Showing posts with label light. Show all posts
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Sunday, October 25, 2009

Inner demons mask INNER DIVINITY

Collaborative Multi Media Painting by Kamajou Tadfor & Jen Klarfeld


Dear Groovy Creation:

Please excuse me for weaning off my beautiful hand collaged journals, a whole month ago today, in trade for blogging on my new blog, here.  Tonight I sat down, and picked up my current, bold, art covered journal, collaged in images of bold orange-yellow coral, an orange, expressionistic Jamie Chase painted female figure, a beaded native bag, transformed to a pillow, behind the figure, an older Native Woman, kissing her Man, donning a bold, ceremonial, red, orange, yellow, black and white, headdress, ribbon shirt, beadwork and all,  a beautiful modern Kachina painting by Gregory Lomayesva, and one painted cubist woman in candy colored turquoise green, sky blue, orange-yellow, sky blue, scarlet red, and pale yellow!  Funny as it celebrates my deep love of art, creativity, painting and colors, while I presently find myself, less focused on painting, and more focused on the soul arts!

Still life opens opportunities for me to continue juggling my two highest passions, soul transformation, and process painting, from soul to canvas!

Now I experiment here, crossing the journal and blog, like a genetic writing experiment.  May it all be for good.  Here goes:

I DO FEEL A MASSIVE SHIFT FROM:

  • old paradigm to new
  • struggling to thriving
  • karma to grace
  • separation to oneness
  • suffering to elation
  • fighting against to attracting & surrender
  • hiding to revealing
  • secrets to openess
  • greed & need to sharing & service
  • trauma to transformation
  • warring to bliss
  • feeling lost to sharing understanding
  • isolation to unity
  • brokenness to wholeness
  • disease to healing
  • busy-ness to being
  • mechanistic to natural
  • mutant to real
  • lost to multiversal
  • density to light
  • slavery to freedom
  • hurt to well
  • following to leading
  • cluelessness to knowing
  • stuck to growing
  • feeling small to divine
  • abandonment to connection
  • local to cosmic
  • hateful to loving
  • judging to accepting
I just sat down and explored a guided meditation, to meet my "inner demon," to paint for the upcoming "Inner Demon Show," America Meredith invited me to show in, October 30th, at her Second Street Studio, in Santa Fe.

A local facebook, artist friend, expressed "concern," for why exactly I am dabbling in inner demons?  He said he helps people clear demons and that the subject is not light.  I said, I too help people transform their inner demons, yet I know it can indeed be light, when we open to a larger context.

"What is my primary inner demon?" I wondered, as I forged inward to explore.

At first I saw a male figure, a hurt man.  Then I saw a more expansive indigo, crystal, and violet energy, kind of contracted, very deflated, an energy living like a sponge, or a filter, soaking up so much of the dense, Earthy human rays of hurt, suffering, and sadness.  This energy seemed to learn, from lineages of mothers, how to feel, see, mirror, attract, soak up, and run the energy of pain.  This energy learned to collapse inward and soak up other people's pain.  On Earth, it learned to absorb and reflect the ways of humans.  It learned to stifle its true nature, which is to radiate divine light, from the inside, out.  It learned to withhold this light, this crystal clarity, this cosmic unity, and instead how to suck in and grow dense and clogged with pain, from hurt human beings, taking this pain in, and on, as if its own!

So in talking to me, and me talking to this energy, my inner demon slowly and surely, morphed into my INNER DIVINITY, transforming from "clogged, dense, heavy, suck up," back to indigo, crystal, violet, lavender radiance, feeling colorful, cosmic, and freeing, purposeful, satisfying and true!

The inner demon is really my vast and infinite high vibrational divinity, coming back out to play.

I feel a little too energetically ambushed to leap in and paint this right away.

I saw beautiful energies, colors, and dancing divinity, expanding and unfolding beyond the masks of demon territories.  It may be difficult to paint, express and defend.  Perhaps I will include some of the human masks it has learned, in past, to hide behind.

Within is our VAST DIVINITY.  In a conditioned, warring world, it learns to collapse itself, to hide, and soak up outward pain.  The TRUTH is far more VAST!

Seeing this, as revealed by some of my clients, reminds that a very popular game on Earth, is that of fear, shutting down, and loading up with yucky feelings, thoughts, and vibes.

My inner demon grew up, out of a drive for self protection.  Vast power lives beyond the small hiding poses!  I am living and revealing this freely now!  I am grateful to share in the massive wave of humanity, awakening and sharing this now!

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Starseed Regression Pioneer Dolores Cannon

"Other Worldly Landscape" by Jen


Yesterday felt like an enormously full day! It felt like many days, compacted into one.  It felt like traversing many worlds from one!

My explorer shared, after a session, that Dolores Cannon would be on Coast to Coast am Radio, later the same day.

My client had a rich, full session, touring the cosmos, and experiencing deeper discoveries about life aboard spaceships and much much more. This explorer, felt waves of sadness, watching a scene, in Earh's history unfold, where the Persians blew themselves up, entirely. I joked that I dated one, so at least one must have survived.

Later that day I retrieved a phone message from the old Persian love, from 18 or so years past. I screamed in shock hearing his voice after so long!  I tackled a few side projects, then dialed him up, back in my old stomping ground of San Francisco.

We had a few long heart to heart catch up sessions. It felt very dear to connect, and catch the infinite timeless wave, that true love and friendship anchors, beyond ordinary time, space, and life preoccupations. When two know each other's heart once, this always remains alive and strong. It's a gift when both friends are vulnerable and open enough to really let each other in. This is accessible, enriching, and true, any time it is opened up and honored!

My work is essentially, facilitating altered states in explorers, via focused states of attention and regression. So yesterday, I shared in some far out states, then reconnected over an 18 year gap in communications, to a true love.

Later I wrestled my radio, and tuned into Coat to Coast am radio, where host George Noory was interviewing Starseed Regression Pioneer, masterful, multidimensional hypnotherapist, and past life researcher, lecturer, author, and publisher, Dolores Cannon.

Dolores Cannon is a huge hero of our local Santa Fe Starseed Circle, ever since I saw a book, with a big gray alien on the cover, called "The Custodians" By Dolores, at my Friend Lynda's studio. I got on line, and researched her books, and bought some for myself, for Lynda, and for my Dad. Now we have all read her books, including, "Keepers of the Garden," "Star Crash," and "The Convoluted Universe Books One, Two, & Three!"  This is radically shifting our awareness, and my past life regression practice.

Dolores Cannon is one of my top favorite mentors, and the clients with whom I work, who have read her books, are having highly empowering, off planet, multi-dimensional, spaceship excursions, and "living as light" memories! My new practice is literally out of this world, thanks to Dolores Cannon.  People are walking out, amazed and grateful, for new levels of understanding to many many major life questions.

One of my starseed friends on facebook, asked me to share my audio recording of the show. I am not that technically advanced yet. So instead I started writing today, about last night's mind blowing, soul stirring, heart awakening show. I feel like I tripped out through the Multiverse and back, and am still letting it all sink in.  Here's what I wrote, in my letter to a handful of friends, whom I invited to listen to the show!

The theme of the show was that Dolores' clients have shown to her, that there are three waves of "aliens" that are here on Earth, as "volunteers," to help the young Earth race evolve, without blowing up the classroom, like modern American troubled teenagers!

She explained that the three waves, began with the first wave, starting around 1947, shortly after the atomic bomb went off. Some seem older than this too me, yet they could also be "walk ins," if their interest in UFO's really peaked more, around 1947. Is Dolores a volunteer, as George inquired? She's very humble about it, yet she's definitely a leader among us! The alien race came to help us young ones to not blow ourselves up, with *our new power, while still evolving. She said Earth is seeded with life forms from all over the multiverse!

For more about "our new power," watch the film, "Humanity Ascending," by Futurist Visionary Barbara Marx Hubbard.


Dolores said that Zachariah Sitchin's research focuses mostly, only on one specific race that came and enslaved earthlings, yet the seeding started well before this small bit. Personally I think Sitchen shares a story that is kind of pre-multidimensionality, so it serves some, yet it is far from the whole story, which many more are naturally attuned to knowing! His story is not what I know as truth, within my being. It is a more humanoid, 4-D vibrational story.

Dolores said this is all like a play, this Earth life, that we play many, many roles, here. We come from the  the Source, from the light, and we play all the roles, like the costume corner, in kindergarten. I quite agree! Dr. Brian Weiss says the same thing. We are not black, or white, red, or yellow, priest, or guru, parent or child, leader or follower, slave or slave master, Jewish or Jain. We are the light beyond all this, which puts on a new costume every lifetime, or every Halloween!

She said there are different assignments Volunteers are on. Some are Seeders, and some are Recorders, and some are Weeders weeding something out, on Earth. Many are Messengers, relaying cosmic knowing to Earth Family, as a wake up call, as an evolutionary boost, as an "inside job!"

Some of the new wavers fulfill our mission, simply by living, enlivening our knowing, in ways that shift masses of humans, simply by contact, and expression, like the hundredth monkey.

There are a third wave, that came in, in the 1970's, and later. I see it this way, from my own research.

The first wave had more problems, felt more suicidal, felt more conflicted with the violent ways
of humanoids. The second wave had less problems, and more shared understanding! The first wave was marked by Systems Busters, Way Showers, Pioneers, and all that I deeply relate to!

Dolores Cannon, like Barbara Marciniak and the Pleaidians*, said that we are shifting into a splitting of two worlds, the New Earth, and the Old, Karmic Wheel World. She said, if you are aware of being here to create the New Earth, then you're coming along, and those who are continuing to spin in karmic circles of dense emotion and habituation, will stay on the Old Earth, with its wars, Earth changes, diseases, fights turbulence, chaos, and lessons!

* see "Bringers of the Dawn," the 18 part Pleaidian channeling, on www.youtube.com. Listen to the one with images, it's newer and better!

She said that we have already changed the Earth and awareness greatly, and that there is no great war or armageddon, coming.

Dolores mentioned a comet that collided with the Earth, bringing bacteria, which brought with it disease. She explains that those overseeing Earth could have bagged the whole experiment, and started over from scratch, then, yet chose not to. She shared of how some of the new kids are being born with the new DNA, deep knowing, and new levels of immunity to disease, as we are evolving into a brilliant new humanity, despite what the pharmaceutical, insurance, news media and other corporate interests want you to believe!

She spoke of these new star children coming in, learning so fast and knowing so much, that some graduate college by age 9, and start corporations to help support the other star kids and their specific missions!

She said the bible is not the "word of God," it is more a human history, written by man. She noted that when the council of Nicea gathered to compile the books of the bible, that many important books were left out.

She spoke of us coming from SOURCE, and of how some "Aliens" can live on LIGHT from the source, as they are still physical, while their organs have atrophied.

She made it clear that all alien abductions are pre-agreed to, by the humans, and that those humans are connected to, or from the Alien race doing the abducting. These humans are being tracked, implanted, and overseen, as they signed on for. Some of our "implants" are recording devices, being tracked by our off planet family.

Dolores explained that we are the first planet in the Universe that is morphing from a 3-D planet, into a 5-D planet, while at the same time maintaining the old 3-D one. She said it is very brave for "volunteers" to come here. She noted that many of our enlightened star family fear us, for our violence, immaturity, destructive power, and more.  Many of us "Volunteers," inherently fear the chaos, control, rage and fear-filled ways of the humanoids!

One First Wave Volunteer, spoke of telling his mother, as a young boy, how upset he was with how ignorant and controlling, raging and warlike the race here is! The mother didn't know what to make of this, as he seemed to include her, in his harsh judgement, from his gentle awakened soul perspective.

Dolores said that we are changing our outcome, which is not set in stone. She said the family will not let the Earth Children blow up our planet. This would cause too much trauma in the Multiverse. Still we are set, far removed from other life, so if we do screw up, other planets and civilizations will not be immediately corrupted. Still there is a back up planet, that is not exactly like Earth, yet is available in the wings, in case we ever need to relocate.

She said there is a race living inside the planet, that has little interest in fraternizing with us, out here, on the surface, and that they have their own sun, in there. We are too violent and warlike for their attention. She explained that most entryways to the inner Earth are found under pyramids.

Many "Volunteers" called in, and identified their gifts and challenges, as First, Second, and Third Wavers. She said the most important way out of the pain of being an enlightened volunteer, and feeling the pain of the war, violence, and immaturity of humanoids, is to help people. "We are here on Earth to help people!"

Dolores reported that we are here to join the Galactic Federation, and take our rightful place amongst our own!

And there were a few comments on how it is out of alignment with natural law, for us to manipulate the foods, the gene pool, and experiment with mutating these or genetically experimenting with crossing pig cells with those of humans. Dolores' books shed light on the Experiments on Atlantis, and how these were their downfall, and of how we are spiraling round, repeating some of this, right now. Some of us, know about this, yet for some this is new.

That's my overview. I took a zillion notes.

This is what I am delighted to procure from Dolores and George, and to share with you, here.

Thanks for your interest!

In Joy, Love and Oneness!

Jen




Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Art & Transformation


In 1989, 20 years ago, while living in San Francisco, I moved into a shared apartment with a woman named Pamela. Pamela was an artist, a teacher, a traveler, and a clairvoyant. She spoke of 'the energy," and gave me a few psychic readings. I was an artist, and found her skills, quite fascinating. I went to the school, called "Psychic Horizons," a spin off of Berkeley Psychic Institute," where I signed up for the first in a series of meditation classes, all in the pursuit, of clairvoyant abilities. The class culminated in the reward of a free "psychic reading," at the end of the classes. It all felt rather mysterious to me. The day I was scheduled for my big PSYCHIC reading, the big EARTHQUAKE rocked San Francisco, shutting most of the city down. I hopped a bus to the school anyway. They gave me an "earthquake check." I thought my SOUL must have some pretty BIG information, to coincide with a big quake, the same evening!

Since then I have shared many amazing experiences, learning more about clear seeing, which led to learning SHAMANIC JOURNEYING, through the Foundation for Shamamism, which led, one way or another, to my studies of HYPNOTHERAPY, at the schools listed on my links.

Years later, I studied at my third clairvoyant training school, called The Center for Inner Truth, in Santa Fe, NM. Julie, the school's director used to lead these wonderful evening workshops, including a series on the chakras. These workshops guided participants to gain guidance from within. During one of these, she asked us, to ask, our own guidance, "what is our true calling?" or some similar question, which led me to an answer for myself! The answer I received internally was deep & profound, much of it dropping so deep, I am not even sure, exactly what it said. Yet the two words I do remember are "TRANSFORMATION & CREATIVITY!" The guidance was something like, "your two greatest passions are TRANSFORMATION & CREATIVITY!"

I have traversed through many crossroads since then, finding my way back to my old, dear, true love & grand passion of TRANSFORMATION through hypnotherapy. I began this path in 1991, seeking the root cause of some neck pain, that indeed I found through one session of Alchemical Hypnotherapy. This is just one of the many facets of trance-work tools, I am presently weaving together, intuitively, in my practice, Trailblazing Transformation!

As I open up facilitating this TRANSFORMATION, in myself, and with my fellow TRAILBLAZERS, I feel a great sense of AWE, EMPOWERMENT, GRACE, BALANCE & reSOURCEfulness! I am deeply moved & inspired by the courage of those drawn to this work, and to me as a facilitator, to dive in deep, and ALLOW, deep shifts, from the core of their being.

I feel deeply blessed!

I am also excited seeing this as a continuum, this energy of TRAILBLAZING TRANSFORMATION & CREATIVITY.

In addition to opening my hypnotherapy practice, I am opening, along side 11 of my artist friends, in a group art show at www.TarnofffArtCenter.com, my friend Laura Tarnoff's art studio, & art center, in Rowe, New Mexico, this weekend. This show is part of the larger show, running Saturday & Sunday, September 26th & 27th, www.PecosStudioTour.com

When people ask me, what kind of art do you do? I say, "I am a visual artist, who loves to paint, & loves color, cultures, people, abstract expressionism, & more!" I say, "I am focusing more on the ART OF THE SOUL, right now." Tragedy -times- TRANSFORMATION = Triumph!
Soon it will all be a seamless dance, between SOUL ART & VISUAL ART! It is exciting, feeling so RIPE, birthing ALL of this!

Befriending fellow AMAZING CREATORS, in LIFE & online, inspires me on so many levels.

I shared this inspiration with my AMAZING CREATOR FRIEND Laura, the other day. I said, "You know, one really radiant, spiritual artist friend, across the continent, Brenadette Charles, is self publishing a book of her art, poetry, spiritual insights and more. I would love to author and publish my own, multi media, expressive book about my journey, art, insights and more, to share with fellow EXPLORERS on the path!" Laura is genuinely excited and encouraging about this.

After I traveled to Cameroon, six or so years ago, friends and family encouraged me to publish my journal of the unique experience. Yet I always knew, there is more to my story to share, than merely my amazing travel log. I want to share highlights of the larger journey, the journey of my soul. And I am, here & now. Yes, this is a good start.

In celebration of the LIGHT of our TRUE BEING, fellow STARSEED!

JOYFUL TRAILBLAZING!

Jen