October 16, 2017, 4:00 PM
Facebook says there are about a million and a half women, and people sharing #MeToo
- in response to the invitation to share and raise awareness on the
question, and hot as hell topic of “Have you been sexually harassed
assaulted and or abused?”
I’m 52, female & outspoken, open minded, open hearted, outgoing, impassioned and social. So are you kidding me?... I could write a book on the countless times I can say absolutely, “metoo” and the countless times I’ve blurred the lines between sex and love, power over, and healthy attention, right up to this very moment.
And yes, as a woman, I have definitely misused my sexuality to get my own needs met, and hold some sort of power over men socialized to not say “no” to sexuality, women, or the intoxicating combination of both! It’s a murky spectrum from the innocence & joy of enchantment and attraction, interaction and attention, to the extremes of brutality, abuse, Narcissistic abuses, power over, conquering & our bizarre socialization, which often empowers forms of sexual terrorism. Let’s call it what it is #SexualTerrorism !
May our millions turn to billions, as in truthful, direct open
conversations, on social media, blog posts, in cafe’s, therapeutic
settings, private dialogs between friends and family, youth and elders,
and all of women who have voice to give to genuine experiences of
trauma, harm, abuse, betrayal and misuse of power.
Some are even married, while still enslaved by modern shackles of money, Narcissist partners, abuse, misogyny, control, and betrayal. These are the women and men who can’t blog today about how many women their husbands have had secret affairs with, because their lifestyle, (ie) current survival, may be locked down in a sea of lies. Easier to share tales of dick picks, and uninvited unzips in cars, and gropes in social settings, than some of what still passes for abuse, harassment and abuses of power, right here at home.
The soul has more to share, say and heal around this, if you know you are primarily a soul. If not give it a few lifetimes, as you come back and play all roles!
Last night I saw a few friends’ big bold posts of #MeToo. “What do they mean?” I wondered. When I searched on Facebook, around 36,000 people were posting about our experiences with sexual predators, abuses and the whole spectrum of sexual assault. Less than 24 hours later millions of people on Twitter, Instagram and Facebook are opening up our vulnerability, our personal histories, and memories of sexual abuse.
Some of my memories go back as early as womb time, as an Adoptee. I got off to a kind of savvy start, only a lot of this came into consciousness some time in my late thirties. Some confirmed, & some never can be. Still a patchwork quilt in process, as for all of us, featuring secrets, lies, experiences and stories active in our lineages, our DNA, our memories, our histories, our past lives, and more. At times this added vulnerability and magnetism to attracting predatory men and people, as well as sexual predators into my often open, innocent, pure hearted nature, field and life!Throughout my journey, this also attuned my 6th sense, my knowing, my instinctual intuitive knowing, and my empathy around friends, pets and people who have both been victims to abuse, and also predators of people!
There have been so many instances where my radar has picked up on children, women and people’s signals which vibe out as red flags of sexual predatory abuses.
I have, for the most part, barged in and spoken my fears, and knowings. Most of the time I have been met with barriers, ingrained generational and cultural walls, where I can get information in, yet I can not get it out, or make a difference. I have also learned to honor karma. If my path involved these countless instances of sexual abuse, projection and harm, and yours includes your flavors and styles, maybe there is a line in the sand, my soul is not authorized to cross.
So at times I have been scapegoated, ostracized, criticized, and attacked by people in life, for asking the obvious and impossible questions. There are a lot of conversations I would still welcome, and share, with those who have not yet been able to open to them. I have grown into deeper acceptance, that sometimes the best I can do is bud in, test the responses, bud out, and trust, that’s their soul’s journey, and ultimately business between God, and them, for now!
Our memories (the stuff that shaped us,) as well as our communities, schools, religions, workplaces, families, travels, governments, the collective, the media, and our larger history, are filled with abuses of power. Our sexual expression and communication is a giant outlet, where the shadow of these traumas, abuses, healing, and empowerment all takes place!
I came home and filled 2 note pads with my own memories of falling prey to sexually predatory people, and experiences. I read more, and the more I read, the more buried memories were triggered.
The more I remember, process, and read, the more I feel, sadness, rage, faith, hope, validation, healing, acceptance, blame, shame, pain, relief, release, forgiveness, and ultimately empowerment.
Truth is, we’re living on madly raped, pillaged, stolen land, amidst a young, predatory, invader race nation, built upon the revenges of war, conquest, enslavement, rape, genocide, destruction, misogyny, class & race wars, and rampant ongoing terrorism and destruction.
Thank Goddess, that’s not the only truth. The bigger truth centers as we rise, speak, spread, and share these, our truths.
My truth and feeling is, we presently face the peril of tragically remaining closed, broken victims and perpetrators, regarding sexual, race, class and all forms of power abuses, if we do not include the soul, in our material experiences!
In other words, shamanism, therapy, voicing truth tenderly and listening to friends voice theirs, the arts, spiritual community, books, film, media, social networks, music, and all the arts, anchor my crucial awakening, renewal, healing and empowerment! I am proud, ecstatic, grateful, and filled to overflowing, to gift and share, receive and be gifted, and also to steward and possess tools and a voice to inspire, empower, and facilitate the empowerment of my self and my fellow explorers, through the ravages of this old world, as it is collapsing.
No topic to take lightly, to me, and simultaneously I feel such a gusher of pure power unleashed in our coming together, illuminating our traumas, fears, experiences and tears, your experiences and vulnerabilities, and my own.
This is true power #TruePower !
This is #Empowerment !
This is #PowerWith & #TruePower !
This is the true power I’m talking about!
This empowerment conversation absolutely includes openly expressing our sexual power, and within it, sharing our experiences of sexual trauma, abuses of power, and ultimately our healing, our realizations, our transformations, and our triumphs.
I came here to live and tell a victor’s story. My victim story is embedded in my larger story of transformation, healing, truth, trust, vision and openness.
I am this empowerment story. I let the expression of these emergent Souls upshifting, uplift and inform me.
Women are powerful, sexuality is powerful, men are, and can be powerful, and we carry long long lineages of abuses of every kind and style.
Here is a response I wrote , to another “metoo”Jennifer post:
“A powerful share, Jennifer. Thank you. You triggered a memory I had buried, of working alone in a rugby shirt shop, in San Francisco, when a Handsome young male Mexican tourist spent a long time in the dressing room, only to flash me naked, while I was in my young 20’s, while alone in the small shop. Weirdly he was polite afterwards, and claimed it was part of an experiment for his college psychology class. I think I smiled and said, “I don’t think so!”
As you bring up, it’s a fine line, as long as we are in physical embodiment!
As women we’re taught to be healthy, beautiful, impassioned and warm. We are also all of these innately, and more.
It’s rampant. We joke about it. Saturday night I was out at a gallery opening where the topic turned to “the power of the pussy.” This is the weirdest world
🌎!
May we keep healing, rising and guiding our betterment, here on her.
Sadly the raping and pillaging of women, children and people, has
carried out into the rape of the world! We are here turning it around.
I feel so much heart and soulful empowerment as we rise up and openly
share our “MeToo‘s!"
I feel like mine needs and deserves a whole screenplay! Still mulling it all over & all I’ve come to, on the healing path of empowerment!
I read people & their body language. I hug almost everyone. I have become close friends with a fair number of men who started out with creepy overtones. Some of them, I later learned were victims themselves of sexual abuse. Often I am overly trusting and open. Throughout my life this trips men’s switches. I have been streaked at alone, a minimum of 3 times. Well more if you include those guys whose clothes I couldn’t get back on! One streaker was actually an inebriated homeless man, pleasuring himself naked, in an open trench coat. That haunted me for a while.
Everyone’s posts are triggering my aha’s, empathy, compassion, healing, wounding, memories, resilience & how profoundly powerful we are!
Women and humans are packed with power.
The perpetrators were all formed into perpetrators, in part through being victimized first. It’s a broad spectrum, this predatory sexuality. You expressed well the small moments of socialization, where hurt people express hurt in sick ways, on us, so to speak.
Thanks for adding your awareness to ours!”
- Jen Klarfeld #metoo
I’m 52, female & outspoken, open minded, open hearted, outgoing, impassioned and social. So are you kidding me?... I could write a book on the countless times I can say absolutely, “metoo” and the countless times I’ve blurred the lines between sex and love, power over, and healthy attention, right up to this very moment.
And yes, as a woman, I have definitely misused my sexuality to get my own needs met, and hold some sort of power over men socialized to not say “no” to sexuality, women, or the intoxicating combination of both! It’s a murky spectrum from the innocence & joy of enchantment and attraction, interaction and attention, to the extremes of brutality, abuse, Narcissistic abuses, power over, conquering & our bizarre socialization, which often empowers forms of sexual terrorism. Let’s call it what it is #SexualTerrorism !
Some are even married, while still enslaved by modern shackles of money, Narcissist partners, abuse, misogyny, control, and betrayal. These are the women and men who can’t blog today about how many women their husbands have had secret affairs with, because their lifestyle, (ie) current survival, may be locked down in a sea of lies. Easier to share tales of dick picks, and uninvited unzips in cars, and gropes in social settings, than some of what still passes for abuse, harassment and abuses of power, right here at home.
The soul has more to share, say and heal around this, if you know you are primarily a soul. If not give it a few lifetimes, as you come back and play all roles!
Last night I saw a few friends’ big bold posts of #MeToo. “What do they mean?” I wondered. When I searched on Facebook, around 36,000 people were posting about our experiences with sexual predators, abuses and the whole spectrum of sexual assault. Less than 24 hours later millions of people on Twitter, Instagram and Facebook are opening up our vulnerability, our personal histories, and memories of sexual abuse.
Some of my memories go back as early as womb time, as an Adoptee. I got off to a kind of savvy start, only a lot of this came into consciousness some time in my late thirties. Some confirmed, & some never can be. Still a patchwork quilt in process, as for all of us, featuring secrets, lies, experiences and stories active in our lineages, our DNA, our memories, our histories, our past lives, and more. At times this added vulnerability and magnetism to attracting predatory men and people, as well as sexual predators into my often open, innocent, pure hearted nature, field and life!Throughout my journey, this also attuned my 6th sense, my knowing, my instinctual intuitive knowing, and my empathy around friends, pets and people who have both been victims to abuse, and also predators of people!
There have been so many instances where my radar has picked up on children, women and people’s signals which vibe out as red flags of sexual predatory abuses.
I have, for the most part, barged in and spoken my fears, and knowings. Most of the time I have been met with barriers, ingrained generational and cultural walls, where I can get information in, yet I can not get it out, or make a difference. I have also learned to honor karma. If my path involved these countless instances of sexual abuse, projection and harm, and yours includes your flavors and styles, maybe there is a line in the sand, my soul is not authorized to cross.
So at times I have been scapegoated, ostracized, criticized, and attacked by people in life, for asking the obvious and impossible questions. There are a lot of conversations I would still welcome, and share, with those who have not yet been able to open to them. I have grown into deeper acceptance, that sometimes the best I can do is bud in, test the responses, bud out, and trust, that’s their soul’s journey, and ultimately business between God, and them, for now!
Our memories (the stuff that shaped us,) as well as our communities, schools, religions, workplaces, families, travels, governments, the collective, the media, and our larger history, are filled with abuses of power. Our sexual expression and communication is a giant outlet, where the shadow of these traumas, abuses, healing, and empowerment all takes place!
I came home and filled 2 note pads with my own memories of falling prey to sexually predatory people, and experiences. I read more, and the more I read, the more buried memories were triggered.
The more I remember, process, and read, the more I feel, sadness, rage, faith, hope, validation, healing, acceptance, blame, shame, pain, relief, release, forgiveness, and ultimately empowerment.
Truth is, we’re living on madly raped, pillaged, stolen land, amidst a young, predatory, invader race nation, built upon the revenges of war, conquest, enslavement, rape, genocide, destruction, misogyny, class & race wars, and rampant ongoing terrorism and destruction.
Thank Goddess, that’s not the only truth. The bigger truth centers as we rise, speak, spread, and share these, our truths.
My truth and feeling is, we presently face the peril of tragically remaining closed, broken victims and perpetrators, regarding sexual, race, class and all forms of power abuses, if we do not include the soul, in our material experiences!
In other words, shamanism, therapy, voicing truth tenderly and listening to friends voice theirs, the arts, spiritual community, books, film, media, social networks, music, and all the arts, anchor my crucial awakening, renewal, healing and empowerment! I am proud, ecstatic, grateful, and filled to overflowing, to gift and share, receive and be gifted, and also to steward and possess tools and a voice to inspire, empower, and facilitate the empowerment of my self and my fellow explorers, through the ravages of this old world, as it is collapsing.
No topic to take lightly, to me, and simultaneously I feel such a gusher of pure power unleashed in our coming together, illuminating our traumas, fears, experiences and tears, your experiences and vulnerabilities, and my own.
This is true power #TruePower !
This is #Empowerment !
This is #PowerWith & #TruePower !
This is the true power I’m talking about!
This empowerment conversation absolutely includes openly expressing our sexual power, and within it, sharing our experiences of sexual trauma, abuses of power, and ultimately our healing, our realizations, our transformations, and our triumphs.
I came here to live and tell a victor’s story. My victim story is embedded in my larger story of transformation, healing, truth, trust, vision and openness.
I am this empowerment story. I let the expression of these emergent Souls upshifting, uplift and inform me.
Women are powerful, sexuality is powerful, men are, and can be powerful, and we carry long long lineages of abuses of every kind and style.
Here is a response I wrote , to another “metoo”Jennifer post:
“A powerful share, Jennifer. Thank you. You triggered a memory I had buried, of working alone in a rugby shirt shop, in San Francisco, when a Handsome young male Mexican tourist spent a long time in the dressing room, only to flash me naked, while I was in my young 20’s, while alone in the small shop. Weirdly he was polite afterwards, and claimed it was part of an experiment for his college psychology class. I think I smiled and said, “I don’t think so!”
As you bring up, it’s a fine line, as long as we are in physical embodiment!
As women we’re taught to be healthy, beautiful, impassioned and warm. We are also all of these innately, and more.
It’s rampant. We joke about it. Saturday night I was out at a gallery opening where the topic turned to “the power of the pussy.” This is the weirdest world
🌎!
May we keep healing, rising and guiding our betterment, here on her.
Sadly the raping and pillaging of women, children and people, has
carried out into the rape of the world! We are here turning it around.
I feel so much heart and soulful empowerment as we rise up and openly
share our “MeToo‘s!"I feel like mine needs and deserves a whole screenplay! Still mulling it all over & all I’ve come to, on the healing path of empowerment!
I read people & their body language. I hug almost everyone. I have become close friends with a fair number of men who started out with creepy overtones. Some of them, I later learned were victims themselves of sexual abuse. Often I am overly trusting and open. Throughout my life this trips men’s switches. I have been streaked at alone, a minimum of 3 times. Well more if you include those guys whose clothes I couldn’t get back on! One streaker was actually an inebriated homeless man, pleasuring himself naked, in an open trench coat. That haunted me for a while.
Everyone’s posts are triggering my aha’s, empathy, compassion, healing, wounding, memories, resilience & how profoundly powerful we are!
Women and humans are packed with power.
The perpetrators were all formed into perpetrators, in part through being victimized first. It’s a broad spectrum, this predatory sexuality. You expressed well the small moments of socialization, where hurt people express hurt in sick ways, on us, so to speak.
Thanks for adding your awareness to ours!”
- Jen Klarfeld #metoo
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