed off of us!
Remembering we are innocent, despite how they try to smash us, and becoming our own strength and authority are all empowering steps for us, as we learn how to un-shoulder, unshackle, and untether from their sickness and manipulation tactics, habits, toxic hand-me-downs, projections, and energy sucking, enmeshing tethers.
I just listened to a few wonderful powerful new support videos on Youtube (see links below.) The presenters reminded of a few key points. One is that Narcissists have the equivalent of brain damage, and as they age, it is highly unlikely that it will ever heal, go away, and or change. Two, they are insecure, and thus need to diminish and cut down other people to raise themselves up. Three, the insecure narcissist can trigger your insecurities, so the best response you can bring, is remaining as secure and strong within yourself and life, as possible, both for yourself, and in interactions with them. And four, if and when the Narcissist goes to therapy, they do not go as healthy individuals, rather they go to learn all the ways that did not work of manipulating their Narcissistic Supply Providers, and to strategize new ways to manipulate the people in their immediate life. Thus, even therapy can make them sicker and more dangerous. Therapy isn't for everyone, only for the emotionally responsible. I guess our job is to become so strong and love filled, that we develop a natural immunity to the toxic shame they steep in and project out, through bouts of volatility, projection, rage, and childish tantrums! Our assignment also includes creating wonderful lives for ourself, and getting our focus off them.
Blessings on the eye opening journey of self reclamation! Here are three new YouTube videos that I find beautifully helpful, as discovered today.
How the Insecure Narcissist Can Trigger your Insecurities - Dr. Les Carter - Surviving Narcissism
Imaginary Confessions of a Narcissist (If only they could be this honest) - Dr. Les Carter - Surviving Narcissism
Light Language Healing for Full Chakra Cleanse with Marlene Cronin
Here are some additional resources for anyone open to, or needing to learn more about Narcissistic Abuse Recovery. I have gathered the following support YouTube Videos on this topic, weeding out some of the most super supportive, highly informative, and less well known insights and guidance videos on a YouTube Playlist I call "Top Resources for Understanding Narcissists." "Top Resources for Understanding Narcissists." https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLJ3OniDZNuJhtAdY_SIF91lBCAxdjjkcv The second list I am sharing is a far more comprehensive list. Here it is: "Resources for Understanding and Recovery from Narcissists... (and Narcissistic Abuse)" https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLJ3OniDZNuJgmr27PA-Qg9gxKU7nv62GH If you are interested in the New Earth based toolkits I offer on this path of Soul Expansion, Please visit my website at: www.TrailblazingTransformation.com where you can learn more about ThetaHealing, Quantum Healing Hypnosis Technique, and Parallel Life Regression. Stay tuned for more new offerings, in the making right now! I welcome you to share this blog entry, and these resources freely.
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