Emergence, Renewal, and New Leaps

I am grateful to my friend Wayne Overall, who shared some encouraging words about my expressive writing gifts, with me today.

I guess I stopped expressing through writing, at least formally, on my blog, early in 2021.

Probably around this same time, I also shut down my love of, and prioritization of expressing through making art, when I instead was facing the loss of so many of my closest friends and caring friendships.

This is all something worthy of looking at, and reviving, where vitality invites!

There is a lot of my true self, my home, my property, my passions, my self care, and visions for what I intended, and even my soul work, that I have simply shut down, and stopped uplifting.

I’ve lived through the passing, near and beyond 90, of both my beloved parents.

I’ve lived through the trauma of broken friendships, betrayals of sorts, or simply growth in severed and different directions.

My soul self took on opportunities like I was back in the spiritual world, like I was limitless.

Yet I must have broke, in the energies between defending my truth, and outgrowing my comfort and resonance in and with Santa Fe, amidst the changes within me, and those outside of me.

Now I am living simply, and very aware of the hurts I have let fester inside me, and some out around me!

I am more open to collapsing my tent, here, and moving forward, in a place of new resonance and clear kind beginnings.

I never imagined I would suddenly feel inspired to move on from Santa Fe.  

Yet inspired by my friend and soul sistar Lori Smiskol, I am plotting my likely course, somewhere more gentle for me.

Also inspired by my friend and soul kin Paula Watters Jones, who moved from Taos, New Mexico, and closer to Dolores Cannon Country, and is loving the dream, growing her food, painting her art, visiting Santa Fe, New Mexico, and selling her paintings on famous Canyon Road!

I am looking at the possibilities that moving to Arkansas may hold.  I am exploring Hot Springs and Hot Springs Village, in central Arkansas, as a possible next leap, and new home, surrounded by gentle people, warm community, lakes, water, crystals, swimming pols, hiking trails, and a slower pace of living, I just may need in recovering myself!

Make Jen Great Again.

My last name and my essence is encoded with clarity.  And alas we are in a polarity school.  

So while I feel self judgment, sadness, failure, and pretty lonely through so much of these changes, I equally welcome and bless trailblazing transformation, new beginnings, clarity, and renewal.

I will turn 60 in a few months.  I’m ready to leave a  lot of wreckage and loss behind me, and explore a whole new cycle of who I am, opening more room for me, and new levels and expressions of nature, America, community, friendship, safety, balance, ease, communion, and blessed service.

I am ready to embrace the unknown, to be free, and be free to be me, in a whole new place and way.

I am grateful to all the people and places, community, and activities thus far, here, in my home of 25 years.

And I am ready to try something new, and to embrace a whole new cycle of a life that delights and surprises me first, and me to share, as I glean a new flow.

So thank you to all who inspire me.

The divide, crash, fall, and breakdown, has not been easy!  Yet we emerge anew and can do so, again and again.

On the wings of love, all my Dear Ones!

I love you all,  across our odd changes, and beyond!

Sad for the lower range emotions.  Yet grateful for opportunities through authenticity, for betterment, renewal, uplift, and connection.

This quest began in connection!

This human experience, it cheers us on, when we hold it in a fresh and bright light!

Dear encouragement on your best pathway, and quantum leaps, my precious friends! 💛💖🩵

Art & Transformation

In 1989, 20 years ago, while living in San Francisco, I moved into a shared apartment with a woman named Pamela. Pamela was an artist, a teacher, a traveler, and a clairvoyant. She spoke of 'the energy," and gave me a few psychic readings. I was an artist, and found her skills, quite fascinating. I went to the school, called "Psychic Horizons," a spin off of Berkeley Psychic Institute," where I signed up for the first in a series of meditation classes, all in the pursuit, of clairvoyant abilities. The class culminated in the reward of a free "psychic reading," at the end of the classes. It all felt rather mysterious to me. The day I was scheduled for my big PSYCHIC reading, the big EARTHQUAKE rocked San Francisco, shutting most of the city down. I hopped a bus to the school anyway. They gave me an "earthquake check." I thought my SOUL must have some pretty BIG information, to coincide with a big quake, the same evening!

Since then I have shared many amazing experiences, learning more about clear seeing, which led to learning SHAMANIC JOURNEYING, through the Foundation for Shamamism, which led, one way or another, to my studies of HYPNOTHERAPY, at the schools listed on my links.

Years later, I studied at my third clairvoyant training school, called The Center for Inner Truth, in Santa Fe, NM. Julie, the school's director used to lead these wonderful evening workshops, including a series on the chakras. These workshops guided participants to gain guidance from within. During one of these, she asked us, to ask, our own guidance, "what is our true calling?" or some similar question, which led me to an answer for myself! The answer I received internally was deep & profound, much of it dropping so deep, I am not even sure, exactly what it said. Yet the two words I do remember are "TRANSFORMATION & CREATIVITY!" The guidance was something like, "your two greatest passions are TRANSFORMATION & CREATIVITY!"

I have traversed through many crossroads since then, finding my way back to my old, dear, true love & grand passion of TRANSFORMATION through hypnotherapy. I began this path in 1991, seeking the root cause of some neck pain, that indeed I found through one session of Alchemical Hypnotherapy. This is just one of the many facets of trance-work tools, I am presently weaving together, intuitively, in my practice, Trailblazing Transformation!

As I open up facilitating this TRANSFORMATION, in myself, and with my fellow TRAILBLAZERS, I feel a great sense of AWE, EMPOWERMENT, GRACE, BALANCE & reSOURCEfulness! I am deeply moved & inspired by the courage of those drawn to this work, and to me as a facilitator, to dive in deep, and ALLOW, deep shifts, from the core of their being.

I feel deeply blessed!

I am also excited seeing this as a continuum, this energy of TRAILBLAZING TRANSFORMATION & CREATIVITY.

In addition to opening my hypnotherapy practice, I am opening, along side 11 of my artist friends, in a group art show at www.TarnofffArtCenter.com, my friend Laura Tarnoff's art studio, & art center, in Rowe, New Mexico, this weekend. This show is part of the larger show, running Saturday & Sunday, September 26th & 27th, www.PecosStudioTour.com

When people ask me, what kind of art do you do? I say, "I am a visual artist, who loves to paint, & loves color, cultures, people, abstract expressionism, & more!" I say, "I am focusing more on the ART OF THE SOUL, right now." Tragedy -times- TRANSFORMATION = Triumph!

Soon it will all be a seamless dance, between SOUL ART & VISUAL ART! It is exciting, feeling so RIPE, birthing ALL of this!

Befriending fellow AMAZING CREATORS, in LIFE & online, inspires me on so many levels.

I shared this inspiration with my AMAZING CREATOR FRIEND Laura, the other day. I said, "You know, one really radiant, spiritual artist friend, across the continent, Brenadette Charles, is self publishing a book of her art, poetry, spiritual insights and more. I would love to author and publish my own, multi media, expressive book about my journey, art, insights and more, to share with fellow EXPLORERS on the path!" Laura is genuinely excited and encouraging about this.

After I traveled to Cameroon, six or so years ago, friends and family encouraged me to publish my journal of the unique experience. Yet I always knew, there is more to my story to share, than merely my amazing travel log. I want to share highlights of the larger journey, the journey of my soul. And I am, here & now. Yes, this is a good start.

In celebration of the LIGHT of our TRUE BEING, fellow STARSEED!

JOYFUL TRAILBLAZING!

Jen