Questioning it All

What's going on in America, and on our world? Are you listening, are you seeing all of this?

Are you seeing the old corrupt leaders and systems as they go crashing into the ground?

Against popular belief, I am questioning it all, uncovering really well hidden clues, with friends and guides, as they expose the potential that Kobe Bryant and his daughter, and those flying with them, at the beginning of 2020, the year of perfect vision, balance, and building new foundations, were murdered, in the helicopter crash, as was planned by the same sub human controllers, who, from what I see, planned the bio warfare, global, house arrest and pandemic. I am actively questioning who sponsored and planned America's House Resolution 6666, the Trace Act, and when the Pandemic started to ease up in America, planned race riots, triggered by the public, lynching style, murder of George Floyd? Are you questioning any of this too?

I've been multitasking, or multi levels of awareness juggling, as I feel my feelings fully, and also prioritize time to question every narrative being hurled at us right now!

Who dropped clues of their satanic tyrannical plan, in 2 sick performances at the Grammy's, on 1/26/20, 3 clues, if you include Kobe's Bryant's sacrificial, beloved male black hero's ritualistic murder, on the day of the Grammy's.

I can discuss this all safely with almost no one.

The campaigns and levels of disinformation, layered on campaigns of disinformation are piled high to the sky. I've been following youtube and FB posts of David Wilcock, and Magenta Pixie, who are Starseeds, who have been seeing through this stuff, with insider info, and soul guidance, guiding them, for a long time.

My FB wall and blog, openly share what, and how I see, of what's going on. Let me put it in psychological terms. Many are discovering a satanic cult of billionaires, who feed off of harming, controlling, conquering, dividing, destroying, and depopulating humanity, ritualistically. They leave huge clues, before they act, and have billions of dollars to hire actors and stage murders, deadly pandemics, grammy's, enslaving rituals, control media narratives, infiltrated riots, and corporate monopolized censored, and disinformation filled info campaigns, and hate campaigns, and the discrediting of all that exposes them in their own lies and looting, on the internet, on corporate monopolized social media, and in long planned, strategic, satanic, horrifically symbolic traumatizing murders.

They operate like psychopathic cult leaders and gangsters, because they are. We are innocent, and simultaneously framed and pitted against each other in a power war. Also in polarity wars; material against spiritual, black against white, male against female, control and enslavement against disempowered, and enslaved, European against colored, popular verses unpopular, truth verses propaganda, corrupt verses just, left verses right, right verses wrong, information verses disinformation, rich verses poor, tyranny verses sovereignty, mind verses heart, understanding verses misunderstanding, culture verses culture, tribe verses tribe, drugs verses sobriety, gang verses gang, danger and threats of danger, verses safety, natural verses artificial, AI verses nature, predators verses prey, and on and on.

I have Starseed friends who are somehow administering supreme self care and steeping out into nature, and into trust, into Self, and rising above the madness of 3-D and 4-D right now, into 5-D, of the Earth, directly. And here we are, operating at all levels in between.

I've felt slammed to the ground and deadened, last and this week, after watching the horrific footage of 1 out of 4 dystopian zombie robot , mind controlled??? cops, murdering an unarmed black man, catalyzing these riots, in cities suburbs, and towns all over America. Social distance, death, disease, masks, bullying murder, violence, more murder, 6 trillion dollars looted from the federal reserve, mostly poured back into failing capitalist pockets, and interests. Scapegoating, blame, division, disruption, drama, ruin! May we hold energies of compassion, wholeness, and curiosity as we traverse through all this chaos, death and destruction.

I am questioning it all! Are you questioning behind the appearance of the war breaking out across America and our World right now?

Most are going along with it, aligning with 1 party line box, or the other, while being raided by a silent global, bully sponsored war, on the way through the Great shift of Mother Earth and Humanity!

We can connect in high frequencies, without having to do so through mass destruction, disease, brutal murder, sponsored race wars, raids of who we are, and riots, and the looting of humanity, nature, and life. We can be and live in harmony, balance, love, unity and life, directly. I see our much scapegoated, American leader, Donald Trump, as clumsily holding a space for us to, against all odds, expose the real Deeeeeeeep Stay - te, the real invisible enemy, and begin replacing corruption, corrupt leaders and systems, with balanced, trustworthy, authentic leaders, leadership, unity, and goodness for all, not just for a manipulative 1 to 2 percent, pitting power against the people.

Ready for our quantum leap, out beyond the artificially manipulated realities! Let's take back our our sanity, and our safety too, individually, locally, nationally, and globally! Let us take back of feelings, our voices, our compassion, and our cooperative power!

So much peace and love from me to you.

We are expanding our hearts through this invisible war, that has been allowed to rage on for too long. Trading our old slave shackles for resonance with the true Earth, with our true hearts, within our relationships, and with kindred spirits who as we are sovereign, whole, kind and loving, respectful, and waking up to explore freely for ourselves!

Dear heart's love and encouragement to every single one of you.

As I believe the Black Lives Matter movement is coopted, and or sponsored from outside the actual black community, to keep us warring and blaming and finger pointing, as white verses black, instead of unifying and appreciating, protecting and caring together for us all, already! I may not join in posting such, or wearing the t-shirts, like a prize from a rock concert, or a banner at a bloody protest. I'm ready to live as and for human unity!

It's more valuable to me, to interact, and engage, and listen to real people and real stories in our real shared life.

My deepest sorrow and sympathies for the lives arrested through murder, as did not ever deserve to be taken from us, all of them, black, red, brown, yellow, beige and white, purple, blue, gray, green, orange, red, crystaline, indigo, earth-tone, and yellow!

Let's expose the profiteers, and honor the prophets. Lets take our lives back from this war on our emotions, soul, homes, rights, freedom, wisdom, families, selves, and sanity.

I love you dearly!

I am holding us in a higher love!

We are emerging through this collective shift, right here in physicality, victoriously!

One Love Sisters and Brothers, Family, and Friends. Let's share it. I love you!

RAW UNMASKED SHARING

Ink Drawing by Jen

11/1/09

MORNING MOURNING LOSSES OF THE CHOSEN LOST WAY, OF COLLECTIVE EARTH'S HUMANITY. TOURING THROUGH FINDING, LOSING LOST FOUND WAYS.  NEVER FULLY AHEAD OF THE GAME, ALWAYS SECRETLY LEADING, FOLLOWING, RECEIVING BEING RECEIVED, RECEDING BACK, BURSTING FORWARDS, SPIRALING ACROSS, DOWN AND THROUGH.  SHARING INVITATIONS, JOINING IN, CREATING SOMETHING TO SHARE INVITATIONS TO.  VENTURING OUT, VENTURING THROUGH.  SEEING, EXPLORING, AND MEETING EACH OTHER, ALWAYS BEGINNING ANEW.  PLUMMETING INWARD, PROJECTING THIS OUT, THE WAY OF THE ARTIST VENTURING WAY OUT.  EASE IN SHARED KNOWING, AND TENSIONS COME OUT.  WE ARE ONE, WE ARE SOME, WE SHARE, WE GLITTER, WE COME OUT AND REVEAL OURSELVES. EASIER TO EXPOSE OURSELF ON CANVAS, THAN TO CHOOSE WHAT TO WEAR.  WHO WE DARE TO BE REVEALS THROUGH WHO AND HOW WE EXPRESS.  WE MOVE EACH OTHER.  IT IS  VITAL, TAKING OUR SIGHT, CARRYING IT FORTH, TAKING OUR VOICE, LETTING IT RING FORTH, MAKING OUR MARKS, GATHERING AND LETTING THIS SHINE THROUGH.  LEARNING TO LISTEN, AND NOT JUST TO BOAST, POSE AND SHOUT.  LOOKING IN, LISTENING TO, SHINING THROUGH, MAKING CONTACT.

TENDER RAW AND REAL YOU, OLD FRIEND, POET, SPEAKER OF IMAGINATION, TRUTH, HARMONY, VISIONS, DISCONTENT, PEACE BRINGING, SEER, SEEING, WITNESSING CONNECTION, OPENING HEART, INVITING ME IN, CHATTERING OPEN TRUE COMMUNION, OPEN RAW HEART, DRAWING ME IN, HOLDING ME FIRMLY, GENTLY ROOTED, ON A PALETTE, ON YOUR DRAWING ROOM FLOOR.  OPENING HEART AND HEARTH OF FAMILY, HOME, NIGHT, KNOWN.  BEING REAL SELVES, FAMILIAR, UNKNOWN, NEW, UNRAVELING SOUL IN A GOOD WAY.  KNOWING AND SHARING OUR BEST SELVES, PEEKING INTO SOUL REVEALINGS, FROM WARMTH, STRENGTH, KNOWING, FORGETTING, MIRTH, BIRTHING INSTINCTS, BIRTHING LAUGHTER, CUDDLING, HONORING, HONORING FRIENDSHIP, QUESTIONING, "WHAT IS THIS NOW?" "WHAT DO WE KNOW?"  FEELING GOOD.  SHINING THIS INTO OLD DARK SHADOWY PLACES, ADULTS GROW WITHIN.  VEILS ARE THIN. CHILDREN DROPPING IN.  NOT LOOKING FOR ANYTHING.  NO PRECONCEIVED NEED.  JUST INNOCENT WANDERING, IN SHARING THIS CONNECTION.

FEELING GOOD.  CONNECTION OF HEART WITHIN, CONNECTION OF ART, EXPRESSION OF SOUL DARK AND LIGHT, DEATH AND LIFE, FORGETTING AND KNOWING, HARMONY AND HELL ZONES, ABILITY TO FIGHT, TAKE FLIGHT, LET IT ALL OUT, THROUGH THE RIGHT TO WRITE.  SO TOUGH WITHIN AND WITHOUT, SO GENTLE TOGETHER, TOSSLING, AND TICKLING AND WARMING AT THE FIRE AND MEDICINE OF HEALERS' HEARTS AND HANDS. TEMPERED IN LOVING FRIENDSHIP, GRACEFUL IN CONNECTION, NATURAL, RAW, UNMASKED, UNLABLED, FREE FLOWING, UNNAMED, SHARING SECRETS, ART, PICTURES, POEMS.  TOUCHING, REACHING WITH SOULS HOLDING EACH OTHERS' OWN, IN GENTLENESS.  GENUINE ONES PLAYING TOGETHER, EASILY OPENING SPACES OF SOUL SECRETS, AS WE ALWAYS DO, ON OUR OWN, IN SECRET, IN ART, IN HEART, IN COMMUNION, IN CONNECTION.  NOT OVER THE TOP, NOT SPITEFUL OR MEAN, NO BIG EGOS.  DRESSED RELAXED BLANKETED BODIES, NAKED, COZY, STRIPPED DOWN BARE FREE SOULS.  LETTING EACH ONE SEE AND BE SEEN.  TENDER AND CARING.  GOOD DOCTORING, PLAYING DOCTOR, TICKLING FROM SOUL!

SWEET RARE KNOWING COZY FRIENDSHIP.  GIVING, SHARING, KNOWING, REVEALING. CIRCULAR ART SHOW, CIRCULAR KNOWING.  SWEET FRIENDS IN MASS.  SWEET FRIENDS GATHER, SWEET FRIEND WELCOMES ME WITH KIND EYES.  GATHER SEEING BEAUTY, MEANING, POWER, PURPOSE, ART AND ARTISTS, LIFE AND FAMILY.  CHATTERING ALL NIGHT. FEELING BLESSED.  BEING WELCOMED IN WELCOMING.  SHARING WELCOMING WITH KNOWING FRIENDSHIP, HEART, WITH KNOWING ARTISTS' SOUL.  I SEE SO MUCH OF EACH ONE'S REFLECTION.  INNOCENT IN THIS REAL HEART SPACE.  OPENING UP THE BOOKS OF YOUR LIFE, STREAMING INTO THE BOOKS OF MINE.  TRICKY TRICKSTER TO THOSE NOT INNOCENT ENOUGH TO SEE INTO YOUR HEART.  OPENING ME BACK INTO MY INNOCENT OWN.  GIVING ME FREE REIGN IN THIS INNER SANCTUM.

SHREWD JEWISH OPEN IDEAS ON BLOGGING, PUBLISHING, RECORDING, AND SHARING SUCH BOOKS OF LIFE, SUCH PAINTERS PAINTING.  ARTISTS TEACHING ARTISTS, HEALERS HEALING HEALERS, PAINTERS PAINTING PAINTERS, LOVERS LOVING LOVERS, FRIENDS BEFRIENDING FRIENDSHIP, IN THE FRIEND.  BEING IN THE MOMENT.  DECIPHERING OLD CRYPTIC CLUES, SHARING BRAKE-THROUGHS INTO WHO YOU ARE, AND WHO I AM. COMING BACK AROUND SHARING GRACE AND BEAUTY OF WHO WE ALL ARE, TRUE AND UNMASKED, ON HALLOWEEN, SHARING TREATS, TRICKS, GIFTS, HEART AND TRUTH IN THIS FORTRESS OF FRIENDSHIP WITH YOU!

Vibration

"Family" Painting by Jen

Yesterday I drove into town, into Santa Fe, to meet an old family friend. The friend was traveling across country, with a new love. It was a very sweet vibrational offering to share in. They told stories, of how they had been in love sixty years ago. The male counterpart, confessed that he had wished to marry this woman, while dating her in high school, yet they went separate ways, and ended up marrying other people. After his wife passed on, he was reunited with my friend, and a love kindled naturally and easily, as it had done over sixty years before.

We shared a meal at the French Creperie, in La Fonda Hotel, which was quite divine. We shared some tales. My friend reported news from my family, back in Illinois, dwelling on the worst current changes of their friend circle. We talked in that old paradigm style for a while, about who had a stroke, who's children are facing health challenges, and other similar stories. I noticed the vibration shifted to this more hopeless helpless filter, some back in my hometown, are continually energizing.

I paced this vibration, playing, "I can top your worst story," a game my relative in Illinois, often plays. I told an, "if you think that's bad, listen to this one," tragic tale, of a third party, I am not around to see. Author Caroline Myss calls this "woundology bonding," which Jews call "kvetching." In some circles, this is so habitual, there is no way out of the tragic focus loop.

I recently introduced a communications boundary with the family member, noted above, who seems to habitually communicate, predominantly, from within the narrow band of this tragic focus loop! They are seemingly always at war within, in chaos, fear, rage and blame, and always projecting this outwardly, onto me, for any and all reasons, for an excuse for their own, habitual, unresolved pain. All others, of this distinctive energy vibration, have since fallen out of my immediate life.

I once read in an early "Kryon," book, that the energetic overlay, or filter, or karma of the Jewish People is "suffering." I am Jewish by birth, through adoption, and culturally, while relating more as a spiritual being, than a religious one. Jews are known for guilt trips, for "kvetching," which is yiddish for whining, moaning, bitching & complaining, and sometimes for habitually perpetuating the state of malcontent, from the inside out! I am proud to be culturally jewish, from a long lineage of cool origins, of a people that are not so insecure as to need to proselytize, and who historically gathered and questioned their own teachings! Yet I have lived for so long, now, with a knowing that we inhabit all races and religions, all life stations, and lessons, in various incarnations, that I see through what many continually identify with.

My friend called the other day, with a very important question, "Which spoon, and which sponge did you use, to make hot cocoa for the kids?" "I used a Winnie the Pooh, kid's spoon!" My friend was gracious, yet commented she would have to throw the spoon and dish rag out, as they touched dairy, (powdered dairy,) and were thus no longer Kosher. All I could think of was, how startling that anyone in this day and age, is still living by the ancient superstitions of dead old patriarchs, who believed in an eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth!

I am becoming more attuned to vibrations, as I open up my heart, being and my Trailblazing Transformation practice. I felt tingling pain body waves, emanating from a friend's shoulder, and straight into my palm, while posing for photos, last weekend. She confirmed, it was the arm that had been crushed in a car wreck!

I searched three possible part time job options, yesterday, while running some errands, during my transition of bridging my way into full flow, with my business. My heart & my gut say, my Trailblazing Transformation practice, is my most rewarding life gift and investment right now! Yet I am not completely immuned to the opposing thoughts of one family member, and the companies I deal with to provide services, to keep my life and business running and thriving.

I entered the only place I feel extreme resonance with, for a side job, and was really met in respect and dignity, as I was told the protocol for applying. The energy here felt very resonant, humane and divine. It felt like a light imbued and conscious center.

The second place I visited, felt more startling, more harsh, more artificial, charged, and challenging. I was told, no they were not taking applications. The manager came over, and sounded extremely stressed, announcing that they have enough applicants to not take further applications, for another six months. I felt kind of relieved, that my energetic perceptions of this option, were mirrored back in the stressful reactions of the staff, and management.

The third option, felt larger, more corporate, and more mechanized than the first two. At this storefront, I was told by a young staff member, that many employees are currently being fired! He escorted me to a manager. She reframed his sentiment, with the words, "laid off!" Still they would be opening a new store in January. The stress level here seemed, like a new flavor, of the same old offensive taste, from the second option.

While there, I ran into an associate, from my local past life training. We shared stories, and successes, each expanding our hypnotherapy practice. This friend, stayed close, within the program, of one of four or more schools which I received my training at. We discussed how the school had a cleansing, where most of the staff left, at the same time the school went through some new changes of its own. Did people leave fleeing something undesirable, or did they learn so much they all evolved into their own next step, simultaneously? Or perhaps a combination of both. I found it hard to stay at the school, and realize the option to teach there, as I bring as many fresh new ideas and approaches as the school offers, yet I felt the information traveled one way more than multiple ways, there. I feel more impassioned towards the vast array of learning opportunities offered, working with the explorers /(clients) themselves, that returning to the school life, where one is lauded for parroting the teacher, and mainly only this. Running into my associate reaffirmed, that I have far more to offer humanity and my world, by continuing to listen to the SOURCE of who I am, and through facilitating such experiences within those, most magnetized to share in the depth oriented transformation, which I bring.

I also saw my favorite local artist, at the third place, and felt too oddly nervous to stop and say hello. I did feel really excited, to have the instinctive, successful creative in me, mirrored so brilliantly!

I stopped at a tea house, where some friends run a healing clinic of sorts, for a small fee, one can try one of many services. I shared exchanges with three service providers, whom I know, and two old friends from life. I crossed paths with someone leading deep healing work, yet upon asking "how's life?" I was told something to the equivalent that it sucked on all levels. Back to vibrations. Hmmmm, what does it reflect that this person is leading work to reawaken you at the core level, yet she is still running old paradigm programming that every facet of her life is undesirably out of balance! Still she was one of my mirrors for the day, and we had a great exchange!

Later I ran into an old cuddly artist friend, from my Santa Fe life. We hugged, shared updates and my friend invited me to an "art show." The art show was kind of on my path, and recommended, so I thought it might be fun to drop in. I did not really feel completely into it, still I was curious. Why not maintain ties with the art world, here in the art mecca? So I drove down into the warehouse district, and finally found the lane, off the road. I made my way in to this very counter culture, drab, open warehouse space, filled with conceptual art, around the concept, or theme of cakes. The focus of those there seemed to be, one of desperation, to bring in some fast money, more than to create outstanding, or interesting art.

I asked a few attending hosts, "are you an artist?" and "what is this benefit for?" To raise money for this arts collective/creative space. Yet the feeling I had was, many there were dressed in very drab clothing, in muted grays and browns, and the paintings seemed to be thrown together at the last minute, screaming more of a "societal outsider/victim's pain and existential angst, than any sort of real talent or passion. The community felt mainly comprised of people who drink and party a lot, as a form of escapism. I felt very out of place, as if my colorful accessories, love of life, light, transformation, and positivity, was in some kind of direct opposition to the cult of misunderstood, disenfranchised outsider artists. And I'm a fan of outsider art! The art seemed to come out of some drug stupor. I grabbed an orange iced, chocolate cupcake, and excused myself. Walking out I felt relieved to go, feeling really outside of whatever the prevalent fad there was. I thought back to the "Fire Ravaged Room," exhibit, at my friend's San Francisco Art Institute Graduation Show, back in the 80's. "Art instead of therapy!" I thought. Vibrationally I was not at all a match to this energy. I was glad to have given it a chance. I was also glad to keep moving.

Also saw a sweet artist friend, on the road, www.IshkotenDougi.com, one who is showing in an upcoming "Demon show," I too am showing in, with their circle. I honked, sending my hellos through the atmosphere.

Some of the vibrations I encountered, on my Santa Fe Walk About, yesterday included:

love

friendship

victimhood

grief

sickness

discipline

praise

divinity

light

empowerment

leadership

lack

resistance

contraction

self doubt

hiding

drug culture

outsiders

humor

resonance

creativity

soulfulness

expansion

traumatization

self mastery

magic

unity

right livlihood

dearness

connection

outsiders

resentment

gathering

creating

sweetness

fortitude

helpfulness

service

purpose

and

triumph