Showing posts with label Freedom. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Freedom. Show all posts

Sunday, May 24, 2020

Waging Heart's Discernment Through Compassionate Understanding



Thank you again for bearing with me, us, and our world through such giant challenges and changes.

As I look within, I relate as an overall peacemaker personality, with some systems busting, rebel aspects, and a relatively open-minded, and multi-dimensional experience and outlook.

Again I want to honor and validate realities of the challenging time we are all traversing together, on Planet Earth right now. I have been posting anything, freely, that I support, and share faith in, mostly on Facebook, and other social media platforms. Anyone whom I see as sharing some truth.

As I look out into our world, I believe in a multi-dimensional and multifaceted reality, or set of realities, all operating on our planet at this time. It feels more complex, and complicated to express and communicate right now, especially on Facebook.

It still feels a lot easier to muster compassion for friends at the grocery store, than on social media. I want to clarify, that overall, I honor regulations, where I have been mostly sheltering at home, and wearing my hand made mask, when I do go out for essential trips to town, or in public.

Of course I feel great compassion for all effected by the Corona Virus, and especially those who have proven extra vulnerable, including elders, immune deficient people, Native elders, and people in NM, and Arizona, and our world, and the disproportionate # of black people, and people of color, some of whom are more endangered, during this time of heightened disease, and infection. When I see and listen to news reports on these realities, and feel horrible, as most of us do.

During this global infection, I also hold a lot of questions about who, why, how, when, where, and such, of what's behind this Pandemic, and if it's really a pandemic, or an infection, or what, and how we can best protect and maintain our civil liberties through this local and global turmoil.

Please know, that I apologize, as I know some of my Facebook posts have really rattled and offended my friends, and friends of my friends, and recently tons of creepy fake bots, posing as grinches, pet kitties, weird art, bloody horrors, cartoon unicorns, creepy patriarchs and patriots, in mostly non-human representations and avatars. I likely blocked some 20 - 50 fake profiles, this weekend, alone, who were bullying, and just not even real, let alone actual friends. So sh*t's gettin' weird, on corporate backed social media. I am witnessing partisan polarizations, freedoms polarizations, safety polarizations, fake news - real news - sponsored news - corrupted news - polarizations, and wars, info wars against factions, info wars within factions. It's been horrific, in this way.

My overall experience holds me to be a peaceful, loving, unifying person and soul. I have no real interest in stirring drama, promoting attacks on others, and so on. What a stupid waste of time, purpose and energy! Really!

For the record, I am not anti mask, nor anti vaccination. I am for learning from many people, for guidance within, and through experts in their fields. I also want to learn more, and expose what I see as dangers, lies, and corrupt institutions, laws, and manipulators, bringing them into full transparency of both the truth and the lies. I want to help bring the lies and manipulations to justice, of these many old, enslaving dictates, regulations, practices, and spins of information, as so many corrupt leaders have been operating, and misleading humanity through, now, and throughout history.

My stance is, that I aspire to learn from the people who are questioning the efficacy and safety of suddenly masking and regulating all of global humanity, in the name of safety, as thoroughly as, many of our friends and family members are questioning the questioners. Can't we all question? Or is only one portion of humanity just in questioning our realities?

If we could restore justice to all the old failing systems of the currently dying paradigm, I might feel encouraged to someday consider taking a clean, honestly regulated vaccine. Or I might discover new options and alternatives for maintaining such a healthy immune system, that I am open to shifts in our evolution, out beyond vaccines. Overall, I am more interested in the immune strengthening options, and in enhancing our rights to be free to explore all the facts, without all the high levels of repression, suppression, and mass brainwashing, that do not allow free circulation of truth, studies, films, facts, research, voices, and researchers.

As the Galactic Volunteer and Early Indigo Aura based Explorer that I am, I don't relate to my skin color, or outward culture, or upbringing, as my defining truth, culture, or identification, yet I honor that many do, for themselves.

Still, I am standing up to question the truth behind many lies. Many are doing so by my side. And possibly many more, feel really safe and protected, in the same areas and restrictions I am questioning. And perhaps many people feel very threatened and unsafe, within some of the explorations, and investigations I feel empowered, and comforted, engaging in.

So I shift several times daily, in what I feel is appropriate, safe, uplifting, revealing, encouraging, and so on, to share freely.

If you bully me, or my friends, on my social media and Facebook page and posts, and or life, I reserve the right to block strangers, review friends, and or erase comments of people I don't even know, bullying, or even haranguing us for energetic feed and fuel. I don't owe friends of friends explanations on what I value, and why, and what I don't and why.

And who is paying a bunch of fake cartoon bots, to suddenly go on strangers' feeds, and spar, and spike drama-levels to a sky high range? I don't fully know, and not sure I even want to know. I just know I'm not responsible for what a bunch of strangers, actors, and fakers, invading my space and energy, think, anymore than anyone famous, is responsible for the nut jobs out there bullying and condemning. It's really abusive, and these are actual offensive tactics, these creepy bot people are using. Gross! No thank you! No way!

So I may shift to posting more of the expressions that I feel are immediately about me, and or are expressions of encouragement, and freedom. I may begin the process of using giant, new levels of discernment about who, when, why, and where to share what I hold as free, beautiful, worthy, and sacred. May shift to limit my sharing of much more, only to the resonant ones who can actually relate on multiple levels, and hear, respect, and honor the validity of where I am coming from. Also may be more eager to shift over to community, both live and virtual, that limits itself to sincere, real, and honoring people.

If I offended you, by sharing art, expressions, videos, memes, etc, that reflect a view, or views we don't share 100% across the board, I am sincerely sorry. I have watched and shared a few rare youtube videos, that some friends have told me, don't feel true, which I, still do not know, are they made to elicit fear, or do they hold mostly truth, or mostly lies. I don't really know either. Still on this learning curve.

While we have lived through difficulties, threats, injustices, healing, and victories, loves and losses, both alone, and within our families, cultures, "races," nations, lifetimes, nations, and our world, we have likely never lived through an experience like this current one, where so much fear, threat, danger, and problems are thrown out on the world, while so much Grace, connection, love, unity, sovereignty, compassion, giving, and caring, are all rising, at the same time!

So I bless us all, and will pull in some of what I think is tender, beautiful, worthy, freedom bringing, etc, as I see it is not supporting people in all the amazing and eclectic circles, Santa Fe is usually so phenomenal at honoring, mixing, respecting, and celebrating.

This may mean, that I may loose a few freedoms of expression, in doing so, yet I have much to learn and gain, in this leap within, and a collective leap, we are sharing within our larger human collective.

Know that I love you, my human family.

I will keep dancing to my own rhythms, and co-birthing a bright and brilliant new world of faith, opportunities, health, connection, communion, community, love, authenticity, transformation, transmutation, shifts, beauty, respect, honoring, freedom, compassion, caring, diversity, Grace, and liberty, liberty for all!

Love through our precious, and at times chaotic Global Reboot!

Saturday, September 1, 2018

A Lifelong Struggle for Freedom of Expression - Issa Nyaphaga - TEDxABQ



Returning from a handful of wonderful ceremonies, celebrations and circles on the wake on my birthday, I opened my e-mailbox to discover this sweet gem of inspiration in the form of a Ted Talk in Albuquerque, New Mexico, by our dear friend Issa Nyaphaga.

He packs a lot of LIFE, inspiration, wisdom, and resilience into a wee 10 or so minutes.

Here is my response on YouTube: 

Super Original, Empowering, and Inspiring my Global Local, Tribal Urban Creative Co-Creative Friend Issa. Thank you for this powerful wisdom, contributions, gifts and resilience. A wonderful message. Glad I got to see, hear and meet you in person when you gave your first live talk and performance in Santa Fe, in 2009, and that I have been in the circle of friends that have shared your life, creativity and story, including the Inspiration Squad! Love, encouragement, creativity, inspiration, sovereignty, unity, originality, and resilience on the way, Dear Friend, Issa Nyaphaga! May you continue to reach many hearts all around this world!

Feel welcome to share this with anyone who may be uplifted by Issa.

You can find, be-fan, befriend, follow, and enjoy Issa, his activism, art, travels, and inspiration at:

Issa Nyaphaga on Facebook https://www.facebook.com/IssaNyaphaga/

The Inspiration Squad on Facebook
https://www.facebook.com/arttogetherthursdays/

Hope International for Tikar People

Blog ISSA ARTOONIST INFO PROJECTS Art for Hope Community Service Community Art Center
http://www.hitip.org

Issa Capillarist on YouTube
https://www.youtube.com/user/Capillarist

Issa Artoonist on Instagram
https://www.instagram.com/issa_artoonist/

Thank You Issa.

Wednesday, March 16, 2016

Because Sometimes it's Good to Loosen Up and Let Go!

TODAY: My car has a flat tire, my new client blew me off, my cat made a very tall secret pile of shit that revealed it's dried out remains to me... all this morning.
Last night I denied myself of my full rights to sleep.
Today I punished my cats with a surly attitude, a dramatic opera of screaming, and big bumpy delays on the road to breakfast...
Today I punished my self with a surly attitude, a dramatic opera of screaming, and big bumpy delays on the road to breakfast...
I am tired of competing to gain freedom, secure my home, build my career, & to acquire all that I blew off, rebelling against what seemed unreal & unhappy. Tired of a rat race I was never remotely attracted to.
Tired of writing myself out of the starring role in my own life expression, more than I realize. Tired of the uncertainty I dish out as my reality, every single day. Tired of putting up false fronts of strength and leadership, when I too am falling apart, frequently.
Tired of chasing my tail and landing nowhere new.

Tired of the politics, pains and dramas of this world.
Tired of being human, when I could be a jaguar, or a house cat!
Tired of spam & scam artists' e-mails & phone calls.
Exhausted from overtaxed adrenals, hyper sensitivity, PTSD, codependency... taking too much too personally, from recycling like it's a Renaissance art form, & from seeing too much from what I read in people's eyes, before they even talk to me.
Tired from the human majority orientation to predatory hustling our sister and brother man!
Tired of taking on high maintenance everything.
Tired of thinking I know what I am here to do, and how to do it.
Tired of my controlling mind, and my inability to run away whenever I want to.
Tired of marketing and managing a life that costs so much more than it earns me still.
Tired of doing it all alone & believing I have to.
Tired of being enemies with routine, planning, budgeting, money, time, numbers, patriarchy, and the entire left side of the brain.
Tired of not collaborating, dancing, & playing more.
Tired of locking myself indoors, like a prisoner, when I have free will, and a hankering for the great outdoors, let alone physical movement.
Tired of all these problems we have in human form.
Tired of complaining, mine, yours, and most of us here.
Tired of my loud mind!
Tired of telling myself I feel lonely, then feeling lonely to match.
Tired of being unloving to myself.
Tired of being unloving with others.
Tired of feeling trapped, alone, poor, and hopeless.
Tired of acting helpless, martyred & enslaved.

Grateful this is temporary, and that who I truly am is vast, beautiful, powerful, influential, divine, inspirational, GUIDED, connected, gifted and free!
Grateful to live on an amazing planet, in this amazing oasis.
Grateful to live in a beautiful, peaceful, earthy home, where I can swear, yell, scream and cry, without pestering anyone, or attracting the police!
Grateful to be alive, experience feelings, enjoy receptivity, develop mastery, acknowledge biases, and step in shit once in a while.
Grateful for my breath and my body.
Graced and grateful: I'm a woman!
Grateful I get to follow my heart & ricochet back from feelings of powerlessness... to experiences of freedom.
Grateful for my expansive consciousness, and our ability to run towards, often!
Grateful for my bold heart.
Grateful for my expressive nature.
Grateful for my curiosity. Grateful for my knowing.
Grateful I am the Mother Father Goddess God Presence... when I shut up & listen, or when I talk right over my own vast sparkling divinity & wholeness.
Glad I am this loud, messy, impassioned, original, one of a kind, go-getter.
Glad I love so much!
Grateful for my messy, beautiful immediate family, birth family, soul family, earth family, galactic family, heavenly family, unseen family, & Land of Enchantment family, as well as you: my virtual family!
Grateful & graced by my love of life & colors, people & creatures, nature & beauty, culture & soul expression, perception, writing, dancing, singing, music, art, books & more!
Grateful for my love, my friends, my community circles, my heroes, my peeps, my weaknesses, my lessons, & my strengths.
Grateful for my sense of humor & my utterly comical human love-life.
Grateful for my passions & for my Pinterest page: 
Who knew a bulliten board could be so gy-normous!
Grateful for my ADHD Attention Dialed into a Higher Dimension & my lower nature, embodied right here, (within my full nature!)
Grateful for my ability to walk and talk, and the fact the one family birthed and sent me away, and another received me, cleaned my dirty butt, and nourished my body, mind, spirit, soul & being!
Grateful to be edjumacated, each and every day.
Grateful for my Thunderbird Nature, which jars the crap out of me and others, every time a thunderbolt hits the ground from our collective being!
Grateful for the contrast pushing me towards what truly fulfills me, in place of what I historically settled for, or convinced myself would.
Grateful for my juiciness!
Grateful for my successes and failures, and ours as a collective, and for all the guidance we receive from SOURCE, Angels, Archangels, Spirit Guides, Power Animals, Companions, Family, Friends, & Soul Kin.
Grateful for the collective of vast radiant galactic beings, of whom we are made.
Grateful for stories, songs, paintings, baskets, weavings, poetry, dance, theater, prints, photos, sculpture, rivers, clouds, earth, stars, planets, and sky!
Grateful for who we all are, our human mis-steps, mistakes, problems, grievances, imperfections, brokeness, troubles, and blues.
Grateful for our torrential human mood swings. What would music be without them?
Grateful for our tears, and giggles... burps and wiggles.
Grateful for our human pain and suffering, and the truths these hide and reveal.
Grateful for the opportunity to laugh, cry, break, heal, war within, rise above, and kiss someone real.
Grateful for who we all are and our daring & courage to even attempt to create heaven right here in embodiment, let alone our ability to get a foothold, and build a fine & decent foundation.
Grateful for all the tricksters, heyokas, clowns, & bullies, who show up to polish our diamond light and ignite profound flames of mirrors and lesson.
Grateful for all my resistance, that unwieldily anchor to all human suffering!
Goddess bless allowing, certainty, knowing, greatness, freedom, purpose, rhythm, fluidity, humility, trust and love!
Goddess bless us all!
Infinite cheers to you and to me, and to all of us... and the muddy, bloody, shiny, sparkly adventures we slog through each and everyday, in human form. If this were all it was for, it would make for a pretty sad & strenuous set up.
Yet if our souls set this all into motion with grand purpose and design, as I sense, trust and know is so, then we're giants, blazing this bright freedom trail to a bold, expressive heaven, right smack in the middle of who we all are!
Phew!
Grateful that while I was twisting and fussing, wreathing and screaming at my loss of control within the human game... it's morphed into a truly glorious beautiful day!
Shine on Beloved Kindred Ones!
Flat tire photo credit: from the Discount Tire Blog... Google images search.