Who Guarantees a QHHT Session's Success? Personal Responsibility and QHHT

Personal Responsibility and Preparation

Who is responsible for the Success of the Client's Healing?

Does a Dolores Cannon Quantum Healing Hypnosis Technique Session or a Theta Healing come with guarantee of outcome or healing?

My Teacher Dolores Cannon

Gratefully many people find me through the fame of Dolores Cannon, and her world renown, trailblazing process QHHT, as well as through her revolutionary books, on-line lectures and empowering presence.  

Some book a session for self or loved ones, with a very high tower of expectations.  There is a great difference between clear intentions, which I highly recommend, and the out of balance pressure of high expectation.

I am truly blessed and grateful, as it is an awe fulfilling experience to hold space, facilitate, and bare witness to the awesome and infinite powers we each hold within us to choose, design, empower and transform our bodies, outlooks, realities and even our world.  Most of us were not fully trained, within the conventional and ordinary systems of our modern world, to access our full range of true Self, guidance, healing, wholeness, power, potential, purpose and wholeness.  

Let me be perfectly clear about this important area for your review, consideration and acceptance.

Dolores Cannon's QHHT, Vianna Stibal's ThetaHealing, and Dr. Brian Weiss' Past Life Regression techniques and facilitators have assisted in the Self Healing of thousands, if not millions of willing and faith based individuals, as have all varieties of prayer and healing modalities, throughout time and pre-history, on Planet Earth.

Here is only a small portion of the description of QHHT, as it appears on the official QHHT website: www.qhhtofficial.com/about-us

QHHT and Healing

Once the Subconscious (SC) has been contacted during a QHHT session, the QHHT Practitioner asks it to identify and explain the cause behind any problem, and then asks the SC if it is permissible and possible to heal the condition. If the SC agrees, healing is immediate, without discomfort, medication or surgery. 

In many cases, once the SC reveals the source of the ailment or psychological problem, a release occurs in the subject’s body and mind, and the patient is freed form their condition. Many of Dolores Cannon’s thousands of clients and subjects were healed in this seemingly miraculous manner and wrote to her to over the years to thank her. That is why she began teaching QHHT in 2002, to share it with others so that they could continue the practice and in turn help as many people as possible. In 2013, her Level 1 QHHT Class became available online to learn anywhere and at any time. 

In all cases, before healing can occur, an individual must want to be cured.

The healing also cannot interfere with the lessons of their present life or the contracts they made before incarnating. Our souls are eternal and we come to Earth to grow and learn lessons through individual experiences. An example of a conflict in healing could be the Subconscious not agreeing to restore the sight of a blind person, if that was one of the lessons they agreed to learn before incarnating in their present life. The Subconscious also adheres to a literal approach regarding healing. If a subject is experiencing a condition that is the result of abuse or lack of care for their body, and the person has taken no action to correct this and has no desire to change, the Subconscious is aware. Its logic will dictate that there is no point in healing the condition if the subject is just going to resume abusing the body once it is healed. 

The following are examples of the extraordinary results Dolores Cannon and her QHHT Practitioners alike have experienced with clients and subjects during their sessions:

Cancer – various types at various stages cleared

Cartilage – reconstruction between joints

HIV – cleared and eradicated

Heart – healed with no surgery required

Liver – fully functional regeneration and restoration

Kidney – fully functional regeneration and restoration

Wounds – regeneration with no scarring

Migraines –root causes explained and removed

Vision – 20/20 eyesight restored with no need corrective vision

Diabetes – causes explained and cleared

Intestines – conditions cleared

Back – middle and lower area problems cleared

Neck/Shoulder – pain identified and causes cleared

Lungs – problems identified and cleared

Skin – problems identified and cleared

Everything is possible with Dolores Cannon’s proven method of hypnosis: QHHT.

Trailblazing Transformation

Many prospective clients want to know, "Can you guarantee I will experience a profoundly deep, vivid, past life regression, access of my SC, Sub Conscious, Super Conscious, easily access full guidance, healing and more, in my first QHHT session?"

In truth I cannot even guarantee this for myself 100% of the time.

I want all my prospective clients to know that I, Jen Klarfeld, have experienced a full spectrum in my own QHHT, past life regression, ThetaHealing and other sessions as a client.  I have received deep immediate and wonderful guidance and healing, with vivid, and expressive past life, and other dimensional scenes opening within my third eye.

I have experienced profound healing through creative expression, as well as QHHT and related healing and creative modalities.  I have been blessed to experience true healing on physical, mental, and emotional levels.

It has also been my experience, that I have, on occasion, over-pressured myself with super high expectations, wanting a one day, or one half day session, with a fellow practitioner to root out, transform, and clear countless lifetimes and seasons of emotional pain, abandonment, suffering, misunderstanding, confusion, loss, lack, grief, rage, and fear.  I have at times sabotaged my own rabid desire for instantaneous illuminating healing!

So beginning with the basic premise that we're all human, the following question arises.

One of Dolores Cannon's Ground Breaking 19 Books

Can I guarantee, promise, or skillfully predict your absolute healing, full access to your SC, Sub Conscious, Super Conscious, Source Knowing, a deep, exciting, vivid, cosmic "Convoluted Universe Five" style, other worldly, Goddess God steeped regression and immediate instantaneous full healing?

What do the Experts Say?

Candace Craw-Goldman: One of my Helpful Embodied QHHT Guides!

Here is what Candace Craw-Goldman, my QHHT Mentor, and the Original and ongoing Steward of the First Dolores Cannon QHHT Facilitator Support Forum says on her website: www.NewEarthJourney.com under the "Frequently Asked Questions" tab http://www.newearthjourney.com/#!faq/ci92

Do you guarantee I will be healed? Do YOU heal me? Didn't Dolores heal every one of her clients?

No guarantees of any kind are possible! 

ALL HEALING IS SELF HEALING. 

I am merely a guide and a facilitator to help you create your OWN HEALING.

All answers and all health lies within YOU. 

Dolores Cannon created a marvelous method but no, not every person magically healed after having a session with her. Results are completely individual. I have seen astounding, even miraculous things happen in sessions or over time. I have seen improvement, sometimes significant, sometimes marginal. And I have seen little change as well.

Dolores Cannon on QHHT Sessions
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qcwI6411AY4

So again, the QHHT experience requires many things.  From my experience the client must bring a combination of faith, trust, confidence, vision, wholeness, empowerment, intention, authority, maturity, responsibility, and stability.  

Everyone is not ready to leap in and access all the bells and whistles within.

Often, when not rushed, I can properly assess, some of where the prospective client is at within their life experience and outlook, through an informational overview by phone.  On rare occasions, I will honestly refer someone out, recommend psychotherapy, or a more solid option of support in the present moment.

Some factors which can seriously sabotage a successful QHHT session include drug or alcohol addiction, financial dependence on an external adult figure, government, or support system for survival, homelessness, depression, severe untreated bi-polar disorder, unwillingness in self responsibility or care, suicidal ideation, isolation, trouble with the law, and or major, unsupported change.

Trailblazing Mother of QHHT: Dolores Cannon

What QHHT is NOT:

QHHT is not a magic bullet.

QHHT is not guaranteed, from outside of you.

QHHT is not a substitute for ongoing needed therapy.

QHHT is not a substitute for a drug treatment program.

QHHT is not appropriate on it's own, as a quick fix for serious suicidal ideation.

QHHT will not suddenly cure major, trauma induced, dissociation from one's self.

QHHT may not break you from a "lives-long" habit of Victimhood Identification, at least, likely not in the first ever session.

QHHT may be counter indicated if denial, non-selfhood, defeat, and irresponsibility, hold you stuck in perpetual child mode.

QHHT is not the Lottery.  It will not guarantee you walk out the door and materialize your Twin Soul Flame, a steady income, a ravishing new wardrobe, a brilliant new job, mental health and stability, self confidence, a restored new will to live, a whole new sleek sexy body, an effortless prime time talk show, new limbs, or astounding positivity, independence and responsibility, where previously there was none.

QHHT is not an instant cure for Schizophrenia.

QHHT is not guaranteed to clear all your limiting beliefs in one session.

QHHT may not cure all of your codependency issues in one pop.

QHHT will not cure you permanently of the human experience.

QHHT will not make you suddenly immuned to human feelings.

QHHT will not open your heart to full feeling flowering, without your human participation and help.

QHHT will not in and of itself, save you from yourself.

QHHT will not complete your schoolwork, finish your household chores, polish your silver, or pay your mortgage.

QHHT will not restore your integrity, or spruce up your reputation.

QHHT cannot promise to alleviate your fear of Armageddon, GMO's, meat products, leather, or chemtrails.

QHHT may not make your parents or mate suddenly see, adore and love you.

QHHT will not make you employers give you a raise.

QHHT will not polish your shoes, and fold your clean linens.

QHHT is not free of charge, or valueless.

QHHT is not your QHHT's full responsibility.

The power of QHHT does not empower you from outside of you.

QHHT will not buy you great faith, without your cooperation.

QHHT is not more important or valuable than you, or your current life!

Warning: QHHT holds no vested interest in kissing ass to your ego, protecting your lies, or helping assure your old, isolated, lonely, uninformed right to play small, fail, hide, retreat, play dead, remain unconscious, or maintain a sleepy, slow death, defeat or withdraw from your true life, joy and purpose!

ThetaHealing

Thetahealing, in my experience is a highly accessible modality.  I love it for so many reasons.

First of all, I love that I find it so easy, practical, direct and supportive to assist me in securing radical life changes from within, for myself.

I love that it is easy to learn, practice, facilitate and share.  

ThetaHealing is an amazing modality, spiritual toolkit, support, first aid kit, blessing and gift for the Human Soul.

I love that it has seemingly infinite applications and benefits.

My experience of ThetaHealing feels like an inner technology we all have, yet were trained out of, upon entering the veils of forgetting, in human form!

ThetaHealing involves less performance anxiety for most clients, than does trance, past life regression, or QHHT.

I appreciate how uniquely ThetaHealing pours through me and others, as if we are each conducting unique orchestras with it.  This is equally true of Healing, Healers, Teachers and Artists alike.

There is more flexibility to use Theta healing with almost all people's and populations.

It is easier to me, to introduce ThetaHealing successfully, to people struggling with Multiple Personality Disorder, Bi-Polar Disorder, Adoptees, Children of Parents with Borderline Personality Disorder, Clients with PTSD, Schizophrenics, People battling addiction issues, People facing grief, fear, allergies, disease, illness, healing, crossroads, fight flight or freeze responses, Soul loss, abuse history, co-dependence, fragmentation, rage, hyper-sensitivity, shame, abandonment, lack, loss, past life issues, dissociation, and more.

While it does not always seem appropriate to jump in and use trance, PLR or QHHT with simply anyone, I find that ThetaHealing is amazingly supportive and successful with most people, of most ages, backgrounds, cultures, and orientations.  

One of my more scientifically minded clients, who has experienced all of my modalities, said of ThetaHealing, "I don't understand it, but I can feel it!"

Founder of ThetaHealing Vianna Stibal

ThetaHealing is made up of am eclectic mix of influences and modalities, from prayer, to clairvoyance, NLP, Hypnosis, Shamanism, intuition, energy healing, meditation, healing root causes, healing at the DNA level, mysticism, linking to God, Counseling, guidance, and angel therapy.

I find ThetaHealing to be a most powerful tool as a foundational modality, to greatly enhance trance, PLR and QHHT, especially in a series or package of sessions.

ThetaHealing has a special magic, when shared with the new kids, Earth Angels, Starseed, Mystics, Healers, Seers, Walk-Ins, Teachers, Leaders, and more.

ThetaHealing is a modality easily taught or shared in a group setting, at healing fairs and expos, with all ages and life stages, as well as by phone or teleconference, Skype, etc.

ThetaHealing can be offered in an intensive manner, where we clear a half or whole day and allow transformation across one's whole life, or squeezed into a 15, 20, 30 or 60 minute session.

ThetaHealing can be used, with permission, with someone in a coma, or at the gates of the Spirit World.

One can access the spirit of guides, God, Earth, Laws of Creation, water, Angels, minerals, plants, sea life, birds, animals, spirits of the deceased, the Akashic records, and more with this swift toolkit.

ThetaHealing secures changes at the DNA level, healing root cause beliefs on four levels, the core: this lifetime, genetic: 6 to 8 generations back, history: further back generations and past lives, and the soul level of belief = the hard drive, that transcends lifetimes.

ThetaHealing is a powerful tool in clearing abuse histories.

ThetaHealing has profound applications for clearing past life vows, limiting beliefs, energy cords, entities, curses, healing pain and more, all at the subconscious or root levels.

ThetaHealing is a powerful tool for grounding, unleashing soul masteries, clearing lineages, focus, and embodying expansive levels of one's infinite gifts and Self.

ThetaHealing is a powerful modality for empowerment and manifestation.

QHHT

QHHT is a state of the art, revolutionary SOURCE and SOUL based modality that  accesses wholeness, harmony, beauty, guidance, healing, wisdom, truth, balance, divinity, and infinite resources, all directly from the SOURCE within.

Some people find their way to me, and know this modality is made for them, and with a healthy knowing, and some simple preparation, they experience great ease and grace throughout the whole process.

Some people discover Dolores Cannon, her lectures, and her 19 books, and on-line classes.  Her information comes as such a healing salve, they want all the rewards immediately.  For some these come easily.  For others there is no guarantee.  It may require some other warm up exercises, preparation, and foundation building first.

For some people the pressure from within is too high, and the timing is not quite right, the first round.

For some people, other foundational life steps need to be sincerely considered and implemented, before planning a successful QHHT session.

If the cost of a session will impair your survival, or that of your home, pets, or family, please wait, until you are in a stronger, more Self supported situation, before booking a QHHT session for yourself.

If the cost of a session, as a gift to a loved one, will impair your survival, or that of your home, pets, or family, please wait, until you or they, are in a stronger, more Self supported situation, before booking a QHHT session for them.

For many, a ThetaHealing Session, or series of 1 to 3, or 1 to 6 sessions, could really prove to be the most supportive and empowering combination, before taking the big leap to QHHT.

In some instances, one might even wish to build up to a Dolores Cannon QHHT session, with a series of ThetaHealing Sessions, then a Brian Weiss Past Life Regression or two, and then culminating in a Dolores Cannon QHHT Session or two.  After all, Rome was not build in one day.

For some who rush into QHHT, and feel there is still more to gain, future QHHT sessions can be wonderful.  

For those who have struggled and failed in their attempts to achieve a deep trance state, or a full QHHT experience with all the bells and whistles, I am happy to share extra time and care to assess your needs, comfort levels, and a strategy to win the QHHT prizes and rewards, in a new session.

Please always speak openly and honestly with me, so that I can best help you in meeting your goals with joy!

While I am not at this time offering discounts or specials, I offer highly professional, valuable, caring service, and am here to help you realize and access solutions from within.

Founding Artist and Soul Artist at Trailblazing Transformation

In Grace, Love, Honor and Joy!

Jen

This posting is a brand new copy of a new section on my website www.TrailblazingTransformation.com called Personal Responsibility. http://www.trailblazingtransformation.com/Personal-Responsibility.html

The inspiration for this new post and website page, is to assist in the flowering of myself and humanity, especially in relation to the amazing Soul supporting, and Self Realization tools I have discovered, and found my way to share in my Trailblazing Transformation Practice on Planet Earth.

May you find support, encouragement, inspiration, wellness, victory, and uplift in these expressions.

Soul Medicine Mirror and the Power of Acknowledging 3-D Amidst 5-D

Bobcat photo by Chuck Haznedl found on google from www.ECNCA.org

I have been enjoying life, love and all, albeit a longer distance love than I have ever agreed to. My life feels rich, abundant, fluid, joyful, and full, except of course for when I forget, fear, or question this! 

All my experiences with romantic love have included a mixture of success and failure, attraction and challenges, adoration and aggravation, love and fear, connection and compromise, uplift and heartache. Admittedly, I have tended to leap in without much reservation, or waiting. I am this individual walking along my path, and then I find, or am found by a resonant male suitor, and then, when we agree, we chance to become a "we." I am friendly and easygoing, most of the time, and pleasant... at least I think so! I attract similar qualities in a uniquely, amazing love reflection.  

My theories on love, in general include two main points. One is this awareness I have generated from being single far longer than I have been coupled. That is my awareness that individually, or doubled, human emotions, pains, and issues are going to come up. I laugh when people have relationship issues. Can't escape those, I tell 'em. They come up together, or they rise up within one's self, individually. Sometimes crap hits the fan & I yell, at the crap, at the fan, at myself, at life. Other times crap hits the fan, like this morning, when I woke up to find one of the house cats seemed to do some odd new acrobatics, that left some fresh crap on the bathtub wall, about a foot outside the litter box. It was a bit reminiscent of something from the movie "The Exorcist." Sometimes crap hits the fan and I just clean it up. Today I did. My second theory is that anyone human, who finds anyone else, and shares any kind of love, for any length of time, is a highly courageous being, and ought to be commended, despite how the details appear, (before, during and, or...) afterwards.

In romantic relationship, the stakes get a little bigger, the confusions grow, there is this added element of a whole other reflection to share the crap hitting the fan adventure with, as well as all the good feelings, and of course all the love. Yet it is not just the crap of two isolated individuals, yet a whole wild, wooly, live, love and crap making world of influences too.

https://www.facebook.com/PlanetSARK

So I met this fellow human, what we each perceive & experience as a divine human, in fact, and I was feeling really blessed, and even kind of high on the whole adventure, naturally, of course. And I suppose we each focus more on the sweet stuff, than the crap, as we first come together. This is what is know as the honeymoon phase. We both put on our best face, and lift each other up, and love and praise each other together and to friends and family, for finally arriving. Then life kicks in, and we admire each one's strengths, and attempt to be bettered by our differences. We begin to learn all the ways we are uniquely alike, and also all the ways where we are shockingly individual, and have distinctively different ways and motivations, expressions, preferences, and tools for handling life. And at the core, we line up, a lot more than most, in essence. Our motivations seem in harmony, and our goals compliment and hold space for compassion and understanding of each one.

Now bare in mind, all the other love experiments I have grown through, had in common, a beginning, a middle and an end. I suppose I have been on both sides of agreeing on, or being not so in agreement on each of these passages!  Some have in fact had multiple ends, beginnings, and ends again. In truth I might have been responsible for inviting more endings than not.
  So I feel I have focused on all the dreamy positive stuff, over all, until I haven't, with this new relationship. I have been my best self, in the glow of both our best selves. And with both of us being highly individualized beings, we are used to leaning on our own resources, a lot. So I have let all my shadow stuff come pouring out at odd intervals, like at the consecutive full moons. The moonlight has grown strong, and all my fears and shadow materials come up into this light. And despite all my finest training and spiritual tool kits, I become a challenging creature. I become something more shadowy, and fearing, something less than a full creature of love. My Divine Reflection brings some understanding of astrology, and he even coaches me through it a bit.

Falling into my shadowy pit of fears, I cast some of these at my New Beloved, placing him in a very awkward, and challenging place, as I seem to be surrounded with so many encouraging friends on my path, and he is in a more dire, and challenging environment, on Venezuela. At the beginning, our communications seemed so very divinely inspired. Now I am questioning so much of it, analyzing challenges, questioning life long fears and patterns within my mind, soul and psyche. It is easy for me to assist clients in these areas, as I have more efficient simple, direct tools, than most humans could ask for. I am an artist also, as is my New Beloved, so we have ample outlets to process love, and all the complexities that can arise in romantic love.

I recently skyrocketed into great admiration and appreciation, lamenting other soulful friends for helping inspire me to find this grand love partner. Then I unleashed all my "what if's" or "what if not's" on this one who has poured out so much infinite love into my heart.  It's a very human affliction. And like a disease, I have shared it. Fears, human fears, they arise up from the love of who I am, or rather from the forgetting of the love that I am, and beg to be transformed, freed, and released.  It's a real busman's holiday for me. I am learning the great lesson, of how to come back to the "I" statement! Most of the time I am good at it, until I am not, then I endanger love, in my life, and in my self, and appear to attack the presence of the (external) one shining all this love into my being.

So I am likely running screwy software, you know old hand-me-down's as I call them, from across the board, from as we call them in ThetaHealing, core belief levels, as in the present lifetime, from genetic lineage belief levels, from past lives, and from the hard drive of my human soul. Four distinct human belief levels, here to help uplift or trip you... me... us!

Yesterday I felt very down, and kind of was craving to hide. In fact I was experiencing a bit of a crisis of power. That is when it happened. One of my greatest internal shamanic powers, appeared outside of me, outside of us. I was home around dusk, as one of my two house cats had the wildest visceral response to a creature, outside, as I had ever seen. I rushed over to see what it was. It was at first glance a large, gold, boxy shaped, unfamiliar neighbor cat. It was up on the coyote fence, just outside my window. Yet the longer I looked, I noticed a weirdly short tail, an oddly tall, boxy, muscular stance and prowess.  It was not physically large, yet it's power was grand, uncontainable. I watched as this feline leaped up on the adobe roof, of my art studio.  She disappeared, while I could not see her. Then she made another appearance or two. She showed herself to me three different times. I felt very centered, energized, and completely in awe.

Having pushed myself, beyond my comfort zone, running around town, on no food, the day & evening before, after my Sweetheart had e-mailed, feeling a host of undesirable human physical discomforts, & stress in the face of unstoppable social unrest in his country, we had agreed to postpone our already long postponed, weekend video call. I must have rocketed out into self judgement, and a deep host of abandonment issues, as perceived, as trappings of my adoption at birth and two unclaimed weeks out from there. I proceeded to get really into my head and into my fears, and to, well take out all my worst fears and judgements of and for myself, as in being and feeling unreal, and who knows what all else, and I directed everyone of these "what if... what if not's" at this dear Beloved, who has walked this walk of love, and balanced this tightrope of fear projections gracefully already. So, needless to say I had left quite a wake of crap in our path, the previous dusk, from here in my spiritual mecca of Santa Fe.

This full moon, felt about three days long, to me, for some reason... it felt full moonish on Friday, all day and night Saturday, and on into Sunday, when the actual full moon, felt truly calming. I feel like I/we/humanity is in this massive sea change, where we/I can not go back and operate the way I used to, and glimmers are coming through, of what I would love to do, and yet when I take steps to "build it and they will come," I get lost between avoiding the old traps and ways that don't really work anymore, and feeling like I have to recreate heaven and earth, while the job is too big, for one. And then other moments, it is all unfolding, one massive miracle, expanding the next.

So what I instinctively did was I reached out, when I felt like shouting to the world, "my power came to awaken me, outside my window!... My shamanic wild cat, jaguar, leopard, panther, tigress, b'alam power came to me, and beckoned me to come and hunt, prance, prowl and play, to come and dance and make art, and design this glorious life from my instincts, from my connection, from my primal nature!" I wanted to go on facebook, and shout it to the world. Yet in the divine magnificence of such a treasure and a gift, my immediate and best response was to facebook message my Human Treasure, my ragged, ravaged Sweetheart. So I did. I e-mailed and included him in the excitement and co-catalyzed the magic with him. He tuned right in and shared some magic of his own, of recall of some writing he had done about some Mayan Jaguars. And there we caught up our pure heart connection, as we missed out on, the evening before, without the video component. We shared a long strong connection, outside the frays of my earlier full moon avalanche of shadow projections and mood swings. I felt some weird human relief, as if, in opening up the crap-hitting-the-fan, fear deluge, it somehow brought me to a kind of a ground zero, to the real foundation, underneath all the starry, poetic projections.  

I guess there had been a questioning from my side, of "can this really be, is this for the best?" My motivation, continues to be, let us both aspire and grow to the best life, love and purpose possible, whether we are an official "WE," or Soul mates who learn and grow together, or Soul Friends that find our way to build a certainty-centered, on purpose, inspiring life together. I am still, two months in, open to allowing the relationship, our Source Selves, and guides, to reveal what it is all about to us. So my frightened, spooked inner child, conscious mind, fear warrior, blasted this sacred creation of ours all to hell. Yet this glorious, most primal of all the shamanic powers, the earthy instinctual magical Mayan Cat came and got us SOUL Snuggling again.

While I would not consciously wish to hurt anyone in my life, least of all my New Beloved One, due to my Soul make up, my deep nature, my emotionally complex comfort zones, my being, and my life's work, as a facilitator of life & soul healing, I must say it felt like progress and some relief to me, to get real about deep psychological shit, even if I did it in the most of offensive ways, humanly possible. I have hurt someone who has loved me very sweetly and deeply, not on purpose, yet in the realms of SELF, that big love seems to play out in. I would not wish to do it again. I will do my best to bless it when I do it again. I will be as compassionate and understanding of the repercussions as possible. And I will have infinite understanding, if and when this Beloved One experiences his own version of his STUFF!

We do not come to Earth wishing to wage wars within, or without, to direct blind rage at anyone, or anything. Yet we run a hodgepodge of wild programs and instincts, of our animal nature, and of the best and worst of God and Man, Goddess and Woman, Warrior, Lover and Child. So bless this adventure. Bless us each and all, in being the best and worst lovers possible. At the very least, we bring no shortage of passion, nor of originality to the game, to the experiment which was founded originally in BLISS. 

Me & my Beloved we met in Bliss, we love in bliss, and I projected it up a bit with my shit and fan. But heck, we have newly discovered Abraham Hicks Forking Off Process to see us through: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IZFq7wmKwEU So I know in my heart, we are truly empowered, guided and blessed, no question about it!  It is my challenge from here forward, to deeply and dearly remember who I am, and treat my Beloved accordingly.  

While I am not totally inspired by my actions and projections, I am grateful for where they lead, to co-creative choice, voice and blessings shared!

Did we rush in with a crazy urgency, speed and certainty, before getting to fully know each other as human beings? Of course we did!

I myself, am used to doing a lot of self care, through writing, as inspired my Julia Cameron's "The Artist's Way" Books and processes. This often consists of some pretty private dates with my journals, you know, stuff that ideally, no one else ever really has to read, while I'm embodied on Earth and all. Al similarly deals with the highs and lows of his life through writing, yet often more public, social, poetic, fantasy, heavenly, horror, cosmic, divine, gritty, the whole gamut.  He has poetry, writing, art and music as outlets, and shares these quite openly, when and as he chooses.

I realize I met Al two months back, and unconsciously left all my journal writing behind, scrawling down an inspiration or two, pouring much of my attention, love and expression into AL. Yet there is a certain pressure valve, a special appointment with all the layers and facets of my human divinity, and my human feet planted in the mud selves, that got quite ignored.  I also have been languishing in letting a lot of my human creations fall by the wayside, stepping back, craving change, craving the kind of divine support I so readily share with people.

So, since my past two consecutive full moon, divine fool, roller coaster rides and projections, I sat down last night, and filled a journal or two, with all my cosmic, divine, Earthly, muddy facets had to vent, observe, say, see and hear!  It was kind of scary.  I slept on it, and revisited it in the morning.  It is fair to say I seem to have a lot more issues with my divine masculine side, than my divine feminine. That's a lot of pressure on me, and any Brave Soul, enthused to leap in to Divine Love and Mirroring with me, right here at the changing of the ways... our Heavenly ReUNION on Mother Earth!

So I salute you, Al, and me, Jen, for taking the daring leap. My doubts and fears have all come into the bright, raging, roaring, loving, laughing, nurturing light of romantic earthly love, before even ever meeting, human to human, lover to lover, face to face. A big part of me is poised to leap up on the adobe roof, and run away, from so much human frailty, vulnerability, problems, brokeness, chaos, and fierce responsibility, encoded in facing my Divine Reflection so immediately. I appreciate insights of fellow artists and light bringers, like Author Jeff Brown, who remind on facebook pages, blogs, articles and books, that sometimes what the new age would have us claim as "projections," are actual valid issues, worries, and concerns worthy of our heart's discernment, not to be brushed off as that stuff I am projecting on, yet another beloved partner.

So here I am, poised at the complex crossroads, lurking, at the tail end of the honeymoon phase, of I don't know exactly what. I have two journals full of praises and wonders, fears and projections, terror, horror, pleasure, courage, and fun hall mirror reflections. Why me, why him, why these patterns, why this ease, why these challenges? I hear my wise teacher Dolores Cannon's voice ringing though my head, "Oh that, that's just human stuff!" I can give up on a fellow human, I can let go a commitment, a job, an external invitation, even a co-commitment, friendship or co-creation. Yet I can not give up on myself. If I do not face and address my sucky human patterns and habits, fears and hiding, rolling over and playing paralyzed, to buy a little time to run away from the stalking powers of who I truly am, with someone whom I love, then I will have to do so regardless. Or I will manifest all the same insanity in myself, and continue to label it other, and rant, scream, scapegoat, bedevil, and blame over full moons to come.

A facet of my self wants to dice and slice it all up, throw my hands in the air, give up, acknowledge "I can't do it. Judge all my fears into realities. The ancient young soldier inside of me wants to run away from the battle where I see my face plastered on all warriors. My limit based self wants to pitch it as either this or that, either I am Al's Soulmate, or I leap away and claim dominion over my own life. A worn out, overly open, overly giving aspect wants to enjoy more time out... wants to experience more play and direct pleasure. The true aspect of me, wants space to get to know this fellow human, beyond the labels, expectations, and mania of leaping first, and considering the consequences and details last... or never, or whatever. My inner professional wants the New Earth to Bloom, and fully sponsor the complete blooming of every Soul Gift I bring to this Earth Party... and every soul gift We each bring... Yesterday!

I feel a little wounded, and a bit more closed off, than before, when I presented as strengthened and open, eager and ready.  Now I want all these qualities for me, first, and then to share... as I choose and dare.

I love how much love I fall into, feel, am and share, with Al. And maybe it's a girl thing, yet I want to step back enough to ensure each of us stays strong, and whole, and on solid footing individually, while learning who we each, in this present reality are.  

So are we engaging, engaged, a soul match, soul mates, lovers, friends, soul friends, mystics, humans, on the same page, on various eclectic pages, full of shit, feet in the mud humans, ascended masters, dreamers, teachers, light bringers, early indigo's, bringers of the blue light, healers, wayshowers, systems busters, peace makers, earth walkers, love warriors, agitators, renegades, rebels, pioneers, victims, visionaries, romantics, musicians, dancers, poets, writers, authors, co-authors, co-creators, kindred spirits, starseed, soul family, earth angels, puzzle pieces, life quilt patches, change makers, trailblazers, slackers, creatives, shapeshifters, shamans, victors, love ripples, visionaries, god?

Probably... highly likely... who cares... I don't know... we do know... let's find out...!?!

In the new energies, we all enhance each ONE of us, either way.  

So I am grateful to love and be loved, bless and be blessed, bliss and be bliss, and am grateful to share this with AL and with ALL! I trust Love to remind us who we are, and how best to playfully shed JOY out, breath joy in, and groove on... sharing all of this together.

"When love and forgiveness pours unbidden, even the face of repression smiles and cries... They also sang the national anthem... and many of those military eyes cried... how beautiful this was..." - Al J. Alvarez G. (Mystique Wizzard) New developments on the front lines of change in Venezuela 3/17/14  Because change comes from within!

Wavy Gravy celebrating his 75th Birthday. Photograph by Brian Pounds

"We are all the same person trying to shake hands with our self!" - Wavy Gravy

Check out one of the most inspiring films I have seen in a while:

 "The Wavy Gravy Movie: Saint Misbehavin"

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pkV6KQLLi60

P.S. For the record, none of this may be true, yet it is, in this moment, how I make it up!